Hey everyone - just thought that I would say hello to you all! If you guys remember me that is. Haven't been on in awhile - I don't dare log on from my home laptop. I really don't need any more drama than I am already dealing with.
Still trying to get acclimated to life as a Canuck. Not sure if I am really falling into the swing of things over there. I think it is just because I am away from all of my family. I never have had too many friends in real life, but I am feeling terribly lonely over there most of the time. I feel as though my only friends are 8 and 2 years old (my boys). I am trying to deal with many emotions and overwhelming feelings. . . mostly if I am ABLE to be happy with my husband and committing to a life over there. There are moments of happiness, but a lot of the time, I find I am feeling sad and angry for little or no reason. We will see - I need to see how things play out.
I am helping to take care of my Grandma right now at my mom's. She had pancreatic cancer 4 years ago and has survived thus far. But we recently found out that it has metastasized to the bone marrow and basically all they can do is pain control with radiation and medications. It won't be long. I wanted to make sure that my kids spent some time with her, because we just don't know how much longer she will be with us.
As far as my wellness is concerned, I have maintained sobriety since May 18th (?) Not sure if that's the correct date. But, now I am dealing with depression that seems to be stemming from many aspects of my life.
Sorry this isn't too informative, I'm a little tired right now and just wanted to make sure I got a message to some of you before I turn in for the night. I will be going home tomorrow. I will try and check in soon!
Miss talking to everyone :(