D day approaching

[Free2agoodhome]

i set my quit date..its  about a week out.  9 days off work......problem is i have way too much on hand...im hoping i dont say " hell im quiting may as well go for broke, i could risk od. im getting everthing together now and being mature and responsible about it... im approaching it as if have a bout of the flu coming up..im pretty alpha but to be honest im getting a bit nervous...the success stories and the freinds i met on here give me hope....time is approaching...God please lend a hand on this one......peace  u guys

[Stacy_Lynn]

You got this Free! You've been getting ready for this & i know u can do it! If u don't u already know what ur life will become, those pills have killed ur body & mind already, so start to hate them!!!! Can't wait until u cross over like i did 32 days ago, trust me, it will be the best thing u ever do!!! I'd say flush what u have left on D day & go on as planned for sure!!! Best of luck. Love & prayers. Stacy

[Fireby29]

Sorry, do NOT have to worry about it, because you cannot get any.  Temptation does not matter then except psychologically.

[Fireby29]

Flush em'.  Time to get on getting better.  Trust me, I know how hard it is.  Cut all connections, make it impossible to get any and then you do to have to worry about it.  It sounds a bit like your love affair is still there.  Don't feel bad, mine is too, but as they say, time heals all wounds.  Each day that clicks by I miss it just a teeny tinny bit less.  And you will be healing yourself also.  You can do it!  You would not be here if you did not know you need to get your life back and stop being chained to this thing that you cannot control.

Bryan

[smiles4eva]

I agree with Minn and Akita.  Taper a little and keep the bare minimum, then flush!  I would guess it is very empowering to watch the little devils go down.  I will find out soon but not soon enough.  Best of luck and keep posting.  Your OD comment is very scary to me so don't be a stranger or I will stress like I do about Steve and the one who recently lost his dad.  My thoughts and prayers are with you :)

[akitagurl12]

that's the addict part of your mind that is telling you that.  I just refer to it as the devil at this point.  But you also have that other part of your mind that is encouraging you and pushing you to quit.  Try to focus more on that part of your mind right now.  It is truly a mental battle but you will win.  The more positive things you can say to yourself the better.  The only thing you are losing is the old you but you are gaining a new you that will finally be free.  I thought I loved vicodin and I would always miss it, but after time passed, I realized how wrong I was.  

[Free2agoodhome]

good idea... i know what my normal dose is..i know how to manage on little or nothing...ill lay them out on my desk calendar...and stick to it...darn why does my mind feel like im loosing a great thing...its freakin not a great thin im giving up...thx for the replies..you guys all i got....peace

[akitagurl12]

i OD'ed from vikes last year.  When u get too high, you are not rational and it is easy to lose count and think you are ok until you realize your not and your throat starts to feel like it's closing & your heart is pounding out of your chest.  It's just money, I would flush them.  Maybe count out  a reasonable amount to get your through the week and seperate them in envelopes and start a taper like minn suggested.  You are not a wimp, fear is always the worst right before you quit.  But w/d is way better then overdosing.  

[Free2agoodhome]

its a script.....i deleted my perc connect number from my phone...i thin its time to quit being a wimp and face it head on...i have no idea what head space i will be in....i know i have a tendency to OD if given the chance....flush,,,omg....the thought of all that money in the toilet...i could sell 90 easy but morally i feel id be contributing to someone elses misery..i may jsut give em away..... week 120 750's yikes thats suicide level,,,,thanks for listening..im being real hear...

[minn66]

Is there anyone you can trust who could dole out the pills so you can do a bit of a taper before you jump? That way, you won't binge and will be a little more prepared when the time comes. Good for you for having a plan and getting everything ready.

Best of luck,

Minn

[akitagurl12]

YES!!!!  You are gonna get through this:))  About all those pills....  does your supplier take returns?  I know mine wouldn't but not sure how yours is. Otherwise you can do that dreadful thing of flushing them down the toilet, at least most of them so you don't get tempted to bindge a day before your quit.  And trust me, you really don't want easy access to pills after you quit.  Knowing pills are around will end up creating more cravings and stress and you def. don't want that.  Proud of you!!!