don't know how I missed this post but its good to read it and see that u put it up.
The thing I have gotton burned n my head is "if ur having a hard and you want to make it harder, allu have to do is pick up." I learned that last time I used. I was trying to cover up the pain only to increase it and make it worst.
No matter what, today I choose sobriety and take it very serious as I just lost a good friend to this disease when he picked up again and 6 days he was gone. that's how powerful this disease is.
"no matter what"
Not a whole lot has changed since this and other post on addiction and life beyon detox.........i am living the program on a daily basis. Even with the highs and lows of Life on Life's Term.... I will take it Clean any day.:)
September 26,2012.............The journey continues. My husband and I combined have clean time of 53 years of clean time... He is under 50 and I am barley over 50( but looking good) lol...Next weekend we leave for the Outer Banks of North Carolina with family for 10 days.....This weekend and next week we will prepare ourselves for this trip. In doing so we will have a close look at our Emotional, Spiritual and Physical condition... We will take the necessary means of making sure that we are fit for such a trip.... Because our disease is~ cunning,~ powerful and most of all~ patient. I live my life consiously aware that I am not immune to relapse......While on vacation my husband will do a relationship inventory, nothing real heady just a check on where we are....where we want to go... and how to get there. You see, an unexamined life will cause you to fall in areas other than addiction.. you will if not careful "Fall To The Flesh"...which can lead to relapse.. We will be using a workbook called " The Mountaintop Of Marriage" as our guide to some important questions married couples need to ask from time to time.....Being clean is great but as sometime" thrill seekers", we need to be mindful of our actions.............A lot has taken place since I was last here I have been stretched like never before...I quit smoking a year ago.( That was a ride in its self)....but my family has been in turmoil especially my daughter and her family...But through it all I continued to believe that if we all did our best.~ If we all spoke the truth.~Then Victory would be hers.~ It was~~~ and yet she had to give up things very important to her IE: Her marriage. Because he husband's son touched her 7 year old's butt (he was 14 at the time)...All investagation showed that my daughter's home was safe.There was no penatration or bruising on her bottom and he touched her through her panties... But to ensure her custody rights she had her husband and his son move out..............Bad things happen to GOOD people.By Grace, my daughter is Not an Addict.....She was raised up in the rooms of NA and watched her mother work her progran and help others.And at 27 years clean I still continue to work with others....It is an honor!!... As you can tell I am not so much on the Mountaintop with this post....but I know those days will return. It has just been so tough walking with Faith this year..... I still believe with all my heart that recovery from Active Addiction is possible....and we can and do live out our dreams. I do believe there is a Power Greater than Our Addiction and we don't need a alot of people in our support group as long as the ones we have are doing the deal....I believe it is my responsibility to carry the message of hope and restoration and a life better than one you have ever though possible. I stll believe YOU HAVE TO SURRENDER.... give up everything you thought you knew and take some suggestions from someone working a program.....I believe everone has a vision for their lives...good or bad..... Make yours a good one Just For Today... Live and Walk in Victory. Enjoy all the Joy this Life has to Offer you... Be Blessed
yeah i also had to read it twice that was so awesome ..wow..thanks freebird that's an awesome name to ..Must be a skynyrd fan huh...i love that song..heck yeah..lol...God bless..Jeff..
@ GEORGIAGIRL2022.....You hang in there...... Fight for your recovery, you are worth it.
Wow. Now that was moving!! I'm 9 days clean of opiates and 22 days clean from benzo's. I needed to read this. Thank you and God bless you
Thanks to all who took the time to read,......I have a passion for the new-commer and am invested in the women I work with in Raleigh, NC. at a meeting,rehab,correctional institute, on the streets, homeless shelters, wherever we meet I will share my experience, strength and hope......... I know that If I can get clean and stay clean ................So can you.
.......Be Blessed my little darlings, and know I am holding you close to my heart in prayer.
Thanks for the post. I am struggling with all the loss right now, and lack of coping skills that th addiction has taken from me. So much expected of me right now. More than when I was using, and I can't cope. It is not even in my system anymore, nor do I have the desire to use it, but it is still trying to destroy me.
As I sit her reading your post it made me cry, not in a bad way but in a way were I feel like you were talking to me. This is so hard and sometimes I feel like I can't fight it I'm so mad how could I do this to myself. Addiction *****! Thank you for the inspiring words!
This is a OUTSTANDING post... I love this community!!! Bless ALL of YOU~
Thanks for that post, having bad day helped bring back my focus. Read it once then again. I got this!
I love this post!! Its awesome!!
Nice to see you Freebird~~~~~~sara