How can I cope with mental withdrawal?

[minesia]

I am going in to week 4 of being clean from a 60 to 180 mg oxy habit.  I feel fine physically but mentally I am a wreck!  I am aggrivated, I have no feeling good or bad towards anything.  I just moved in w/ my Mom and I am supposed to be looking for a job and getting a place of my own but I don't care.  I have 3 kids and I am not abusive but I have been yelling alot and wish I could place them somewhere for a while because I feel like I can't handle being a Mom much less a living person.  I take 200 mg of Lamictal which is a mood stabilizer but I don't know if it isn't working or if things would be worse if I wasn't taking it.  Since I just moved I am trying to establish a Dr. here but I have never been honest with a Dr. about my drug use.  I am not sure that I am ready for that.  It is my addict thinking that keeps me from being honest because what if it keeps them from putting me on something good like Valium.  I was told was I was clean for a couple of weeks I would feel like a new person, well I do a miserable one.  I can't stop thinking and dreaming about the pills.  I am clean not by will power but because I am always with my kids and don't have someone to get the pills from and don't have them extra money to spend.  I just read everyone's post and it seems like you are all like once the physical part is over you are home free.  How do I get to feel like that?

[evildone]

Lots and lots of oatmeal. Get to gnc and get a mega multi vitamin. Oatmeal is great for ur brain and. Like someone else said. Walk walk walk. It helped me. Walk ur dog if u have one. You need to find something to keep u busy. For energy get. Gnc mega sport vitamins. It will help out big time. And it has all the vits ur body depleated for so long. Good luck. Peace

[mommy52713]

Hi I have 82 day's clean today and I still go through the feeling's you are going through they say this is a roller coster ride but I know as long as I stay clean thing's will get better think about how long you used for and know each day will get better be easy on your self and take it one day at a time please stay strong you and your kids are worth it.

[sway1]

don't let it take a tragedy for you to see how blessed you are.

[xxpinkyxx]

I too had a 80-100mg oxy habit for 3 yrs. I am on day 22 today and feel like I am not getting anywhere but.........Im not giving in. Stay on here Im sure there will Many many people who can help you as they have me. stay strong please xx

[ForgotRomans828]

Since I am only just coming out on the other side of AWD, (day 6) I am probably not the best person to answer this, but what has worked for me is getting out and walking, noticing the beauty around me, feeling immense gratitude for my health, my children and their health.  Sitting quietly, sipping hot tea, and saying a meditation of gratitute; all the things I am thankful for.  I am also taking Valerian root, which is the herb that valium is made from.  I take 2 caps. every 4-6 hours as I need it.  Try to stay positive and focused on how far you have come.  Best of luck!