Done deal.

[AS_Steve]

  I was gonna post the pic. I took but it was kinda gross with the toilet ring and all but I DID IT!!! First I flushed all but three just in case but then I said "**** it" and flushed them down too. I almost cried just thinking about the last ten years of my life and all that I've lost. I had reached a point in my life where I did not see any hope and was seriously considering suicide. If not for my two great kids I'm sure I would have gone through with it.
  I owe alot of thanks to all of you here who gave me the strength and determination to start a new drug free life and I look forward to each and every day ahead of me. My new addiction is living a healthy life and riding my bike every day and taking in all of the beauty around me because for the first time in 10 years I can see that it's there.

  Thanks again and I'm still gonna be here to make sure that each and every one of you get clean.

  Steve

[bluemann33]

steve all I can say is God bless you and WTFG!!! I wanted to let you know after your other post about bike riding I made myself get up and go for a 2 mile jog in 101 degree heat, but i felt ALOT better afterwards so hey you have motivated me even more and i say thank you for that. My prayers are with you and just by your attitude I know you WILL do it.; CONGRATS AND THANKS!!!!!!!!!!!!1

[AS_Steve]

  I've been through the physical wd's many times so that I can handle. I've never been this mentally focused on quitting before and it's more than giving up the pills...it's changing my whole attitude towards life.  I did'nt give myself an option here, I just flushed an entire months worth of pills and had no problem doing so.
  My next goal is to give up smoking and that might end up being the hard one.

  Steve

[worried878]

Yey...u coulda posted that potty pic in ur journal...caught it at just the right time when the pills were swirling around on their way to no return!  LOL

[enemy48]

MedHelp doesn't allow pictures of pills, but I doubt they'd mind a pic of them going round and round down the toilet!

[troubleinohio]

hey man good for you!! Im proud of you!

and jeanne with all due respect, he may feel up to riding his bike and it would do a world of good. Yes its true he may feel like **** and NOT do a thing, but I like to think more positive and wouldnt say that he cant do this or that. I remember years ago when I was going through WD but didnt know thats what it was. I thought it was my newly diagnosed "fibromyalgia" or teh "flu" or something, i honestly had  NO CLUE i was having WD and I worked through it and did a lot of stuff. Some of it is psychological. I know its very physical also but your mental attitude and determination can make a huge difference in how you cope with the WD's.  Honestly, all my WD symptoms have now been much more severe since i figured out thats what it was, and all the times Ive relapsed since the, the pain was so much worse because for me its very mental, lol.

anyhow Steve get out there and ride your frickin bike you can do it =)

[jeanbeanie]

Steve,
Do you have any support from home? I hate to tell you but you're gonna be going through hell the next couple weeks. Ive been through it MANY times. It is one hell of a battle and I know you can do it, it just takes determination, strength and hope. As far as bike riding everyday. For the next few weeks you may not even be able to dream about bike riding let alone getting on one.
Drink LOTS of sunnyD, power aid and that stuff, take lots of vitamins, take lots of long hot baths, read some books and just focus on YOU!!! You may even need to take some time off work if it gets bad enough. I know at points, I couldnt even fucus on daily tasks, it was rough, Im not gonna sugar coat it. You can do it, it takes ALOT of willpower and strength within. Good luck and keep us posted on how youre doing. If you EVER need someone to talk to, were all here for you. You just have to have it set in your mind what youre gonna do and WHY. Just take it one day at a time, even one minute at a time sometimes.  Its not a nice feeling at all having to depend on something just feel normal each and every day.
Like I said, if you EVER need to talk, here is my personal e-mail. ***@****

Good Luck and get lots of rest.
Jeanne

[enemy48]

SWOOOOOSH!  So did you have a big ole' cry?  You know, the good kind?