Day 3 w/d off Vicodin

[CuriousGeorge817]

I'm sure I'm not the first to post about it but I'm w/d from Vicodin. I've only abused these pain killers and weed, I got clean for 6 months and relapsed now that's been 6 months ago. That " just for this weekend only" thought process finally got me. This time had a family member offering me a few for falling off my bike. I have the sneezes and bad sleep a little RLS manly cause I'm not up doing anything. Mentally I'm depressed so I'm pretty unmotivated my emotions are all over the place. I know addicts understand the guilt you feel going through this again specially after being clean for over half a year. That sense of having to start over ***** I know you just gotta push on.

[Knifeguy]

Day three was brutal for me. First two weeks were really rough. I'm at 6 weeks and Feel great. There's a point where you go through the day and don't even think about it. If I went to meetings it would make me want to use more... so they aren't for everyone. Working full time and managing a busy household w kids makes the days go by fast. Hiking on my days off have been really enjoyable since clean... my greater power is nature, and I'm enjoying it again. Sometimes I think at the end of the day, when I'm sore and resting, that a pain killer would be nice.... but I feel so much better off of them, sleep better (also cut back major on caffeine) feel Less stressed, More relaxed and look better... younger, and all that is major motivation. I want to live long... and taking too much poison will kill you. Once you commit to stopping, wanting to  enter yourself, and look at them as something really bad for you, it's a lot easier to stop and not look back.

[jifmoc]

This is the time to go to meetings!

[CuriousGeorge817]

Day 7 I've been really aggitated, just want to feel relaxed here and there without my legs feeling like they need to run a 10k. Ate a good breakfast took a couple vitamins and trying to find ways to pass time I've already cleaned my whole house and re arranged everything. How much longer do you feel like the mental
Aspect of it all will pass? I know I need to exercise more but I really need my motivation back. Ready to be out of the woods anyways day 7 a little tougher but holding in there. Anyone around the same time give me a shout could use a talk buddy! Take care

[CuriousGeorge817]

Starting day 7 hopefully it's a good one, y'all keep me posted on what to expect for week 2.

[CuriousGeorge817]

Yes I'm starting to think about trying NA, I just want to get out of the funk first. I also clean the house to pass the time, I opened up the windows and it was in the 60's sunny and I feel asleep a good 6 hours and now I've been up since. Fell asleep to early, anyways still hoping to get motivated enough to find a hobby lol. Thank you both for the replies.

[jifmoc]

Hey, George. You'll find that the people w/ significant clean time are all in aftercare. We can't fix our addict brains w/ our addict brains. We need to learn how to live and deal, w/o drugs and alcohol. Go to a meeting, NA or AA. I kicked and screamed and it was the last thing I wanted to do but it saved me. It actually removed the desire to use. A freakin miracle.

[CuriousGeorge817]

Well starting day 5 off opiates, this sense of restlessness is the only problem I find aggravating. The only other things I'm dealing with is the upset stomach a little sneezing. The restlessness can turn into boredom or as I call it "wanting to use time" so those are my little problems. I've been getting sleep each night but I've been taking sleep aids. I've had an appetite sense stopping not a normal one but enough to eat a couple meals, might be why I get upset stomachs in the morning. I should get Imodium but haven't gotten around to it. It's 6 am here I just slept about 9 hours so I have quite a bit of energy just not a whole lot of motivation. How did y'all find new hobbies when nothing Intrest you or atleast it doesn't for me??

[waterLilly7]

wow, friend, you are doing great! Just the fact you can sleep, even with sleep aids is great, and the fact you can eat a couple of meals, and the fact that you get bored.
I could not get bored for the first month because my head was under the covers in fear of God knows what due to the anxiety monster.
What I did to pass time is watch nothing but HOUSE reruns and a very calm drama movie every now and then.
It had to be HOUSE and the movies had to be calm, not comedy, and not a lot of commotion. I got into Jane Austin a lot. I would do housework one thing at a time, an rest, half the top rack of dishwasher, rest, second half rest, half of lower rack, rest, etc. etc.
Keep at it, don't look back. We are cheering for you.
Hugs,
Lily

[CuriousGeorge817]

I've been watching quite a bit of t.v and internet surfing about addiction. I found music can really alter my mood like it's always done. So I try to listen to music more now and a little cleaning with the windows up is nice. Figure take some
Vitamin c pill ( only vitamin I have) try to get some sun and just let the house air out. Been doing turkey sandwiches everyday with corn or tostitos chips lol even a couple hot pockets. Plenty of water and geterade. Feel like I'm almost over the physical part but the mental will still be difficult. And once I quite using these sleep aids I'm going to probably have a hard time sleeping again lol. Thank you for the response