I've been clean from vicodin for over 4 months now and clean from tramadol for almost a full month (over 4 weeks). I had gotten to the point where I am feeling great, and even my chronic pain is tolerable.
However, this morning I woke up with such a craving for that old high, to feel that nice glow of happiness as the vicodin settled into my bloodstream. It was scary; I thought i was through with that. There wasn't any of the physical symptoms such as the ache in the shoulders, the tight neck, the headache and the RLS type stuff that goes on, but I did feel a strong need for that buzz again.
Nothing helped, including my old standby crutch, OTC Benedryl. I even drove the Vette to work today, usually something that makes me break out in major grins.
Finally I logged on to this forum, and read a few posts. Whoa. I feel fine now. Yep, some of y'all scared the **** out of me.
It's amazing what happens when you put things into perspective. Thanks to you all. I know some of you out there are really hurting, but please know you helped a fellow addict today and kept him from doing something really dumb. God Bless you.