Day 2 of oxycodone WD I'm Struggling

[Codone10]

Hello All,
This is only my second day of quitting oxycodone which i have been on for 1.5 years at 30-35mg a day. I'm struggling very hard and worst part is I'm at work with no way to go home. I can't have caffine to keep me awake due to a heart problem and I have issues with my throat that won't let me to swallow pills bigger then an Advil to help with sleeping, and pain. I was at my doctors and I told her whats going one....she gave me a script for more oxycodone...I'm fighting so hard not to get it filled, but the pain is to much to handle i don't know what to do please help!! I don't want to go back to where i was!

[Peg626]

CONGRATULATIONS on your decision to get clean & especially tearing up that script!!! I had one filled & waiting for me at the pharmacy when I quit cold turkey so I know for sure how hard that is!!! You are almost over the worst of it! I can't believe you are able to work, that is amazing! I didn't get out of bed for 3 days & I can't tell you how much better I felt just getting outside & walking half way down the block. That was a major accomplishment for me. By day 4, I was looking/acting more normal but I still had the hot/cold & sleep issues. I have sleep issues aside from my addiction so I don't know if the w/d just made things worse or not. Keep going, you are VERY strong & YOU CAN DO THIS!!!

[JayR07]

I could have never torn up that script so you have a big acheivement there.  I would have found some reason, against all logic, to fill that RX.  I will tell you that it is truly impossible for a person to have access to the drug that he/she has a problem with, and not give in.  For one, that voice keeps telling you it'll be okay to just take one, and then it's all downhill from there.  I am on day 3 of getting off Oxy so I feel your pain, but I promise you, it gets better.  My last time I actually made it 20 days, felt great, but when the opportunity presented itself, I couldn't say no.  This is a mother of a drug because it just feels too damn good when you take it.  I hate that I ever tried it.  Someone once said, it's a little piece of heaven.  That's what makes it so hard, but it's chasing a fantasy.  There are never enough pills.  It makes no sense, so we have to stop this.  Take care, and keep us informed.  The good feelings will come back, I promise.

[ilvmakindolls]

Way to go!  Sadly I was not as strong as you all are and I ended up doing the weaning program instead...I really wish I was as strong and could just go cold turkey.  It is hard even with weaning because they are right there calling my name all day long every day....luckily I have gotten through over a week and still going strong!  I just put it in my head that I need to get away from them at all cost...no matter what....and that I will be a lot better off.  Since I started my wean I can't believe how much I was missing.  It is like this huge fog is slowly lifting off me and I can finally "see"....it is a lot easier to concentrate and I feel a lot happier.  I guess deep down inside I have known for a couple months now I was addicted and the addiction was running my life..so I was depressed and felt guilty about it....but now I feel a lot stronger and am so happy just knowing that soon, I will be completely off them.  It feels so selfish of me to say this but I am so glad you all are here...I just wish it was for other reasons...for the help, support and kindness you have shown me so far.  What is one of the best things for me is knowing I have some where to turn for support from others who have been and who are where I am.  God Bless!

[dominosarah]

Way to go on tearing it up!!!  That takes a ton of strength to do!!  I am proud of you......sara

[Codone10]

As hard as it seemed to me i did tear up the script, to be honest im ashamed to say it was hard for me to do and something in my head tells me i shouldn't have done that but i know thats just the drug talking. Tomorrow will be day 3 for me I'm still going strong.

[wishful1]

You can do this, not only are u on day 2 but u are working So that deserves a big high five right there...Fill the script only if : u wanna go backwards, feel depressed about it, let the pills win, and u loose in the end. Just dont do it, tear it up and go home get some rest, ask ur doctor for xanax or some sort of anxiety meds, get some vitamins and just try to get passed this, u have already gone 2 days why turn back now? Keep us posted. -Betsy

[RickRilla]

Not many people can do this but you seem ready to quit. Tear up script now. You don't need a pill to run your every thought like it did mine. Day 5 you feel tons.better, it gets better every day.

[dominosarah]

Tear up that script.  It will call your name till you do.  When we stop our pain meds our pain will increase for a bit.  This is called rebound pain.  Most of found that our pain actually got better after we got thru this period.  Hang in there, i know it is tough but you can do this.  We are here for you so lean on us.........sara

[Codone10]

Ok I'll keep fighting this, I never new it would be this hard so I have much respect for you and others that have been fighting this battle. Its so hard knowing I have the prescription in front of me and I don't know if i should just through it away or ignore the fact it is even there. I will try the energy water to help keep me awake. Fighting this is easier knowing I have people to talk to going through the same thing. :)

[RickRilla]

It gets better after today trust me. Look at my post. I'm on day 6 of clean life. Feels awesome. Take tomorrow off and you will be fine by Monday. Drink muscle milk, it helped me a lot. Also, try cytomax its a energy drink like gatorade. No caffeine in it. Good luck, I just fought off a 2 year pill addiction along with 12 year pot addiction.