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[AmberCCC]

Hi all,
I have been on RX'd oxys for a few years.

I am so depressed, lethargic, have closed myself off from friends, stay home, just in general feel terrible, mentally and physically.

My question is this. Could it be the pills? I have read here, that most were tired of counting, chasing etc. I don't do that. I don't love them or hate them.

But, if this is a possible reason I'm feeling this way, I want to stop.

I would love to hear any reasons y'all had for quitting, besides the counting?

I'm quite desperate, and thanks in advance.

[Beckers74]

Amber, I can tell you that yes, the pills cause depression from my experience. I was taking loritabs and perc's. I was definitely isolating myself. It was just me and the pills at the end. I lost interest in everything. I used to love to go out to dinner, listen to music, watch movies, hang out with friends, but after a while I could care less about anything. I didn't want to even leave the house. I already feel a lot stronger mentally, but I am battling withdrawals. It is the hardest thing I have ever done, but I am not going to look back. I have chronic pain, but I would rather deal with it another way, than to have my life sucked away from me and live in mental misery! :)

[AmberCCC]

Fighting, I just want to say congrats on your decision to stop your subs. I have been lurking here for a couple weeks. It seems you have a great attitude and strong desire to stop.

The more I read, the more I want to stop too. And on the flip side, I'm scared, b/c what if the depression worsens. Guess I'll never know if I don't try. I'm battling with myself inside my head, sorry!

[fightinghrd72]

  It has to be hard. I know I really feel the same way. The pain is horrible and the we get the added pain from the alleged pain relief. I lost my leg, have no C disks in my neck but lately its hard to tell whats causes the pain. As it stands for me I'm going to fight the meds and pray things get better.
  The meds hide the pain but in my experience when I'm on the "wagon" the pain subsides and I again just want the high. It's hard to know whats what. I would be convinced its the pills. Its not a multy- billion dollar business for nothing. They don't care about us-look around, pill addiction is taking over everything. Fight it and fight them. We are dying. You can have your life back...me too. I pray!

[AmberCCC]

I take them for my back. I started lortab after trying PT, chiro, injections, etc. then to percs, then oxys. Now it's 130mg a day. And I still can't stand up longer than 10 minutes, so it seems they aren't really doing their job any longer. I don't want to go on anything stronger.

I have been on about three years, starting with lortab, and in the last year lost my lust for life.
The pain is depressing, but it's not causing this deep, never see a good moment depression.

I see a psych and am on an AD but it's not helping. I have tried several. I have good friends, kids and a lot to be thankful for. So why I am feeling there is never any sunlight is beyond me.
I am to the point I leave home only for Dr visits. My kids are older, only one left at home. I love them so much. But I'm absent, even when I'm with them, you know? I try to laugh. It's so forced.

I'm almost convinced its these pills. I think I used to like them. I don't remember any more. How messed up is that?

I so very much appreciate the replies. It helps.

[fightinghrd72]

  Hi Amber,
      In my opinion whenever we start this long journey with these meds they always make us feel good in some way. After 20 years plus they all do the same thing, bring us down in one way or another. I thought I'd found the solution with subs. After 4 yrs I can feel them pulling me away from "ME" if you know what I mean.
   I just joined this site too. And I took my last dose about two hrs ago. I'm scared, sad and proud of a fight that has to be fought. Hopefully we can do this thing. Because yes, the high only take you so far then dependency , depression and so on. But you are definitely on the right track by looking for the possibility of a fight with your addiction. Good Luck.

[HappyDays2Come]

All of your side effects could possibly be related to taking the pills. Why are you prescribed them? How many are you taking per day? Do you ever take more than prescribed and for reasons other than pain-related?

These pills affect people differently. Initially they gave me energy and helped me be outgoing, but eventually I was taking them just to wake up in the morning and became ill towards friends and family and stopped being social. The more I took the more disconnected I became.

[AmberCCC]

Thank you so much for your reply.

I'd say yes I'm addicted. I don't run out, but I can't go without either.

It kinda just hit me, that it could be these pills making each day horrible. I needed to ask, did others become anti social, depressed on them. Otherwise, if the pills weren't a possible cause, I'd see no reason to stop. Pain and depression then.

Oh I'm so lost.

It's great to see happy posts here.

[Farmgal40]

Hi Amber - read a bunch more - I took Tramadol, and you can find some posts on that, and let me tell you - everyone says, it makes them depressed, lethargic, stay home, away from friends etc.  I can't speak for oxy since I did not take that, but they are probably in the same opiate family and they do all these things. I didn't feel bad about the counting & chasing pills right away either - but when I tried one day not to take one, and HAD to take one to function, I knew there was a problem, I was taking them for how they made me feel and not for pain. But looking back I see how they made me numb to life ,I didn't see my friends as much, at first i thought they were giving me energy, but really i'd crash every day and they made me lethargic. They steal a lot from you mentally and emotionally. I am sure many others will post - so sit down and get ready to read!  can't tell if your post if you feel your addicted or not, but if you are, you came to the right place - to hear others share their stories & feelings and for Support!