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I have been on off pills for 11 yrs. started with kidney stones and than went into a back thing. My choice was Vic and perc any kind. I also have taken 2 mg or less of suboxome a day but for no more than 7 days straight and only maybe 2-3x. This time I stopped for good! I am done - I am a 40 yr old woman, I have a family and recently lost my mom whom I took care of. I was taking about 160 mg of perc a day - I stopped Labor Day - after taking 30 mg for two days - I took about 1.5 mg of suboxome on Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday was about 1 mg and Friday was . 5. Today is Saturday and I haven't taken anything still fee yucky but ok - oh yeah I injured my tailbone Monday morning - so I did this just using ibuprofen too and sucking up the pain but I want to know if I should expect anything after these couple of days - I am in this for the long haul, this is going to be something I have to fight for! I have a support group and starting meetings on Tuesday - most of my family knows (the ones that will hold me to my word). I heavly used over the last yr and a half - I did quit for about 2 weeks (a month and a half ago) but that wasn't by choice.
I have been on off pills for 11 yrs. started with kidney stones and than went into a back thing. My choice was Vic and perc any kind. I also have taken 2 mg or less of suboxome a day but for no more than 7 days straight and only maybe 2-3x. This time I stopped for good! I am done - I am a 40 yr old woman, I have a family and recently lost my mom whom I took care of. I was taking about 160 mg of perc a day - I stopped Labor Day - after taking 30 mg for two days - I took about 1.5 mg of suboxome on Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday was about 1 mg and Friday was . 5. Today is Saturday and I haven't taken anything still fee yucky but ok - oh yeah I injured my tailbone Monday morning - so I did this just using ibuprofen too and sucking up the pain but I want to know if I should expect anything after these couple of days - I am in this for the long haul, this is going to be something I have to fight for! I have a support group and starting meetings on Tuesday - most of my family knows (the ones that will hold me to my word). I heavly used over the last yr and a half - I did quit for about 2 weeks (a month and a half ago) but that wasn't by choice.
The first freaking dream I have or remember in at least a yr and a half and it's about taking a pill! Lol oh well I just have to push thru this - I am pushing myself but still being very good to my body and still resting a little. Sleep is returning to normal but wow I am po'ed I had that dream - feels like everything I just did was for nothing! I know dumb thinking - my body just trying to get one. This is going to continue to get better! I know I made the right choice!
YAY Congrats on the 10 days....a huge accomplishment. Every day you will see slight signs of progress. Many things will clear up quickly....others will take longer like sleeping, the mind playing tricks on you and energy levels.
Keep up with the hot baths with epsom salts, a good steam or hot tub is really great at this point and time too. Pick up the B-12 sublingual at Walmart or go injectable if you can. You will hate the lack of energy part...we all do.
This is a great time for you to get started on your aftercare. Those who are the most successful at beating their addiction are the ones who focus on aftercare a lot!
Once again, congratulations!
Keep up with the hot baths with epsom salts, a good steam or hot tub is really great at this point and time too. Pick up the B-12 sublingual at Walmart or go injectable if you can. You will hate the lack of energy part...we all do.
This is a great time for you to get started on your aftercare. Those who are the most successful at beating their addiction are the ones who focus on aftercare a lot!
Once again, congratulations!
Thank you! I am 10 days and I can say now I am beginning to feel human - I can feel all the toxins getting out. I am a little shaky yet but I am still determined - the pain is lessening even if its a little bit everyday!
Thank you! I am 10 days and I can say now I am beginning to feel human - I can feel all the toxins getting out. I am a little shaky yet but I am still determined - the pain is lessening even if its a little bit everyday!
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Congrats on wanting to get your life back!! You made a good decision. Your pain will increase for a bit as we experience rebound pain once we stop the pills. Give your body some time to adjust to its new role. Many of us had less pain once we were thru this stage. I am glad to hear you have family support as that is very important. Be careful right now so you dont overwhelm your brain. Focus on the journey, not the destination~
I hate the no sleep thing too! That will get better...at one point I was almost 10 days with maybe a total of 4 hours sleep---it was awful. I start trying anything at that point to sleep.
What finally worked for me was tricking my brain. I turned the lights low in the living room, put on a movie (low volume), grabbed my kindle, put a heating pad on my lower back and started reading. I fell asleep!! OMG how did that happen? We figured what happened is my body fell for the trick. It thought we were going to sit up, watch the movie and maybe read a little bit. HA! Oh yeah, a cat showed up to snuggle on my lap.
Between the heat and the purrs I finally slept for 7 hours straight. Unfortunately my little trick did not work for 2 nights in a row :-(
What finally worked for me was tricking my brain. I turned the lights low in the living room, put on a movie (low volume), grabbed my kindle, put a heating pad on my lower back and started reading. I fell asleep!! OMG how did that happen? We figured what happened is my body fell for the trick. It thought we were going to sit up, watch the movie and maybe read a little bit. HA! Oh yeah, a cat showed up to snuggle on my lap.
Between the heat and the purrs I finally slept for 7 hours straight. Unfortunately my little trick did not work for 2 nights in a row :-(
What is even worse is the deer in headlights look....they look like they want to run away and deny they know you!
Good on you...glad you are on the right track...but remember...you do NOT have to suffer in silence. If you are wide awake and just want to grumble come on by....a lot of us come in here especially when we can't sleep :-)
Good on you...glad you are on the right track...but remember...you do NOT have to suffer in silence. If you are wide awake and just want to grumble come on by....a lot of us come in here especially when we can't sleep :-)
My one friend is like that - I know how you feel - you have no clue what I am going thru!
