Help to get clean of my heroin addiction..

[Sprees]

Hey there, I'm new to the forum so, hello everybody and thanks in advance for any help I receive. My name is Alex and I'm 19 years old, I started using heroin when I first turned 17, before that it was vicodin, percocet, oxycontin, and fentanyl. When all that became to expensive, that's when my heroin addiction began. I should mention I don't bang, I smoke my garbage on a piece of foil, I have shot before but I have managed to keep away from needles. I have a very large habit now compared to back then, I do about 2 or 3 grams a day. I have been through rehab and counseling for a six month period before and have tried quitting numerous times on my own without success.. The problem is.. there is no escaping it for me. My older brother and mom do heroin as well and I am living with them both. So even if I was to go to treatment again, I would come back to them smoking in front of me and smelling it in the other room when they are trying to be secretive about it. I really want to get clean, I hate being so pale and skinny. I used to be in shape, play sports and be an active person.. For how often I smoke in one day it's going to be so difficult to just get through the day without loading a tray and smoking. Any help would be greatly appreciated.. Thanks!

[Sprees]

Oh by the way, I do have an income but not enough to be able to move out. A lot of my money is going toward monthly court fees that I have to pay. I got into a lot of trouble last year and now I'm paying for it, literally lol.

[Sprees]

laurel453, All of my relatives are in Wisconsin, where I'm originally from. My dad was the only person on that side of the family that I talked to but he passed away last year. He also had a drug problem, but it was with cocaine and weed. The only relatives I can think of that I might be able to go live with would be my grandma and grandpa on my mother's side. They live in the middle of no where so I know I wouldn't be able to find a fix there but I know I wouldn't be able to stay and make a life there because there is no college to attend or jobs available because it's such a small town.

I was trying to reach out to my X step dad a while ago, my mom and him broke up 5 or 6 years ago and him and I haven't talked much since.. but I came to find out that he got arrested in July for possession and use of heroin and cocaine! **** my life haha.

[IBKleen]

I hope you come back and post.

[laurel453]

Hi welcome to the forum , Sprees

you are right, the big problem is that you are living with them and you have to save your life.... you just can't not keep living with them, you can not make them quitting but you can make changes in your life, when there is a will, there is a way.... don't just give up...do you have some other place to go ? do you have any income ¿ relatives ?