Guys I jumped early.

[SleeveGirl10]

I am 30 minutes short of 24 hours. I can't believe it. Husband is hovering (nicely) so I can't be online too much. He thinks I have the flu.  Please pray for me guys, need it.

[gnarly_1]

Hey Girl  how goes it  we haven't heard from you in a wile  please post
..............................................Gnarly.....................................

[kellygirll]

i too kept it from my husband for years everyone told me to tell him noway was i going to that was just not an option for me well i ended up telling him he suspected it already and i felt one million times better and so will you people on here were telling me and telling me my therapist was bugging me i finally did and so glad i did it feels so much better and it will for you too

[gnarly_1]

Hi   now what to do with that addict that lives inside your head....for me the N/A progam has worked  it is free the meetings are only a hour long  it is a simple 12 step program  that with time you will loose the very desire to use  google N/A meetings in your area...Gnarly

[oxypain101]

Lying will make things bad.  just tell him the truth I am 10000% sure he already knows.  You have a long road ahead of you and  you cant have the flu for that long.  He will support you and love you more.  I was in the same situation with my wife.  Like you i though i can get away with blaming it on the flu.  When i finally told her she said she already knew i had a problem

[oxypain101]

Lying will make things bad.  just tell him the truth I am 10000% sure he already knows.  You have a long road ahead of you and  you cant have the flu for that long.  He will support you and love you more.  I was in the same situation with my wife.  Like you i though i can get away with blaming it on the flu.  When i finally told her she said she already knew i had a problem

[Back2Me]

Why would you tell your husband that you have the "flu". Just wondering. Lying always made things worse for me.

[SleeveGirl10]

Just checking in guys.  I'm still hanging in there. Craved a lot yesterday it seemed but it was more from habits I used to love. Loved a pill with my morning coffee so now that my tummy can take coffee again my brain is looking for a pill. Also holiday stress of course had my brain wanting a quick happy pill. I didn't!! I actually got out yesterday and took my daughter (home from college break) for us a pedicure. Was nice. Still having anxiety and mood swings.  

[SleeveGirl10]

I almost messed up today.  Just about of almost sheer habit I opened my bag and there was an old odd bottle in there and I opened it up and of course there was a pill. I had it in my mouth instantly. Then thought what the hell and I literally spit it out and starting spitting anything that may have melted. I have a long way to go to get rid of my drug brain, lord help me

[oxypain101]

Yes that is true.  i came off a large amount and my withdrawals were rough but i learned to live with them knowing they will go away eventually.  for me the stomach issues were the worst.  RLS was bad too , but long hot baths took care of that at night.  You def need family support during this time.  make sure your significant other knows whats going on.  Best of luck to you and hang in there things will get better.  stay close to this forum ppl here know what they are talking about and will help you A LOT.

[SleeveGirl10]

Oxy- is that my W/D seem a little less than what others describe? My long term dose was lower? Don't get me wrong it's been HARD and I have moments (several today) I wanted to give in to just one. But my physical symptoms weren't as bad as I thought in my mind before

[oxypain101]

hang in there...see i am sure you never want to go thru this again.  its horrible but you are doing great.  dont let the neg thoughts take over.  soon you will start feeling so much better.  you are coming off a low dose.  i was taking 10-12 10 mg oxy for 16 months a tomorrow will make 70 days clean.  cut off all sources...dealers dr friends..all of them.  

[SleeveGirl10]

Appetite is non existent
Have lost about 5lbs.  I have episodes of 30 minutes of feeling fine then crash, want to cry, want to lay down. But I can't, I'm at work today. So hard to work through this.

[atthebeach]

Congrats you are doing awesome. Keep up the good work.
Make sure you are staying hydrated. That could cause the headaches and
Faintness.
Also make sure you are staying nourished. How is your appetite?
Try to eat something small every couple hours.
Merry Christmas.
Keep on keepin on.
Keep the faith.
God bless.
Debbie

[SleeveGirl10]

No restless legs:) read up on it a lot before jumping. Stocked up on vitamins and minerals and started few days before I jumped. Also been taking a neurontin 150. Eating lots of banana and soaking in Epsom lavender bath twice a day

[gnarly_1]

hey  congrats on 76 hours now  your doing great take a nice hot soak b/4 bed  you may not be able to sleep  most people cant  just roll up in a blanket on the couch and turn on some music softly  and just deep rest so far so go no restless legs  that drove me over the edge seveal times see how it goes your doing this and what a great Christmas gift you will be giving your family  you clean!!!!  keep posting for support
...................................Gnarly....................................................

[Jima53]

Right there with you girl, cravings for me not bad but headaches and aches and pain all over. I guess everyone is different.  Stay strong. Jim

[SleeveGirl10]

70 hours clean. Work was HARD. I shivered entire shift and almost passed out a few times. Anxiety is medium and craving is still in my stupid drug brain

[gnarly_1]

you still with us????please post a update........Gnarly

[gnarly_1]

Hey  your doing great  as or the worst day it is hard to say  but a general rule is it gets better after 4 days.....there is always some lingering symptoms  like the no sleep thing and the ''energy crash'' but as you get more days behind you it slowly gets better just stick with it  as for the cravings  that is normal for a lot of us  just because you feel like using does not mean you have to  DONT ACT OUT!!!!  if you still have pills left get ride of them the temptation is far to great to deal with if your detoxing  this is a must so flush them  anyway keep posting for support where all here for you.........Gnarly

[Jima53]

No day 3

[SleeveGirl10]

So most people say day 2 is the worst?

[Jima53]

Hang in there, try anything to relax. Your right though today was the worst V and some others here say this is probably the worst.  

[SleeveGirl10]

Cold here too. I'm starting to crave. My chest is burning. My thoughts are straying so bad. I am struggling. If it's worse than this I'm afraid.  I'm so glad someone else is where I am right now to compare notes. Please keep responding.

[Jima53]

My problem exactly have two days left, Monday and Tuesday.  Just coming up on my first 36hr c/t and like you never more  but for over 7yrs starting at30mg and going to 60mg for the last couple of years. Today the anxiety seems worst and longer and the weather is cold this morning so home locked at the moment.  Finding being active the best for getting thru the day. Thank god for this site.