I cant think of any disease, broken bones, etc. that doesn't require aftercare.
I'm in the same boat as u are; I always got clean and relapsed on Vicodin for years, been to rehab and methadone clinics twice; vowing never again cuz I hate having to go to methadone clinic. But now I'm older and had surgeries and joint pain, arthritis and what I've always needed them for in my early years; migraines I just can't see my life living in excruciating pain like this; yet I'm once again addicted to them again, eating them up too fast and suffering withdrawals waiting til I can call in my next refill, then getting brave and calling in too soon; I've been cut off by doctors because of that when I get careless then have to search for another one. It's a horrible way to live. I don't even get the high off of them anymore, just the shakes for more and more; it totally *****.
You just have to want it more than you want to use. It's just not fun anymore and we can still see the mess we have made while using.
Every couselor will be confidential.
Give it a try.
I have been checking into some anonymous ways of getting some help. I know that i cant keep doing it on my own. With no one to talk to ive turned to this site for inspiration and its been helping me tremedously.
Thanks for the response. Ive noticed that you are very involved in all the post. Your opinion has really helped open my eyes along with the opinions of others that i have to stop making excuses for myself.
Using is only a symptom of addiction. We bury many demons while we are using. Gotta get to the bottom of it. Is there anyway you can see a counselor or something?
So sorry. I am on day 4 as well from several relapses and aked the same questions. The answers I got were that I had to cut all my sources and also after care. If you really want to stay clean you have to listen to the advice of the people who have gone thru this and what worked for them. They are racking up clean time and still trying to help us so we have to do what works if we really want to stay clean.w
We have to be very open minded and want it more than anything. We can't make excuses for why we can't do this or this.
That's just what I have gotten and what I am working on.
Good luck. I know how hard it tis.