I am up to taking 20 Norco a day for my fibromyalgia. Part of this is pain, but part is the agony and misery of feeling the worst mental fatigue and depression, anxiety, and panic ever. Since diagnosed with fibro, my whole personality has changed-can't enjoy anything or stuff I used to; don't feel happy; can't have fun or happiness with my son; don't want to go anywhere or do anything----AND THIS IS WHETHER I TAKE THE NORCO OR NOT! The Norco (at a certain dose-high-gives me a temporary reprieve from the pain and the makes me feel normal-I don't feel "high" or "euphoric", just in a good mood and happy, able to talk and do things with those I love. So, what do I do, how in the world can I stop taking it???
And don't bother me with meditation, acupuncture, herbs, etc.-tried it all. Have had full-blown fibro for 3 yrs and diagnosed with CFS, IBS, and a spastic bladder back in 90's. Had many problems and medical conditions, such as the jerky legs and arms and aches, as well as arthritis and a back problem with every gastro problem there is-never thought they were related till I matched EVERY symptom doing research plus every precursor (like hypothyroidism), and have family history. So what do I do, I keep running out of Norco, and I really don't want to fry my liver, but I am desperate and feel like dying anyway-I've lost everything (recently 66 lbs in 6 months and my hair is falling out, wrinkles are appearing. look 10 yrs older, and my skin is baggy and dry and saggy)-so I have no control, no energy, no happiness, nothing to look forward to, miserable, pain, more pain, can't exercise-used to run 4 miles/day and swim-and I went to school for 10 yrs to graduate summa *** laude in marine biology for nothing.
Tried lots of stuff, nothing works, I want my life back-and I would not choose tis for the world.
I don't care if I die from Norco addiction cause it's the only thing that makes me feel good, but I run out about 2 weeks into it.
And please don't tell me to go to God, I have prayed every night and nothing ever happens, as a matter of fact things have only gotten worse-roof leaks and falling in, holes in wall from my teen, dogs poop and pee all over and stains, husband never mows cause he works offshore and too tired, my mom owns this place and keeps threatening to evict us, we have no money-sometimes for food, too, I have extreme anxiety and panic that has developed over the last several years and with unpredictable illness, can't go on job interviews (just missed a chance of a lifetime), have 3 abscessed teeth, and staph sores all over my upper back and upper arms for some insane reason. And I can't find a damn doctor to treat me, as a matter of fact 3 doctors have told me in the last 2 months they were dropping as a patient. I know I look really bad, one nurse said I look like a holocaust victim or zombie. They all probably think I take meth (which is big here) cause I look this way, but it is one drug I would die rather than take (very ancient history).
I can't wait 15 more days, oh God I want to die, and now I have a really bad toothache, help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!