Whew, been awhile since I've been on here. It's been 19 days since I've stopped taking my percs and taken off my last dose of Fentanyl patches. Wanted to thank all the folks here especially Ms. H who has supported me throughout this bumpy ride.
My cold turkey wasn't completely planned. A friend of mine and I planned to jump together but things always seem to come up for us both.
Less than a month ago, I went to my pain management doc for yet another refill. I opened up to my doc and issued my wish to be off the patches. Btw, was able to quit percs without too much discomfort due to the effects of Fentanyl running in my system.
Was not all too happy with his solution but was willing to try. We were to trade Fentanyl for Oxycontin then slowly taper. Well, not sure if or how well that would've worked..... After dropping off my RX to the pharmacy, found out my insurance denied it. After speaking with the doctor's office, they told me script needed prior authority.. So I've waited...I just put my second to last patch on, and waited.... 2 days later, called again but was told they'e also still waiting to hear back from the insurance company.... Withdrawal symptoms started kicking in... With a single patch left for the the "just in case" option,, I decided to go for it.
It wasn't a pleasant ride, but with so many folks here and constant cheerleading from Ms. H, I'm here with peace in my soul and sobriety in my body.
I very well know the journey is long from over, but am grateful, that part of the battle is over.
Thank you Medhelp community!
that was one heck of a journey, huh?
I am so unbelievably proud of you. I hope someday you can appreciate the magnitude of exactly what YOU accomplished. Very few people have managed to jump from a hefty dose of fentanyl (50 mcg) like you did, stayed through it, fought the urges--the misery--the shakes, sweats, a OMG those creepy crawlies AND fnished it! To do so requires an unbelievable amount of devotion and inner strength--both of which you have plentiful amounts. You did battle with fentanyl, fought and struggled hard, and in the end--YOU WON!
D., I really want you to understand the strength that you have shown has given me--and others--so much hope. We hear about a lot about the failures and relapses, but not nearly often enough about the triumphs.
YOU are an amazing person, my dear!!! One of the many positive take-aways from this experience is an incredible, devoted life long friend. I will always be there for you, and I know you will always be there for me.
D., my dear, dear, friend. Thank you so much for all that you have given me and thank you for being YOU!
CONGRATULATIONS ON 19 HARD FOUGHT WELL DESERVED DAYS!! Let's make it 20, okay!! Soon I will be right there with you markihg them off. I know I can do it with your help!
Love,
Heidi