5 days opiate free

[tommytom14]

hey guys. today is day 5 off opiates for me. this is my first serious attempt at getting clean since june 2012. i've been taking anywhere from 5mg to 80mg norco/perc/lortab per day for about 2 years. i've detoxed involuntarily numerous times in the last couple years, and it gets worse every time. honestly, i can't seem to understand the reasons i subject myself to this exhausting lifestyle. but man, the high is like a transcendence to me. i'm an introvert by nature. i keep my guard up and protect my thoughts and emotions from almost everyone but my wife. but opiates bring the inside out and allow me to connect with people on a higher level. but as good as i make it sound, it's not sustainable. every time i think i'm in control, and every time i've been wrong. 100%. so my last dose was monday, march 31. I took 30-40mg oxycodone. felt ok day one. progressively wrose every hour. felt horrible so i called in sick days 2 & 3. worked half a day yesterday, day 4. got a text from my guy yesterday. that put me in a weird place mentally, but ultimately i was able to resist the urge to cop and relapse. finally, for the first time in almost 2 years, my rational brain trumped my addict brain and understood the consequences of relaspe; mainly hitting reset on detox. in addition to my guy, i also get 60 5mg norco per month legally from my dr. that script is normally filled around the 12th of the month, so i have another hurdle coming up in the near future. i've been reading a lot of your posts on here and believe me, it helps so much to know i'm not doing this on my own. good luck to you all. embrace the struggle, and remember that one is too many, and 10,000 is never enough.

[Real180]

Congrats on 5 days!!

[lild713]

Man, Congrats!

[Amandag78]

Hey Tommy, congratulations on day 5 !!!
Well done : )

[jugglin]

So true what the others said.  You will get thru the physical WD's, you have before.  While u r feeling strong mentally at the moment, that can change at the drop of  hat. Now is the time to cut sources..block the number of any dealer or "friends" who help u out. Cancel the refill now.  Call the Dr or get an appt and tell him you are an addict and no more scripts.  I sweated profusely when I told my Dr cuz this meant REALLY no more for me.  You must take these precautions to succeed.  Since this isn't your first time, have you thought about aftercare?  NA/AA?
Congrats to you for wanting your life back and fighting for it!  Congrats on your day 5!  Keep pushing forward!

[Ldytaz]

Congrats, on day 5..U have to fight the temptation to get that script.2 yrs ago when I quit tabs I got a script for 90 10/500 a month and from friends..I canceled my drs appt,never picked up last script,changed our numbers(all 3) and started down that road without the constant reminders.take it one day at a time..and keep on going...we r here for u...

[motye51]

Congragulations on day 5...what a feat that is! Every day it will get a little easier so keep holding steady. One day, one hour, one minute at a time....u can do this. Call and cancel the refill....u found telling the people around me made it soo I couldn't pick up. Tell your support system...husband/wife, Dr, pharmacy, etc... It does.help! Push forward and charge it!

[ariley13]

Hey Tommy. Congrats to you on your 5 days clean! It sounds like you are really ready for this and want it badly. That's half the battle right there. Have you considered taking steps to cut your sources for pills? Change your # maybe? I know you fought temptation once already (and great job on that!), but why continue to test yourself? If you are committed to quitting for good there is no need to keep options open. You are doing a great job. Keep up all of the hard work and keep fighting. Things will continue to get better and better!