Day 5.. Have gotten so light headed that I have fell 3 times!! Advise

[dedicatedtostop]

So, I woke up at 4am went back to bed at 10:30 am and woke up at noon. I have gotten so light headed and dizzy that I have literally fell to the floor 3 times now! I think it's the Clonodine lowering my Blood Pressure. How do I come out of this???! My left hand has a black knot right at my ring finger and goes to my pinky. It's about the size of a quarter! Advice?? I am not going to take it anymore but what do I do in the meantime? I can't even get up and walk around

[dedicatedtostop]

Thank You SO MUCH! That made me tear up a bit! I am laying pool side with my girls soaking up some vit C. I hope you have a Wonderful time! I am not going anywhere. I will stay right here on this forum.

Thank You so much for your encouragement!

[Jerry198]

Just stopping in to say you are doing great just the tone in the text shows that although life is piled up you have made a huge turn in your recovery I will be think of you and only wishing you all the best!! You have the power to be PILL FREE

[dedicatedtostop]

Still clean Day 11.. I woke up this am w terrible sinus drainage, a headache and feel sick to my stomach:(... The packing is " coming "... Not much by me though, more my husband and daughter. Blah Blah, I think I have a sinus infection

[Bones07]

Hope your doing well friend and sleeping. I am not.. up as usual getting ready for another hot Epsom salt shower/bath... How packing coming along. And the Anxiety? Hopefully that goes away soon. Wishing you well ... Bones  

[dedicatedtostop]

Thank You Danny!
I totally get that! I am seeing much more clearly now. I see many things that I have neglected. Sad.. I totally get what you said!
Thank you for putting that into perspective!

[Danny111]

Hey Dedicated,

Great to see you do so well.  You should be proud of yourself.  The anxiety and stress are going to be there on and off for some time.  Gradually those things will lessen but there are always going to be moments, trigger points I guess where you'll think it would be so much easier with pills.  You just have to remind yourself that that isn't true.  The pills don't make it easier, in fact they end up ruining your life.

One thing I noticed 25 years ago when I quit drinking was that stopping drinking didn't solve all my problems.  What it did do was allow me to see the problems and deal with them(or try to anyhow), rather than making them worse by blowing them off etc.

[dedicatedtostop]

Hi Tina!!
Thank you for your encouragement! Days like today are when I need them the most! My anxiety is crazy but I do think this entire
Move has a lot to do with it too! Hopefully when we get moved on Saturday I will finally feel somewhat relieved! I pray so anyway!

[dedicatedtostop]

Indeed we did!!! I am finding that each day I have to push myself so hard to get through the anxiety! It's starting to take it's till on me. I think a lot of that may come from the move as well and the fact that the house still has so much packing left to be done! My husband assured me months ago that
" he would take care of everything ".. Yet here we are! I have actually doubted myself in the past couple days but still pushing forward! I hate it that you are still feeling rough! I do know there's NO way you want to go back to that Day 1!! Keep digging deep, fighting like a solider and anytime your going to get that break! How are you eating? I personally have zero appetite and while I have Never been a big eater, I am forcing myself to eat bc I know my body has to have it! Hopefully your doing the same. I am trying to keep myself as busy as possible, but so far today for example, it's proving to be difficult! Keep pushing my friend, you have already came so far!!

[Bones07]

Dedicated :) We made it another day! Day 10 for you day 12 for me... So crazy right ?? I just got home from work what a long exhausting day, although work helps pass the time. I'm still miserable with full blown withdrawals I just have to accept that it's gonna be like this for a while but not forever. Hopefully it eases up soon. I'm in warrior mode so I feel like I can handle it for now.... But we all know how easy that can fall apart.. Wishing you well friend ... How's the packing ? Love bones

[Tina6444]

I am following you both and continue to be inspired by how hard you are both fighting. Time seems to stand still I know and I used to take it hour by hour. Until I looked at the clock and saw only 15 minutes had passed:)
I know that posting got me through so many difficult times and still does. Just wanted to offer my encouragement to you two. You are fighters and can do this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[dedicatedtostop]

Ike... Thanks man!! I already plan on seeing a Psychiatrist as soon as I get moved.. 4 more days!! I have no desire to take pills AT ALL but I need to learn to deal with my anxiety ( in a bad way )

I sadly, feel like I am going to be a nervous wreck until we be moved!   I am going to a meeting Tommorow night!

[refills]

I'm still here and cheering you on. You know how this works. As the physical hurts start to fade it brings on the mental hurts. Stay on your ready and get some contacts and think about aftercare. It doesn't work without it.

