You are truly inspiring. Back to top!!
Thank you for the feed-back - it really helps reinforce that I'm really ok now. Knowing other people can relate so well. This site, and specifically the people in this community posting their own stories helped me so much. When I was in the middle of the withdrawal depression, anxiety, and emptiness, I would sit at the computer for hours just reading the posts here as it was the one thing that I could actually focus my mind on doing for some reason. I guess it's just amazing how much healing can simply come from knowing you aren't alone.
And to answer the question, there is an *empty* bottle of Oxycodone in the kitchen. I can't explain why, but when the withdrawal was at its worst - the sight of that bottle actually brought on such revulsion (because I logically knew that is what was causing all the pain and emptiness) but I couldn't help but look at it when I felt like I was going to break and get more. But as the depression from withdrawal lessoned, it actually started giving me some inspiration to see it empty. I can't really explain it well, but the empty bottle is symbolic to me I guess.
Also to answer - I'm a guy. ;D And 'Zen' as is from Zen Buddhism (and not to go into a huge tangent but):
"Zen Buddhism asserts that enlightenment can be attained through self-contemplation, and intuition rather than through faith and devotion."
I'm religious (Christian), but there's a lot to be said for Buddhism when it comes to working through personal problems, like addiction. I think that often we try to fix our problems out of love, faith, and devotion to our loved ones (or God) and not ourselves. But honestly, unless we are trying to help ourselves, for ourselves first - we'll more often than not fail. But that's just my own observation and view on things from a young 34 years of living...
OMG!! What a post??? Thank you so much for sharing this. Very powerful indeed. I can definately identify myself with this. THANK YOU for the very inspirational post!
Thank you for that! couldnt have came at a better time for me!!!I am crying as i write this ..it has hit the nail so right on the head for me. Thank you for the inspiration and hope
This is the most inspirational post that I've ever read!! Thank you for sharing this!!
WOW. this should get anyone that is wavering something to think about. read it and learn. the message is powerful.
Bumping back up, sorry but I think this should be at the front page for a while.
Oh...i thought it was an old post...misread it...just a couple of days ago,,,I hope you are doing well and was an awesome post
I hope she made it and is clean... that was before my time on the forum...I know i am not strong enough to have my doc on the counter even now...wish i would have known how much was involved mentally with kicking these puppies when i started abusing them...if i could just turn the clock back..i would have done it differently...i hope
awsome, awsome,awsome post. this is one post i want to print and post on my fridge. very insperational
This is THE best post that I have ever read.
Totally amazing. Awe inspiring!
Thank you for sharing.
All i can say is WOW , what a post!!! One of the best i have ever read, and i have been here over a yr, bumping it up!!!
CONGRATS!!!!
r2r
7 months clean!
Thank you for this amazing post! I am getting near the end of day 1 taper (only took 2 pills today down from 10). You post motivated me. Thank you, thank you.
Great post. Wish it would have been on lastnight for this kid to read. I'm so glad that you are making it. I am 2 weeks today and have been there many times before but I will make it this time bc I can talk about it to the wonderful people on this forum. Thanks for the inspiration.....Why do you still have a bottle of Oxycodone on your counter? Zen as in Nirvana?
Well, I have a load of work to get done today and here I sit with tears running down my face.
I can hardly see the screen.
Did I write that???
It sounds like me, but I don't remember writing it......
Thank You
Great post! You found a way to clearly put into words what so many of us have felt and gone through. Congrats to you on your accomplishment and thanks for putting this out there for everyone who needs it.
" " " can't ditto enough on this post- AWESOME and INSPIRATIONAL read! I am 5 days into CT Hydrocodone addiction and so far, i've had my high's and low's- don't really understand it all, as i haven't really heard of another person have the same problems/reactions as I have! I really never understood how deep this addiction thing ran, ya know? All I knew was that I woke up every day, popped two 10's and got my day goin, usually taking anywhere from 4-10 a day for the past 2-3 yrs. It made me so incredibly euphoric that I felt like I could take on any challenge, no matter how hard it seemed! Losing the pounds[much needed weight loss] was just a plus! I applaude your honesty as i also see this is not gonna be an overnight or weekly process....-THIS IS THE HARDEST THING I'VE EVER DONE! Thanks for the post and Congrats to you!
Thank you for that post. As Enemy says...it was brilliant..and so true for any of us who have gone there. I applaud your honesty and I know exactly what you mean for every word you typed. Congratulations on your progress. I was never one who could do tapers or keep them around. You may save someones life by them reading that post and identifying. I know that coming here did help me make the decision to stop. Kudos to you!
Peace~