Well, I finally went to a real na meeting last night. I looked around the room and saw all kinds of people, everyone there was different. However, we all had the same thing in common.....addiction. I all,ibe going back. I really like getting my feelings out there and watching everyone agree. They knew where I was coming from. Now, I need to find a sponsor and start working the steps. i have been seeing a therapist also. I am,really fighting for,this harder than I eve,jave, and praise God, I think the battle is turning. I still get physical and emotional anxiety for a few minutes of the bday each day, which is still a concern for,me. I,have never had anxiety like this last so long not to mention the headaches. That's the wier part and the part I hope someone can clarify for me. It feels like they are right under my skin on my forehead and above my ears almost feels like a muscle spasm. It's not bad pain, but it does concern me greatly. Plus, it looks like the my forehead muscles are very pronounces like they are standing out. I know that probably sounds funny to most people, but it scares me. Of course being a severe hypochondriac, I notice stuff like that. These drugs have made my health anxiety much worse. Even though it sounds crazy, right now I think all of these problems are from something like shingles or some other disease in my muscles in my forehead and in my brain. Sounds crazy i know. I feel like i,am in mental prison, but i,am,fighting....hard. Thanks to all who responded...I know I am the craziest one on here. I,am trying and all of your responses are really appreciated....