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[Lost_and_new]

So I had 3 days this morning and feeling pretty good. Plus, someone offers me 2 norco and I throw them away, do I feel great. Them that feeling comes, empty, searching for something, so I ignore everything and start drinking. Now I want those pills back, call around and manage 1. But I'm still planning to check out a celebrate recovery meeting I found just to listen too. I drive there and find out it's no longer available. So I find another one and it's already started and closed. Now  sitting in my truck pissed off drinking more wishing I had pulls. This is a roller coaster that I want off!

[jugglin]

Hey Lost - Hope u r feeling better today. I made the mistake of drinking after the pills (had always drank socially) and realized that was becoming a problem as well. I am fighting it and at least today, am winning. AA/NA meetings are more frequent and convenient where I live that the Celebrate Recovery (which was great, just not convenient). Check it out..they will welcome u with all the same open arms and non-judgment support that you find here. I hope today is your day as well!

[dominosarah]

Gotta cut those sources.  That always leaves that avenue open and it is a set up for disaster.  When you truely have had enough of this insanity nothing will stand in your way.  I hope today is the day~

[meegWpaw]

how you doing lan?  thinking about you going through that malaise of wanting the pills / not wanting.  in the beginning distraction is crucial ... well, it always is but especially now.  hope you are moving forward!  good luck

[Sarah11212]

I always ask, "how bad do you really want it"?  When you want it bad enough and you're ready, you'll do it!  And substituting booze for pills isn't going to help. Had I of been drinking when I was trying to get clean, I wouldn't of stayed clean.  You've gotta want this with your life and your life is definitely worth it!  I would suggest meetings everyday. Can't stress aftercare enough.  Don't give up!!!

[dirtydirk]

least u know where your going wrong its easy 2 put on paper but quite a different story when u try and put it into action......keep the thoughts of wanting 2 be sober in your memory and actually wanting 2 get sober and knowing its time are 2 different things.....i wanted 2 be sober for more than 6 years but i only recently knew it was time and i needed 2 or i would pry die!!!