Energy

[BearsFan1966]

So I have been sitting here this morning pondering my whole energy situation...Here is what I have come up with!
We spend so much time taking our DOC to make us "feel better" but I think we were just fooling (I should say I know) ourselves. We would take a pill to do this or that, leaving our bodies to play catch up with our minds! Now that we are clean our poor bodies are trying to recover and this takes time! Even at 70 days clean I still do not have much energy or motivation. I did this to my body for over 10 years! But I can take that just don't want to chase that stupid pill!
When we are chasing the pill or DOC our heart races just thinking of that next one! Is that living life? NO
Think about the money wasted on DOC...I know I have wasted so much money, time, and my kids life's chasing the next high!
I can think clearer now and if I do not get some thing done I know it will be there tomorrow waiting for me and that's ok cause I am clean!
I am not a robot running in circles any more...I am me!
I am human again and loving the little things in life again!
I do not fly off the handle any more and think before I react now!
I see the little things that mean so much now!
Being clean is all that matters to me now and my family is my number 1 priority!
I will wait as long as it take for my body to heal because life with out pills is truly a life worth living!!!
I hope some one gets some thing out of my rambling and pushes on!
Love you all and you all are my hero's!
WE CAN DO THIS!!!!!

[BearsFan1966]

Oh that would be awesome! Would love to met up with you!!!!!!!

[VICourageous]

You are doing GREAT there Friend..Remember it is the Brain that takes time to balance back that affects the body..lol
Even after a year I have the up & down on the Energy..I feel like I went into a Comma in my 20s and woke up in my later 50s. I will never have the same energy as I did but I sure try like He11 to get all my work done like I used to.lol You are just Rocking it Girl.
PS I sure do miss the weather down there. Might be coming down that way to the Creek soon for a visit..I sure will let you know so we can meet.
Bless

[BearsFan1966]

Thanks Heather and thank you for all you do for everyone here!

[Heather8448]

CONGRATS ON THE BIG FLUSH!!!
So PROUD of you!!!!

Bear This was an awesome AHH HA! Moment!! love the post

[BearsFan1966]

Thank you Connie I had to really think about this post before I posted. I did not want to discourage anyone but I feel I need to always be honest with my posts!

[clean_in_ks]

EXCELLENT post!!!  All of it....but one sentence in particular resonated with me:

"I will wait as long as it take for my body to heal because life with out pills is truly a life worth living!!!"

This is profound....even though I was not on pain meds for 10 yrs...I was bedridden for close to 2 full years.  I was an atrophied, unfit, disabled mess!  I have adopted the very same attitude....."I will wait AS LONG AS IT TAKES for my body to heal".....and when I am overwhelmed with pain today....I just find something....anything...to remind me of where I was 16+months ago.  I'm definitely healing...albeit SLOWLY.

Determination, perseverance and gratitude......good for you Bear~
Connie

[BearsFan1966]

Thank you guys so much!

[BearsFan1966]

You are never forgotten Teri I will send both! lol

[Bubbleguppie100]

Aww I love this post. So positive! I needed a positive post like this, this morning. Thank you!

[spider6]

awww, that's a lovely post!! Very inspiring....but I have a feeling that's just how you are all the time.  you can't fake "positive"....you just are or you aren't.  I hope you are doing well sweet girl, missed you.  I don't have a
computer on the bottom of my toilet bowl; that's where I've been spending all my free time, lol, so I haven't been keeping up to date on things.

keep rockin that upbeat tude little bear, you've got this!!
hugs xo

[Teri9498]

Hey Ang...that's a really good idea!!...haha!...& I wanted 2 say a BIG CONGRATS 2 u on 192 days!!...that is AWESOME girl!!  xxoo ;))

[ariley13]

If we find one, we will alternate, ok? So we can sleep every other night!!

[Teri9498]

Hey guys dont 4get 2 include me in that!!...I could really use a good sleep fairy & a clean fairy!!...if I can only choose 1, I will soooooo take the sleep fairy!!!...LOL...

[BearsFan1966]

you got it! Any thing for you my dear friend!

[ariley13]

Ha!! If you find a cleaning fairy, please see if she can recommend a friend for me!! ;)  I also am always on the lookout for a good sleep fairy!!

[BearsFan1966]

Ariley I so know what you mean but now instead of taking a DOC I reach for the Aleve and you know what I only need to take it once a day if that! Yes!!! On ward and upward oh and I so need a cleaning fairy! lol

[BearsFan1966]

Thanks Dane! Life is really life again! I forgot what it felt like to truly feel life! So happy not to yell and scream all the time! Now I scream because I am happy and living again!

[ariley13]

Thank you for this inspiring post my friend. I am on day 192 and still have bad days as far as energy goes. I also have a lot of pain issues and sometimes find myself getting very down on myself because I can't do the basic daily stuff when I'm having a bad pain day. I have to remind myself that I can take care of it tomorrow, or whenever. If I need a little bit of extra help to do things, then I need to accept that and quit being so stubborn. Hang in there everyone. Let's be strong, stick together, and things will get better for all of us!

[Dane74]

Great post!! I love what you said about not being a robot anymore, that is so funny and true, when i was on pills i was literally a robot, and i would fly off the handle too!  Now i am too just ME!  We are now living life and not just zooming around like a chicken without a head.  You are doing great, around the 90 day mark is when you should feel more of the energy coming back, yep it takes time but you are doing it each and everyday....

[BearsFan1966]

Thanks Teri! Congratulations on your clean days! You are rocking this!! The funny thing is I have to remember before pills I had energy but I was also 11 years younger! lol Time what a dirty word! ha ha

[Teri9498]

Hey Bear....great post!!!...I've noticed w/the energy thing that if I just get up & do things..clean house..go out 4 a run...just keep busy some way I have a ton more energy than if I'm just sitting around...I'm 12 days today & am already getting my energy back...I know it don't sound fun, but u just have 2 make urself...anyway, that's what I've noticed works 4 me!...CONGRATS on ur clean days!!...& ur attitude is AWESOME!!....hugs!  :))

[Kbusymom]

Thanks for the post and the hope; I really needed to read this today!!!

[thumper52]

Be courageous. TELL THE DENTIST and he can prescribe non-narcotic alternatives. They do exist. Pain and swelling reaches its height at 3days post any surgical type of process. So, by day 3...you'll feel better. I find with dental work it is the bruising pain from the freezing needles that usually feel worst. Salt water rinses help ease all that...remember warm. No hot or cold.
Your going to get through this ONCE AND FOR ALL!!!
Hugs to you from Canada.

[BearsFan1966]

Just keep moving forward! Life is so much better and you will get threw this! The dentist can give you some thing other than a narc for pain just make sure you tell them you problem! You got this!