Improve relationships and thinking

[kukanaka]

I'm taking painkillers for a very long time. Now I find I'm grumpy and don't like talking to friends.
When I do talk I tend to have difficulty getting to the point. My thinking has become confused and my fear of sounding stupid has led to my avoiding my family and friends. I stay inside most of the day watching tv. My housework has piled up as has my laundry and dust balls.

I can't go over my monthly prescription total but that doesn't mean I don't try. My script now is Hydrocodone/acetominophine 10mg (3x/day). Around the second week of each month I count my pills and try and budget how to get through until my  next script. This happens every month. (Sometimes I count my remaining pills 4-6 times)

My pain back, neck, knee. I think these all may have begun with an injury but now they are a part of my getting older.

I want to quit. My thinking and management tools and all my willpower are smoke and dust.

[jifmoc]

Eek, I mean "right" not "write"...sheesh!

[jifmoc]

Hiya. Everything you described is write outta the opiate addict handbook!:) That was my life exactly as well. We don't HAVE willpower (has nothing to do w/ that); when it comes to pills, we have zero control.

As my lovely pals above stated, if you wanna get off the merry-go-round, that ain't so merry, tell us. We've all been where you are. It can be done.

Keep posting, and let us know when:)

[PurrfectlyKrazy]

Hi and welcome to our forum.

You've come to the right place if you want to get off the drugs...whether it is through a taper or through CT detox.  We are here for support and to help in any way that we can.  We can help with things that will tone down the WD symptoms, we have a lot of folks here who have been on the sobriety path for a long time and they are wonderful at helping with information about aftercare and how to live your life on the sobriety path.

When you are ready to jump just let us know.  We'll give you the information and support you need to get you through the Detox.

Hope to hear back from you soon!

[gnarly_1]

Hi and welcome to the forum  if you want out of this madness we can help keep reading the posts you will get an idia of what it is like to detox this is not the end but a new beginning you can get you life back if your willing to go threw a detox  now you can taper but your not really on enough to warent that  it would be better if you just C/Ted and jumped  it is about 4 days of hell with most people seeing the light at day 5 or 6 read up on the things you need ask lots of questions and when your ready let us know so we can help  this is very doable and you dont need to be chained to a pill bottle any more....Gnarly