hey platypus you have a lot going on here!!! i am not sure quite where to start or even what to tell you. yes, it is good to be off benzos. but you must taper off, don't ever try to go cold turkey. it seems like you know this already but i just want to stress that. you say you don't do drugs ... but it sounds like you have a pretty good benzo habit there and i think that the drinking is an issue that you really need to look at. all of these issues are part of the same thing: addiction. not saying you are addicted to any substance but it definitely could lead that way. have the doctors diagnosed and found remedies for your abdominal issues? i hope so. you are so small, and it sounds like a lot of meds and a lot of physical distress to your body. your body and your life are precious!!! i would love to hear that you are getting the proper medical attention and treatment for anxiety, maybe not in the form of pills. good luck. keep posting for support
im on Xanax bipolar 6 mgs now been on these 12 yrs.. Yes they help a lot. I was on klonpin 13 yrs prior..I stopped Xanax 1 mgs even still taking it.I was up 4 days no sleep. You will have to get help no matter what benzo your on.the drinking I dunno.i was a bad drunk sober 11 yrs...Xanax is very hard to taper. You will have REBOUND nervesness..my brother took these from the streets got hooked on these 2 mgs a day for months. he didn't have any for a few days. He had a seizure he bit his tong in 1/2..i know your not wanting to hear this, you cant do this alone. He also has the symptoms u do. But he said he felt he had lighting in his body.. the hospital will wean you down with a lesser BENZO like klonpin in case a seizure..or high does of valium ,libream,or even phenobarbital..GET HELP!!
Don't cold turkey Xanax under any circumstances. Benzo dependence is no joke. I was on 3 mg daily for years and my anxiety/panic attacks were well managed. Walgreens ran out of the medication for 3 days and I went cold turkey last year. Didn't know to expect the terrible rebound/withdrawl symptoms and I ended up seizing. I was in the car, but still parked in my driveway and my husband was there to witness and help. My second seizure happened 6 months later (not due to benzos or withdrawl, was diagnosed as epileptic) and that fall injured me fairly badly - toenails ripped off as I fell on concrete - friction burns to hands, feet, head, tongue bit in half and a fairly bad retrograde amnesia as I think I cracked my head on the cement. A good PCP will take you "as is", with your issues and BE HONEST with your doctor about how much you're taking.
I do understand about the drinking - when you have bad anxiety, alcohol is an easy temp fix for anxious feelings. But the rebound of alcohol tends to make my anxiety worse the next day. It also affects the absorbtion rate of the benzos and makes them less effective in the long run. Best of luck friend.
Hello all. It's been nearly two months that feel like two years. I am no longer taking huge amounts of Xanax - .25 a day. I skip some days. My anxiety is down, I am thinking clearly everyday. Things have been good for the last week. A month ago life was hell.
A few days after my post on March 17..
I had a really bad episode from the lexapro- a completely unfamiliar state of mind and body. It was hellish. Chaotic thoughts, run on introspective and scary. A debilitating state of mind that started out as an anxiety attack and spiraled into a hopeless mindset that lasted for hours. After that episode ( it lasted 4 or 5 hours ) my doctor took me off the lexapro and prescribed abilify. I had only been taking lexapro for about three weeks. It had made me too calm, my primary suspected bipolar disorder and referred me to a psychiatrist.
A little back story, I had not been sleeping well- I was taking seroquel ( which made me sleep eat and have horrible nightmares ), had lost a lot of weight and was fearful and panicked about dying and death/non-existence. The abilify worked but made me dizzy and restless and seemed to add to my anxiety after a while. I couldn't kick the anxiety so of course I took Xanax and the doctor prescribed Trazadone for sleep. This went on for a few weeks until I could get in with a psychiatrist.
At this point in time, waiting for the psychiatrist, taking abilify for mood and Trazadone for sleep I was very distressed, underweight, phobic, experienced bad separation anxiety, fear of losing control ( suicide, homicide), unreality, lack of personality. I decided to taper off the Xanax. It was no longer working, my anxiety was through the roof and I had no control over my body. I would tremble and tremor sometimes.
When the psychiatrist could finally see me she attributed some of my anxiety to Xanax withdrawal and akathisia from the abilify. She did genetic testing to find out how I metabolize drugs ( it turns out I am prone to side effects than most people ) and prescribed Geodon and Buspar. I am taking neither. The buspar works fine but makes me dizzy. The Geodon I didn't try. I am tired of medication and feel more like my old self without it. I have bipolar symptoms, I recognize them now as bipolar but I am exercising, stretching, eating better, not drinking or smoking. Overall I feel mildly depressed but I've been through worse. I am seeing a psychologist to try and better deal with the events of the last few months - a bad car accident and my sudden poor health. The Xanax I now have a prescription for, I don't know if it's psychological sometimes I take it sometimes I don't. It's hard for me to deal with everyday life problems-because I had been so reliant on the Xanax to manage everything. The physical symptoms of withdrawal are mostly gone and mentally I am stronger each day as long as I recognize what's me and what's the drugs I have been on. I am regaining some of my old personality back. I read a book, watched a show, laughed etc I am very prone to addiction and I recognize this therefore I am working towards stopping the Xanax eventually. I also know things will get back to normal with time and hopefully I can learn to occupy my mind with other things.
If anyone is reading this it's possible to overcome a benzodiazepine dependency but it will take a lot of willpower and both physical and mental suffering.
Hi. I took Xanax for over 30 years....4 mg/day from the dr. Horrible anxiety attacks.
I decided to get off of them. After 5 months I'm down to 1.25 mg a day. It's been a long road, but doable. You must drop it VERY slowly! I asked my dr for a taper schedule . It was much slower than I was attempting. But it's working.