Thanks for the reply. Man just typed the way i am thinking to a Tee.
I already gave my wife the bottle and marked the days to which i will be tapering down. I have no went to the doc yet but next time i go i will tell him what the deal is.
I already eat pretty good. I heard eating a grapefruit can help with mood. I already eat 1 1/2 a day so hopefully that will help. I also have a presc for Ambien (not addictied at all). Do you think that would be ok to take when i cannot sleep sometimes?
So did you taper down or just took 1 or 2 hear and there like you said uptop? Similar to mine? Sorry for all the questions I just had enough of this S**t.. Again Thanks this makes me feel better I am not alone..
Yep, been there, done that, got the t-shirt. :-)
Your story is pretty much my sad tale. I destroyed my left ankle in a motorcycle accident, and now do OK, although "I had to give up the ballet." - Sorry, bad joke, but I love saying it. But, like you, I enjoyed the feeling I got on Vicodin. At first it was "a reward," for getting the yard work done, or following the wife around the mall, whatever. Then I discovered it was great for getting through really boring business meetings.
The doc always re-upped my 30 day supply (60 tabs) every thirty days. Then, one day I discovered I was through all 60 pillls in 10 days. That was it, I fessed up with the missus and the doc, and went through three really crappy days followed by two just plain crappy weeks. On about the 18th day, I woke up feeling so good I was giddy, and my wife thought I was on it again. That was over 4 months ago. Still clean.
I recommend consulting with the doc. If he/she cops and attitude, seek other help. OK, that said, I handed my pills over to my wife and told her to hide them, with the intent of only using them if I had pain. I did OK for a week or so, with her giving me one every two days or so when I "hurt." But, she saw through me and the next time I asked for one she said "Do you need it, or do you just want it?" The answer came to me like a bolt of lightning, literally. Jeez, I felt like ****.
So, I told her to flush them. I'm off. Three days of resltess leg syndrome, interrupted sleep, panic attacks, and just feeling like ****. Kind of a Long Lost Weekend. Exercise helped a lot, as 30 minutes of aerobics bought me an hour of feeling great. I ate lots of fresh fruit, and drank a lot of water.
OTC bendryl helped a little with sleep, as did a glass of good old moo juice. Sometimes the simple things help. I also did a mind game, especially at night, of going to a happy place. I have talked about this on other threads, where I built a boat in my mind, piece by piece, rib by rib, etc. Tylenol PM has benedryl in it, so you may want to try this. If you can do without ANY drug, OTC or not, that's great.
If you taper I recommend having your wife hold for you, but ONLY if she is willing to tough it out. The drug will make you say things, make you think things. You will feel like cr@p, and you may feel like it's not worth it. But it is. It won't kill you.
Stay on this forum. We are either going through what you are going through, or have done it. This is the best bunch of friends you will never meet that you will have in your life. So many have helped me. You are helping me by reminding me of how I felt and every day is better. And what is important. You recoginized that your first duty is to be those kid's Daddy. Do it, man.
I know that I do not take them anymore for the pain, I take them for the high.. that is why i am asking for help or tips for stopping them.. I do not want to get any worse.. thanks for the quick reply
it sounds like your taking these for the buzz and not the pain if you even have any,but many of us do this.i think your plan is on time,stick with it.i would also split the doses,no need to take them all at once one time a day.trust me you dont want to get to deep into opiates