Just to let you know. Aftercare to me comes in many forms. If traditional AA/NA isn't for you, <(I think this is the best option) try professional help of some kind. Intensive outpatient aftercare is good. Anything to keep you in touch with people you can relate to. Great job and keep it rolling..........................ike

[dedicatedtostop]

That's crazy!! Thank you for your support! I am fighting!!

[Jerry198]

we had about um 6 inches of rain where I live in socal  last year!!! be safe and keep up the fight !!

[dedicatedtostop]

Indeed I made it!!! LOL.. Our house is actually 5,800 to be exact and I am no Movie star:)... We live in Suburbia where all the homes look alike, it's flat and snooty people who only care about how big their homes are what their cars are and how much $ they make! Oh... And everything is Flat! I really can't wait to move back to culture, art, hills, nature and history!

Okay so I am better at the moment, but I am sooo tired! My state is getting hammed w storms right now, it's hailing now and just reported 6mph wind... And there's another cell behind it! With that said, storms are my biggest fear in life:(....  I literally get sick and panic! I have a good reason for being scared but will not go into it now! Needless to say, my mind is preoccupied!

[Jerry198]

Great to see you made it through the weekend I knew you could do it !! even with the BS just think soon you will be in the new place and off to a PILL FREE life!!!!!! but you had issues with the move will heck ya you said your house was like 4500 square feet?? heck out here in socal only the moive stars have that size house haha and they hire movers have a great Monday..

[dedicatedtostop]

Hi friend!! Hope your having a better day! Sleep was a misery for me again lastnight! I am actually feeling quite ****** today! My allergies seem to be acting up, I am sick to my stomach, my back hurts and I am feeling so anxious! Not sure if it has something to do with the way it works me up when he gets that way or lack of sleep! House still needs packed and I am at a point where I don't even care! I don't have a clue how I am going to even unpack when we get there!!! I do keep telling myself that none of it matters but my sobriety! I am going to try to lay back down at some point! I just don't do well on lack of sleep like this!.... Did I mention I feel like I am going to throw up! Blah Blah.. One step forward, two steps back!!

[dedicatedtostop]

Thank you so much! That was so kind of you! Yes, my Husband is a grown adult! At times I wonder! He has an arrogance about him in a sense of his profession and money where I am supposed to do whatever he says because of this! Nothing in this world is worth that! Anyways, really, Thank you for such kind words. That's means a great deal... Esp today!!

[Bones07]

I've been thinking about you all day at work. Yours is the first post I checked when I got home ...I'm glad your feeling better with your bath. I'm actually stealing the idea and going to have one myself when I get off the post. I'm still sorry about your husband it ***** when your significant other doesn't understand or have compassion for the struggle you are going through. Your fighting for your life to get clean and your doing a damn good job. I'm so proud of you. Love bones

[salizander]

Your husband sounds very immature. He's a grown man, yet he has little tantrums like a 4 year-old. I've been following your story and I have no idea how you're getting through this despite having an unsupportive man-child that you must live with everday.

You are a very strong woman, and you have inspired all of us. I admire your tenacity. You have a very resilient spirit. I wish you the best and your new life is now with your sight. You're an amazing person.

[dedicatedtostop]

Oh but it will any day now!!! I took a nice bath and feel better so screw him! I am over it!! Remember it's just a day and it will pass!! Just keep digging because you are sooooo close! Life is just hard at times! It's learning how to live it

[Bones07]

I'm sorry about your husband friend. Hopefully when he gets back he is in a better mood. Work has been extremely tough today. I feel like falling apart. It's just not getting any easier :(

[dedicatedtostop]

Ahhhh, it's been a good day up until now!! My Husband has got to be the moodiness person I have EVER met!!! Honestly, sometimes I think I popped pills because of him!! I think his moodiness is it!!

So he just got mad at me, slammed the door in my face and out he went to get the girls... It's about an hour and a half there and an hour and a half back!!.... If I can survive this move with his anal retentive *** being clean that dammit I can conquer anything!!!!

[dedicatedtostop]

Ahh, Bones... My partner:)... So far so good! I have done more today than I have since I took my last pill! I do have to really push myself, but I am doing it! I have packed several boxes today and just sat down for a break. Starting to feel shaky but I am pushing threw it! Perhaps because I have yet to eat!? Probably need to force myself!  Going to take a little break and get back at it. We move in 6 Days!!! I " think " I have got this, right now anyway. I am going to go check your post and check on YOU!
Xoxo