Detox OR What??! Please, Please need your experience!

[pyewackkett]

--- This afternoon I took my last 'piece' of Sub. I tried 'jumping off' before and it was just this side of awful ... and my husband could'nt stand to watch what I was going through so encouraged me to take the sub I had available. Well, when you're feeling like that and you're being pushed to stop it - generally you do! Now I'm done. There is no more to take because I didn't go to the last appt. -- I went through detox from oxycotin back in August in order to be through with all this ... and then the doctors gave me this stuff ... with inaccurate information if you ask me!  When I found this site and began reading about sub, I swear, my heart was in my throat!  It's like, here we go again ... but worse, it sounds like.
   Right now I sleep (or try) downstairs in the (only) living room. Since I busted both leg bones and had two surgeries and there is the chronic back pain (which started this whole mess) I crash on air mattresses with a combination of : 1mg. klonapin, 50 mgs.seroquel, my ambien and a pair of ear plugs every night!  I will have to deal with those meds too ... but first things first. Eventually I want to be free of everything except for Advil ... if I can.  But I want the opiates/opiods all gone from my daily life!!
   I fear what tomorrow will bring ... without anymore suboxone to take.  I don't know what the best thing to do might be. Do I just 'tough it' through and attempt to cope with the family, the pets and my husband (who has already been yelled at enough by me this evening) ????  He just doesn't 'get it..'  He is retired military, which has great health insurance, thank God!! But my ex-officer suscribes to the 'think positive' philosophy. Granted, he is taking tomorrow off, to keep an eye on me. I'm not certain if having him around is the best thing ... and then my daughter showed up to spend the night (??) complaining that she isn't feeling well on her new med's... I'm really not in a good place to be taking care of her right now. Oh please, more guilt ... I used to be such an involved, busy, awesome Mom until my back blew out! Then I fell down the proverbial 'rabbit hole' of pain med therapy. Whoopee!
   I don't know what I SHOULD DO ... if there is such a thing. Should I be back in detox somewhere!?  Should I?? But everywhere I've looked in the phone books in regards to detox, they all advertise 'Suboxone', 'Suboxone', ' Suboxone!!!'  ... IS there anywhere to go to get help from this stuff??  Or are we just out here on our own? ... No cure for 'their supposed cure.' ???  
   So... what say you all?? Do I drive my family nuts while I go through this? I don't even know how long 'THIS' will take!
I'm 'blah-blahing' now ... this is too long again, too much .. I am sorry. But I am very, very, scared. I think I will be kind and shut up now - I'm even tired of ME!   Take lovely care of yourselves!
Bless You All - Amen!  

[worried878]

i was gonna ask the same thing?  dose is important..sounds like u got down to a crumb at the end maybe?  anyway..this passes...there is alot of support here...do what u need to do to sleep within reason..sleep is important to recovery..exercise that u can tolerate can help as well..the aminos and vitamins in the thomas recipe helped me alot...be safe and hang tight

[Kisses07]

What dose did you jump off from?

[Rudawg111]

Unfortunately I find myself sitting here reading everyone's post and my heart goes out to everyone. For 2 years I have been steadily increasing my dependence (so I tell myself) on lortab, vics, etc. It started off innocent enough as my management job had me dealing with a lot of younger adults and just being happy go lucky. until 5 days ago I was up to about 10 1,00mg lortabs a day. As it is now 10 to 7, I have been up since 2 o'clock. The sweats, runs, empty stomach, and severe head pain are what I am going through right now. Not to mention the last 3 nights I have not been able to sleep. It is weird to note though that smoking a cigarette does not even sound like something I want to do. Nonetheless, I am merely venting, but it helps to know others have and are going through what I am. Uggh my stomach. Anyways did anyone else have chronic headpain? I have been using fiorocet to help, but it just comes back. My poor fincee doesn't realize how bad it was (the usage) and doesn't understand the results of wd's c/t. Anyways thanks all for your posts and even if no one is reading, it feels good to get it out.

[Debbie1054]

It's too bad you did not tapper off of the oxy and then stop I have been tappering with the help of my doc and it has not been a smooth ride but better than getting hooked on anohter drug..I don't know about the Sub...it's early but alot on her know alot about it and everything else for that matter regarding detox and drugs.   I am down to 20 mgs from 140 a day so maybe next month will be my last just want done with this ****...I know you can stop taking  that cold turkey and just go through the dt's ...I just don't know for how long you have to dt....good luck and some will soon answer you....
Debbie