Hi everyone can you help me get through this ?

[Readytogetbetta]

Day 1 of CT from OC about 80mg's a day for several months///down to 40 mg on last 2 days.  I know HELL ON EARTH is coming.

Can I post here to get support?  How do I do this with support from this awesome community?

Hell is coming....argggh

I want to be clean so bad and be a better father to my young kids and a beter husband.  Family has no idea.  Told them the flu is coming! But I will need someone to talk to!

This is gonna suck isnt it? ARRGH!

[Readytogetbetta]

I believe I may have passed my inspirational torch to my man Freeeee!!! hehee\

AWESOME POETIC WORDS MAN!

So well said!  Life is worth living again!!!!!

How are you doing Sunshine?

Love to ALL!

Ready!

[sunshinegal76]

Wow, Freedom, that was so well said!!!

I love this analogy of playing in the sandbox with the sunlight on your skin, the innocent game of tag between children... just a reminder that because we are flawed does not mean that we cannot live happy fulfilling lives!

"...how powerful this can make us.  Because what does not kill us, truly makes us stronger." This is beautiful and feels like a delicious hug.

[freedom007]

I can't wait to be a better husband, father, son and friend.  I have been gone for soooo long...a shell of who I used to be.  Hiding, ducking...pretending that I was ok.  Believing that these stupid things kept me going...and not killing me.  The worst part is that they kill the Person...the Personality...the Soul!!  This is living...this is loving...this is unselfishness...this is freedom!

Come along and play...like when we were kids...you can get it back if you want it...if you REALLY are tired of numbing yourselves...it is there...maybe for a moment...but it is there.

Still a long way to go...but F***, how powerful this can make us.  Because what does not kill us, truly makes us stronger.

I refuse to let my last three years be my story...I am not ending it with the Chapter, "Yeah, he was great, but...where did he go!!"  There is sooooo much left...so much left to be done, seen, experienced...soo much more.

Come along and play my friends...THE SANDBOX AWAITS...THE SWINGS AWAIT...A GOOD GAME OF TAG AWAITS....


Tag...ur it!!!

[freedom007]

What's this??  A moment of clarity...a moment of, dare I say, complete and utter JOY!!  Yes, yes...that's what it is.  That strange feeling that has been lacking.  Pulling up on 120 hours and I believe the clouds are lifting...I feel fresh and exuberant.  Yes, my legs are tired...but so what...I am Freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!  

Stay with me folks...I does get better...it really does.

Clear Eyes, Full Hearts...CANT F'N LOSE!!!!!

[freedom007]

and back to the top we goooooooo!!!!  This will not die!!!

[freedom007]

4 more hours to 120!!!  Lethargy, low motivation, but clear headed.  It think this jives with other 5-dayers...kinda frustrating but pushing forward!!  No more rls, crazy restlessness, runs, headaches, manic thoughts, etc.  Inspired, tired, happy.

that's it for now...be back later...freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee