THANK YOU ALL for your insight and words of encouragement!!! It was great to read, for the first time in a while I did not feel alone. Today is day 63, wish I could say I’m 100%, but I’m not. Good news is though I don’t sleep great i am getting around 5to6 hours a night, which is great. I have less of the RLS episodes during the day and at night. I were to guess I’d say around 5 to 7 Times a day/night in total. That is just a ball park, it seems that no 2 days are the same. For instance the last two days have been awe full, very sad and feeling alone. I just tell myself it’s temporary and it will pass. I know that I’m making it sound gloomy, but I’m happy, and proud of my progress. I’m hoping to one day be the old me, but I’m not even sure who that is at this point. After 10 years I don’t really remember. But I’m excited to meet him!
Keep us posted and add me to your friends. Message me anytime. I'm going thru something similar. I'm down to .83 mg and teeing to get down to .66 then .5 etc. I already feel the taper so I'm not trying to jump just yet but I feel you and I too want nothing more than to be free of this.
I was in a very similar situation to yourself, on opiate painkillers for 4 years and then subs for 4+ until I jumped off at a low dosage. The number one thing I will tell you that will help is exercise. No matter how bad you feel, how tired or lethargic, just go walk for a couple miles. Go to the gym, go play a sport if you're into that kinda thing, or simply walk down the street. It makes sleeping easier, and it really helps with the anxiety/depression. I've been completely clean/relapse free for 2.5 years now.
I hear everything you just said and i want you to know everything your feeling is 100% normal. I came off a high daily dose of subs cold turkey on jan 1st, 2014. My dr as well, stated i should be on maintenance dose for the rest of my life. Bull**it!
I crapped tapioca for months, sleep was off if not non-exsistent. Keep taking the vitamins, start trying to exercise as much as you can. Even if its just walking around the block....force yourself to do it. My energy would come in spurts then i would get exhausted and go down. I can honestly say i started feeling better at 90 days. It will cone but subs gets into our muscles and bones....i would feel it coming out of the bones in my legs fir awhile.
The other thing that helped me TREMENDOUSLY was getting into recovery. No lie, it brought me physical relief. N/A is what i chose, but there are other options. But this step is what got me over the hump and allowed me to keep going.
Not funny, but when you mentioned locking yourself in your hotel room it totally took me back. I locked myself in my bedroom for over 30 days i didnt leave the house. My husbabd would cone home from work and put me in the car just to go for a ride listening to loud music. It helped! When i went back to work i could only work for a hour or two, then i had to go home. Subs are a tough thing to come off of but WELL WORTH IT when you do.
Keep posting!!!!
Hello, First off, congratulations on your 44 days off subs. That's a huge feat. I never took this drug, but I WAS on opiates for over a decade, and went off them cold turkey, voluntarily. That was over three years ago. I'm one of the lucky ones...although my body was extremely habituated to the drug I was taking, once I stopped, I had no craving for it. I WAS, however, horribly sick for a very long time.
That's why I wanted to reach out to you and tell you that, in my humble opinion, yes, this will get much better...you just need more time. And time takes time...I know that sounds stupid but it is so true.
I had insanely bad w/d symptoms for a month, then other strange bodily effects for another 3 months, and truth be told, my sleep is still messed up. Maybe it will never be back to where it was, but I'm willing to pay that price to be OFF opiates, which just wreck your body and mind.
Hang in there. You're only as weak or strong as you tell yourself. 44 days is fantastic, but you took those subs 5 years...that's a long time. You're body needs more time...be gentle and kind to yourself and stick to the course you're on. Good luck.
HC