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[Abbey50]

I called in a fake script . When I got to pharmacy they said the dr phone number was wrong and they couldn't fill. They said to come back w a hard script or have dr call. I am panicking . There were several filled prior to this. It was a non narcotic med . Help w any info thanks

[Pat1956100]

Thanks Emily
I hope everyone takes your great advice.
Some of us are just fighting hard to get clean and stay clean.

Abby, thanks so much for your support and you know I will continue to support you, no matter what.

Keep posting girl
Hugs
Pat

[overeasy]

Keep on moving forward Abbey.  Things are only going to get better the longer you are clean. :)

[overeasy]

E -Thanks for reminding everyone what this site is about :)

[Here4support]

How are you doing Abbey? I don't know your time zone but I noticed you up in the wee hours of morning posting. How are you holding up? I hope maybe you won't see this for awhile as maybe you are getting in a nap. Keep your head up dear and if not up far just above the water, just to get through these rough few days! Keep moving forward ok! Nurture your body right now. As a nurse I'm sure you're well aware of all the things you need to be doing. Nutrition, light exercise, warm baths. Keep posting and we will help keep you positive and strong! Hang in there, almost over the hump :)

[toothfairie]

yea Abbey....we mostly ALL do things we would NEVER do otherwise.....including myself.....just focus on getting healthy and IF anything happens on the legal thing.....then it will help that you are clean and drug free....and trying to help yourself......keep eating when you can and drink lots and lots!!  we are here for you 100%!!!!  

[Emily_MHManager]

Hi everyone -

Let's keep this on topic, and offer support to Abbey50.  Fighting and airing personal issues are not appropriate for the main forum, and it distracts from offering the support everyone is so good at offering.

Emily

[marycarmel]

Is anything helping your w/d symptoms?  I took Tramadol some years back but it caused a problem with balance for me so I only took it a few days.  But I clearly remember the doctor telling me how it was such a great drug as it had all the benefits of a narcotic without dependence/addiction risk, etc.  I dodged a huge bullet on that one (though also feel I was misled on using Fentanyl for chronic pain.  So thankful I found this forum or I would have likely agreed to go on methadone when they suggested it.)  What are you taking for the withdrawals?  Some things should help at least a little, i.e., hot baths with Epsom, Imodium, supplements, melatonin/Alteril for sleep.  I think you're probably having such a hard time because of all the factors involved for you.  I think it's a great idea to talk to a doctor about the psychological dependence.  You've got a lot going on so try not to over worry all of it and just takes things a moment at a time.  This will all pass and you have great support here, even if you don't have it IRL.  Keep reading, keep posting and you'll get there.  As you start to feel better physically, you'll be able to deal with the other things a bit more easily.

[Abbey50]

Congrats Silkie55.  I am glad you are on your way and are feeling better.  This has been an awful night.   Very sick and feeling the pain of my very stupid actions.  I have hit rock bottom in my eyes and once this physical pain wears off I will not touch that stuff again>  Someone asked about the psychological piece and they were correct as that's a huge part of it as Tramadol didn't even get me high or anything.  I just wanted to take it.  I am going to see a dr. and hopefully can get some ideas on dealing with the psychological dependence.  

[Silkie55]

Hi abbey, you are so right! I agree the idea of the forum and the number one most important "rule" in my opinion is we do not judge! Who hasn't made a mistake! I made plenty when I was on opiates, it takes over your life, your thoughts, its rules us and comes before family and friends, the nature of the beast when we ate addicted! I couldn't even go out of town unless I had a good supply.....I stopped 23 days ago. It's good to be me again. And don't beat yourself up too bad, correct what you can when your feeling better, let go of the things you can't change. I do believe a true friend will understand and stand by your side. She may not like what you did, but she may end up being your lifeline...
Take care

[Abbey50]

@ toothfAirie thank you.  I was kind of surprised at some of the comments but the ones from the caring and supportive people made me overlook them . For the people who want to judge I assume they haven't hurt , lied, stolen , or did whatever they had to do to get what they needed . I will ignore the negativity and focus on what's in my control at this point .  I have worked in drug facilities and seen the deception and destruction it causes and cannot believe I stooped this low but yes I consider her my " friend " because when I'm not under the control of this drug I am a great friend in every other way possible . Thanks to all who are supportive . And as the saying goes " if you have nothing nice to say don't say it'" . Constructive criticism is one thing but being insulting is uncalled for . Thank you .

