Day6 but back to Day1 :(

[Bella8231]

My withdrawal was gone on Day 5. But the cravings were horrible! I'm having them now. I messed up yesterday and took 1 750p. I need to stay away. I don't want tO be sick all over again.  I hate cravings. I hate this disease. I know I can get threw this but damn this is hard!

[smiles4eva]

I have been where you two are since March.  Three detoxes later and 5 months of mental anguish is the pits.  Using here and there and just a few to avoid withdrawals again hasn't  worked. I end up back to square one. I have legit pain and a prescription but the fact is I am too young to be on these evil things forever.  My next detox is planned to the T including asking my pain mgmt dr help.  Please please please just do it.  Don't do what I have done.  I wish you both the best.

[Brightfutureahead]

You are still posting so that shows that you want to get things right...

Saying 'bye' to all of those 'friends' that were giving me what I thought I needed was the hardest thing I had to do...but it was the best thing I could have done!

30+ days later and those little cravings pop up less and less...and with some form of support you can learn how to deal with them...it does not come over night...is a process...you have to learn...might not ever be 'perfect' (who is) but you can learn how to not listen and actually live again!  Take it day by day. Cut your sources. Don't use. Get some aftercare/support. Keep posting. Its not just 'blah blah blah' it's the truth take it seriously...(I'm not saying that's how you think...I'm saying that's how I thought at first when someone would talk to me about cutting sources and aftercare). I never got it right until I listened.

Be strong and have faith in yourself Bella :)

[Nursey7]

Don't get to far back into this; get back on track now!!  Why do u still have pills around u?! It just can't happen. You are going to have cravings and that's just a fact. I am on day 34 and I am still craving and there are times that are pretty bad. I feel like I am going crazy. BUT- I don't have any pills or access to them so there ya go. I know it's the hardest thing to do to cut your source, flush them, whatever but there is no other way. These people on this forum have been there and are clean for awhile and they know what they are talking about!!  Man I was so mad when I flushed my pills because I listened to someone on here. I was mad when I took a bottle back to the pharmacy because I was tired of someone getting on my case about why I even had them. But I sure am happier now and so thankful for this forum. You can do this do come on......

[Bella8231]

Thank you for the encouragement! I really needed that!  I always thought the withdrawals were going to be the worst part. I thought it would be done and I wouldn't care. I never expected cravings this strong!  

[dominosarah]

Flush the rest of the pills that you have.  You gotta get rid of whoever is supplying those pills or this will keep going on.  We have to change our playmates and playground.  Find a recovery care program that fits your needs.  That will help with the mental part.  The physical wd;s are no fun but it is something you keep doing to yourself.  You are in the drivers seat now.   Take charge of your life.  You dont have to be a prisoner to these pills anymore.  You can do this!

[Life360_Dave]

Whats good about you and Bella is that when you did guit you lowered the opiate level in your body. Keep trying. the lower the better, the lower the less withdrawal.

[kme17]

I am with u Bella. I was on day 5 and got a bunch for the weekend. Then I was on day 2 n did a few yesterday n a few today. I am going to try n stop again. I don't want to deal w the bad physical part of wd. But the mental won't stop until I completely do too. I with us both luck!

[sara752]

yes bella this disease is a nightmare to get threw, but can b done, believe me nothing is worse then staying in the addiction & chasing thoe pills every day !! as long as we dont pic up that 1rst pill things will keep geting better each day, god bless.. just jump back up & start again, u CAN do this..