Feeling sorry for myself . ..

[HelpinUtah]

I'm feeling sorry for myself today and sitting here at work crying!!!  I can't do this here - I have to get my mind on straight!  Why do I feel so depressed today and feel so guilty and feel like such a failure!  I keep going home from work and putting my pajamas on and just vegging - doing absolutely nothing.  My house is a mess!  I'm a mess!  My poor husband tries but I keep blaming him for having to work and he's a hard working man!!!  We just need our two incomes!  I want to be home feeling sorry for myself today!  I just feel like I'm dying inside today!!!!  

One good thing is that I haven't slipped and in fact, I'm almost off the other meds my doctor gave me to help me!  I'm doing good that way, but feel like such a failure.  I'm not as productive at work as usual and can't take time off work.  I'm just a mess today!!!

Sorry that I'm feeling sorry for myself today, but it's how I feel!!!  

I hope everyone else is having a better day than me!!!

[Girl_Interupted618vygyx]

Hi, I dont feel like this today at all but last week I was just sitting at my desk and sobbing. I pretty much cried all day. I was conversing with one of the members here,  She said she couldnt even watch tv commercials with out crying. that made me laugh a little as the tears were streaming down my cheeks. I just cried the rest of the day. the next day was much better. crying can actually be cleansing. Just go with it and know it will get better.

[tryinhard78]

I hope that you are feeling a little better now. I know how you feel though...one minute I feel fine and the next minute I'm bawling like a baby for no reason at all. I really hope this doesn't last to much longer. But it is comforting to know that I'm not the only one feeling this way I guess its true what they say misery loves company..lol...Seems to be the way everyone is feeling today. My hope is that we all feel better tomorrow. We will bet this together.

~Susie

[HelpinUtah]

Thank you everyone for sharing your experiences.  This is completely normal it seems!  We can do this together!!!!  I am so appreciative of each of you and my prayers are with you as well during these emotional times!!!!

[refusingbondage]

Hey.  I am on day 12 off Suboxone and I feel you exactly.  I have never ever been an emotional person.  Never been a sad girl.  But this wd has me absolutely defeated.  I have this oppresive sadness that I cannot shake for anything.  Its consuming.  My rational mind is saying that I should be celebrating, in spite of the lingering physical wd, but my emotions are betraying me.  I dont know if its guilt or what it is. I can only describe it as an empty, hopeless, consuming sadness.  I think it actually might be worse than the physical wd, at least with that I know what I am dealing with.  This sadness is so foreign to me.  Hang in there.  I keep hearing that one of these days we will wake up feeling "great".  Try to keep.  

[bandnmom]

Hang in there. You are at an emotional part of this journey! You are doing great and just keep it up! When you get home and put on your PJ's to veg put in a funny movie. It will lift your spirits a bit!
Tomorrow will be better and so will the next! Stay strong...u can do this!!!!

[bubbles1096]

I'm feeling the same way today, but someone posted that even though today is bad, it doesn't mean tomorrow won't be the best....so I'm getting more and more optimistic. Just hang in there, we're here with ya!

[HelpinUtah]

My doctor had me on Tranxene every 6 hours for anxiety (I called her a total mess one day!).  She also had me taking 2 Xanax .5 mgs. every 6 hours and Phenegren for the nauseau.  I only take the Phenegren when nauseau hits me.  I have only taken Xanax once or twice a day (usually around noon time) and sometimes only .25 mgs. but only when feeling overly anxious.  I stopped the Tranxene except for at night because it helps with sleep.  Because of the Tranxene I wasn't allowed to keep taking the St. John's Wort I was taking and so that's a part of it I'm sure.  However, since I'm taking the Tranxene at about 6 p.m., I have started taking my St. John's Wort again beginning yesterday in the morning with breakfast.  I hope it kicks in soon!  It also helps with my fibromyalgia pain!  

So, now I'm only taking Tranxene at 6 p.m. (7.5 mgs.) and Xanax prn.  Some days I haven't had to take it.  I hope you were able to make sense of all that garble!  

Thanks!

[mimi1313]

I remember 14 days and I was so emotional. It was so bad I took Lexapro for 2 months. I would cry one miute and then be so anxious the next. In a week or so you will feel better. Keep posting and write a journal and jsut keep busy. I know its hard.

What other meds did you stop that the doc gave you if you don't mind me asking?

[SOCAL742]

same here should be working, crying reading post, wondering how I got myself here but feeling strong all at the same time!

[uggghh]

i am sooooo rite there with you....i can not work, i'm here, but umm obviously not working, i'm on this forum just reading and praying for something..anything..but yeah, when you described yourself, you were also describing me to an exact point....except the slipping part...i kinda slipped last night, i didn't take what i'm exactly craving but i did take sooo....