Yes still going thru minor withdrawal from subs now - I stopped taking it Friday so a few more days - I have gotten thru the worst - my nerve endings are coming to life now too so I know I am on the right track but wow is it hard!
How are you doing? Still going to detox? Please post and let us know how you are feeling, if you are detoxing and if you are detoxing let us know if you have any questions....or just vent if you need to. We've all been there and most of us vented our frustrations out here. So lovely to be able to vent, say what we gotta say and know that everyone here that says I understand really means it. Doesn't it suck when someone says that? "Oh I understand" Oh hell no you don't....have you ever done it? "No" Then go away!!! lol
Thinking about you and praying for you!
Thinking about you and praying for you!
That's great that you've come here to do some reading. I always learn something new every day. I have a lot of grief issues which is why I thought of the grief counseling. My father passed away 3 years ago. He would not communicate with me at all.....he never forgave me for walking away from him. Well, he was a very violent alcoholic and he never changed. I chose to not have that in my life. This may sound harsh but I told him when I turned 18 that he had to choose...me or the alcohol. Mind you, at the time I thought he had that choice...I didn't realize that he had a disease. Probably wouldn't have changed anything because he was still violent.
Anyway, it took me quite a while to realize that I not only was using my pain medication for legitimate pain but I was also using it as a panacea for my grief.
I also have to say that even though most of us got hooked because of pain issues most of us also liked the euphoria, the energy, etc that we got from the pain pills....
So glad that you recognize what you have to do and I'm glad you'll think about the grief counseling. We not only have to fix ourselves physically but we also have to work on ourselves mentally.
Take care....hope you keep on posting!
Anyway, it took me quite a while to realize that I not only was using my pain medication for legitimate pain but I was also using it as a panacea for my grief.
I also have to say that even though most of us got hooked because of pain issues most of us also liked the euphoria, the energy, etc that we got from the pain pills....
So glad that you recognize what you have to do and I'm glad you'll think about the grief counseling. We not only have to fix ourselves physically but we also have to work on ourselves mentally.
Take care....hope you keep on posting!
When I am feeling weak which is the worst at night I come on here. I have been reading over the past couple of weeks. Thank you and I was not really in that much pain, truly just loved the high - grief consoling I will look into - I never thought about cause it and it's been a hellous 7 years I would not wish on anyone. Thank you
Hi Determined.
First...a huge congrats on taking that first step. I took my last dose of suboxone 49 days ago. I am a 53 year old male and a long time abuser. Every single detox seems to b different so it is difficult to tell u whether u will feel worse as the days progress. Some do while others seem to get by fine. Sub does indeed take longer to get thru the system, so you may feel worse as your body gets clean.
Lots of good advice can b found on this site in regards to making wd's a bit more bearable. But.... There really is no magic answer, wd's are pretty much inevitable. Hang tough. You can do this. I can tell you it's worth it. Very very worth it so stay focused on keeping clean. We will b pulling for you.
First...a huge congrats on taking that first step. I took my last dose of suboxone 49 days ago. I am a 53 year old male and a long time abuser. Every single detox seems to b different so it is difficult to tell u whether u will feel worse as the days progress. Some do while others seem to get by fine. Sub does indeed take longer to get thru the system, so you may feel worse as your body gets clean.
Lots of good advice can b found on this site in regards to making wd's a bit more bearable. But.... There really is no magic answer, wd's are pretty much inevitable. Hang tough. You can do this. I can tell you it's worth it. Very very worth it so stay focused on keeping clean. We will b pulling for you.
Welcome to our MH Family and Forum and congratulations for making one of the best decisions of your life.
Detoxing is such a hard thing to do and then the aftercare afterwards is also difficult.
I think because of losing our mother (I'm so, so very sorry that happened to you) AND your injury that you should rethink a few things.
In addition to NA meetings you should seriously consider some grief counseling. Even if you think you are fine this is one of those things that can sneak up on you without warning and cause you to used again.
The 2nd thing is you need to start finding non-opiate ways to manage pain. I can give you a few suggestions: voltaren gel (anti-inflammatory, non addictive), Lidoderm patches (lidocaine, non-addictive and works really good), hot yoga, twinges and hinges aerobics at your local YMCA.
All of these things will help you and I know you will get more advice as time goes on.
I have to get some rest now but once again welcome....come back often, read the posts of others here (most of us deal with chronic pain of some kind or other. Offer advice if you are confidence about what you are going to say. That also helps. In my case it is a constant reminder of where I was and where I could end up again.
Will be back soon..hope to see you again!
Detoxing is such a hard thing to do and then the aftercare afterwards is also difficult.
I think because of losing our mother (I'm so, so very sorry that happened to you) AND your injury that you should rethink a few things.
In addition to NA meetings you should seriously consider some grief counseling. Even if you think you are fine this is one of those things that can sneak up on you without warning and cause you to used again.
The 2nd thing is you need to start finding non-opiate ways to manage pain. I can give you a few suggestions: voltaren gel (anti-inflammatory, non addictive), Lidoderm patches (lidocaine, non-addictive and works really good), hot yoga, twinges and hinges aerobics at your local YMCA.
All of these things will help you and I know you will get more advice as time goes on.
I have to get some rest now but once again welcome....come back often, read the posts of others here (most of us deal with chronic pain of some kind or other. Offer advice if you are confidence about what you are going to say. That also helps. In my case it is a constant reminder of where I was and where I could end up again.
Will be back soon..hope to see you again!
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