I just had a chance to read your posts re: God/Jesus and praying
I was raised in a church, taught about "religion" and after getting clean excepted God inot my life, I have one problem now, since my mom died i have been questioning the same questions Maryann asked Is there God, how do I know? I am not comfortable with this. I used to believe that when we die we go to heaven, float around up there happy and painfree, Now I find this sooooooo hard to believe. Is mom up there looking down on me? Is she upset that I am so torn up by her death? She would be very sad to see how I am feeling? I picked up at book today at the daycare where i work (it is in a church) for some reason it jumped out a me today, call When Christ comes. It talks about life after death and other things I am questioning. I did go into the church for a few days in a row, I prayed my heart out. I just want you to know that everthing you say makes so much sense, if I could just put your words into action, thank you Love to all cindi
Hi, Im Marque, Im new to the forum. Been reading about this depression thing.Ive been clean from Vicodin for about 7 1/2 mos now...My Doc has me on Zoloff 50 mgs a day and Deprecote. This med dont seem to help my dep. much at all I guess. I suppose the only way is to stop taking it and see if Im even worse. I have never been thru anything like this before. I used Vico's Es for about 3 yrs and started as little as 1 or 2 day and went up to about 8/or 9 a day last july before detox. My question is like so many others out here. 7 1/2 mos is a long time to be in Depression and having bouts of anxiety. Wonder how long this Protracted Abinence Syndrome lasts.....When I dream I still remember how I was before all the Vicos and this low depress feelings.............thanks, Marque
I know your post was addressed to Spook, but I couldn't help but respond to you...even after great hesitation. I said I would refrain from lengthy doctrinal postings. All I want to tell you is that you are on the right track. Keep praying and talking to God...in the name of jesus (the mediator). Ask him for enlightenment and understanding.....you will be amazed at what you will find. Tell him to send the Holy spirit...this will help you understand. This is what I told my best friend before she died......She was not so sure either, but when the moment was upon her, she was at great peace. If it's any consolation, I was raised Catholic. What a journey it has been. I appreciate you candid honesty. I wish you peace and great wisdom. You deserve it. Remember...when life get's to be to much; cast your burdens on Him. He cares, and so do I.
Where is Spook anyway........starting to miss the old boy???
Love ya,
Annie
It works, it really does. And you have benefited from it. I just wanted to let you know that I know. J.B.
Spook, I just read your reply to me (I haven't been on the forum for several days) I want to say that I am very sorry to read what you've been through and am glad to have come to "know" you here. I must say that while I was not an atheist (grew up Catholic) - I found it hard to really understand or believe in God. I did not deny him, I just couldn't figure the whole thing out and was thinking, "What if I die and nothing happens? How do people KNOW there is a God? Jesus?" For some reason recently I have come to believe that there really is. I just want to be closer to HIM. You have really enlightened me with your posts. I find them to be facinating. I speak with God almost every day (don't get a direct answer) but still I speak to him. I was having SO MUCH anxiety about my life which was causing insomnia and needless worrying. One night, I lay in bed and just said, "God, I know you will guide me and I trust you. I know that you will help me help myself and provide for me. I know this and do not need to worry" and I am not joking, since that night, my anxiety has almost disappeared! And things have been going my way. People are agreeing, and things are getting approved (at work, my new place to live), everything. I hope you are well Spook and look forward to reading more posts from you! Take care friend, Maryanne
How are yall doing. Stupid question, Huh. Glad to hear from you. My husband went on LSD trips when he was a kid. Talk about messing w/ brain chemistry. Took him years to get over the episodes. He was deeply troubled. I only did it once, just as an experiment, to understand what my husband went through. My soul was troubled for days. Everyone speaks of the enlightened experience....I can't say the same. I saw straight through people. Was very scary. If I can help anyone in this situation I will. I don't believe people actually know what they are doing here. I have a lot of resources on this topic. If anyone wants to see a good video......Get Hell bells from your local christian video store. Very good.
Musicians will even testify to the fact, they become someone other than themselves. They are not who they seem on stage. I come from a long line of family musicians. This is why I am intrigued by all of this.
Love to you and your wife JB.
Annie