[marycarmel]

I would be furious if someone did that to me but I know that if someone was really my friend I would get past it and hope for a solid recovery for my friend.  I have experienced withdrawals, both acute and while tapering, but I was dependent versus addicted so I can't speak to that part of it.  I was married to an addict and the havoc he caused my family made me think I would never forgive him.  But i  have.  The more I learned about addiction, the more I realized that the disease was bigger than he was.  But even then, I still harbored resentments, though I tried very, very hard to get past them.  I found it so hard, especially because he hurt our children.  But after experiencing the physical part of withdrawals, it opened my eyes.  I can nearly say I think it was a blessing in a way because I think I gained a better understanding of some of what he dealt with.  He's in recovery now and trying to rebuild his relationships with his kids.  He's lost an awful lot to his disease, but I can honestly say that I have forgiven him.  Hopefully, in time, she'll be able to be honest with her friend.  I know it always hurts more to find out someone was deceitful to you and that often makes it harder to forgive.  But she's not physically or mentally in the place to deal with it now but maybe in time she'll be able to.

[Pat1956100]

Very good advice marycarmel.

[marycarmel]

Hopefully nothing will come of it but if it does, please get a lawyer before talking to anyone.  Things said often are taken out of context and even if you were wrong in what you did, you still need to protect yourself legally as best you can.  I know I always thought it would be best to be honest and forthcoming if anything ever happened but after working in the court system, I realized that no one should ever say anything without having a lawyer present.  Are you trying anything for your symptoms?  

[Pat1956100]

I agree.  Just concentrate on getting thru the withdrawals and go from there.  If anything does happen it will look better if you are clean.
Please post and let us know how you are feeling and what your doctor said.

[Abbey50]

Thanks Vicki and sonrissa. Believe me this and the wd is torture enough . I will sit tight and see what happens . My friend might be able to track it to me cause its a pharmacy close to mt house but otherwise no . I signed for em and she would know mt writing so if they do pursue ill have to confess . Right now I'm praying . And I'm suffering tonight physically and mentally.!so glad so many people are helping and being supportive. This has been eating away at me and don't have anyone to talk to but everyone here .

[Sonrissa]

Hi Abbey, I completely agree with Vicki! Let's hope and pray that this situation resolves itself without anyone getting hurt! You have a lot on your plate right now! Focus on getting clean and staying clean!  I know that I have done things during my addiction that I am ashamed of! I think most everyone has! I wish you the very best! Please keep posting for advice and support! Take care, and keep fighting!

[vicki595]

Hi Abbey-   The wd is worse earlier, at the 3-5 day mark. It's related to the amount you took every day and the length of time you took it...

I just read your comment above and I support your thinking right now.  As I've  been thinking about this, can you think of ANY way this can be traced back to you?  Even if they contact your friend, what's their proof that YOU were behind all of this?   Maybe it will just all go away and maybe it has already. Pharmacies can be very busy places and I don't know how much time they have to chase after something like this...And, again, I think it's hard to connect it with you...

We all agree that this was wrong but I don't blame you for staying quiet for now. The threat of litigation is a lot to bear and the torture of THAT is punishment in and of itself! So, let's see what happens. The most important thing is that you get some help with this addiction and get yourself in check.
This can never happen again and you may be surprised at how many really DO push their luck...

[Abbey50]

Yea feeling a little sick now. Flu like and very tires and irritable . I can feel it starting . I has half a pill earlier and have half left for tomorrow . Will see what dr says !

[toothfairie]

well i've never taken ultram so sorry i can't help you with how long....and everyone is diff...maybe you are catching a break on WD and the fake script...i hope and pray that you are....just stay strong and know that what ever you face it's better to be clean any day!!  we are here for you!!  remember to drink lots of water or gatorade!!!!  and eat when you are able!!

[Abbey50]

And I'm not feeling as sick as I thought.   Is the withdrawal worse sooner or later ?

[Abbey50]

Uggg ..... To lose her either way. And confessing now when I don't have to may do that . What if she decided to turn me in and it was not even being pursued ? I have to weigh it out and I don't want my life any more destroyed then it is . Thanks everyone !!

[Abbey50]

Sorry got cut off .....some  People seem to advise I may be ok . I was told that a lawyee said the store will always try to catch u in the act when they can. If it comes to light I will take the fall for all mt wrong doings and come forward and clear mt friends name.  She is my best friend I don't wantnt

[Abbey50]

@domino I picked them up. I will accept full responsibility for this should anything come of it . I would never let my friend be in trouble for my stupid actions . I do not want to come clean And " confess" so to speak because I don't know how anyone will react and if I can avoid legal issues I'd prefer it. I will as someone said if this blows over confess to her once its done with . I may b making the wrong choice but just not ready for that yet.  I  am going to discuss w my dr what happened and see what he advises as I'm sure he's been involved w fake scripts from his patients. I do appreciate and consider everyone's advice but please try not to judge if I make a decision u don't agree with. I know in theory telling her is right but I just can't right now. And going to the pharmacy to confess would seem premature as some pe

[dominosarah]

Who would pick up the scripts you called in under your friends name?