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[denise3606]

I am on day two of taking Hydro...I am hanging in there a Minute  at a time and need support

[denise3606]

Thank you , I needed to hear that...This is not even 1/4 of what I normally do...I will never be what I was with the pills...But I am normally high energy..This is really hard for me...But the day is done now...I am almost done the dishes from the cookie mess...Love you...

[Pat1956100]

Hey Denise
Your energy will come back.  Just think about how much more you have than a week ago.
You walked 3 MILES. You came home and cleaned and are going to bake cookies.  I think you have a lot of energy.  I can only imagine what you are going to do when it all comes back lol.
Seriously, you are doing amazing.  We can't rush it.  It will come back.  
I am still not up to par but I have noticed a big difference.
I can stand a lot longer and my walks are getting longer but nowhere near 3 miles.
I know, I can hardly wait for mine to come back full too, but I guess, we can't rush it.

[denise3606]

What a blessing your are doing this at your young age...All of us seems that we have all been in that trap of pain relief and then get addicted...I am 65 and never even drank soda, When I was on those pills I started drinking Pepsi...Now I don't crave it anymore...Those flipping things can really screw up your life...If you can put your kids in a stroller in the morning or later today and take them for a little walk..I know my walk even though I was dead when I came back did help...We have to do this...Thanks Sweet girl...Love Denise

[YesLife4Me]

Good for you on days!   I hope to be back there again.  I made it almost 30 days and let the demon take control.  So now I sit here on day 2 of wd looking forward to putting them b ehind me once and for all.  The mental part really is harder because u like wd, we don't know for sure when it ends and it comes in waves.  If you can do this, its and inspiration for me.  Thank you for sharing.  

[Lovemomof2]

Right here with you! Day 9. No energy....I am 33 with two little kids. Right now my youngest is sleeping and I am watching tv with my 4 year old. So hard! I feel so guilty....he never watches as much tv in the past 9 days as he is now. :( we are usually busy doing stuff. Anyway, I am here if you need to talk. I understand!

[denise3606]

I am coming to you because I know you are my age..Day 9..So flipping tired and I have to make myself do anything..Today I walked almost 3 miles and I cleaned my floors and shook the rugs ...I will make a large batch of cookies after a little rest...I am so used to 100 times more energy even without the drugs..Will I ever be normal again, whatever that is...I just want some of my life back...Those pills have really screwed me up...Thanks for listening....Denise...I don't even know what I am doing on this site...Love D.

[denise3606]

Day #9..Been up since 4 am..Can't go back to sleep...I am still anxious, but I feel a little better...I am so grateful I can come here and vent...I am going for a walk right now and FORCE myself to to anything else...Thanks for listening...Have a great day everyone...Denise

[ihateopiats]

Hey, i have been taking heroin & 30ml methadone for 12 years , Then i lost both parents within a year , i was left a huge house & a few £ss.I have no other family soooooo i had to get clean ,as i had had enough of  the crazy "drug addicted crap lifestyle " so i cut down from 30ml methadone..in 2 weeks to nothing, also stopped the heroin iv 2 weeks before the meth cut down, i was fine for the 1st 5/6 days... Then BOOM the wd was just horrendous ,i was throwing up for 16 hrs straight ,with blood in the bile!!! i was in acute wd goose bumps size of boiled eggs!! burning up, sweating, ohh musn,t for get those lovey chills , i honestly thought i was going to DIE!! to be truthful wished i would die .... this terror/torture went on for 2days none stop ! Anyway i read on here that imodium & zantac stop opiate wd ??? so my partner went to the pharmacy  got me 4 packs of imodium 12x 2mg , also got me a bottle of grapefruit juice .... i took 2packs = 54ml+ 1 zantac, take the zantac 20 mins before imodium with grapfruit juice ,  Then just wait , within 1 hour 85/90% wds will  subside , I have been on this recipe for 3 days now , & i feel tip top!!!!!  i have been clean now 14 days , PLEASE TRY THIS /DONT SUFFER IN AGONY  IM LIVING PROOF IT WORKS ) I still cant believe it myself , all the horrendous detox,s iv been through .......... imodium + zanax = no wd  & im sleeping too bout 6hrs a nite ...still no real appetite , it,ll come :)  also drink plenty of fluids , no alcohol ...... it worked wonders for me , good luck , let me know how you get on  ,
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[clean_in_ks]

Thank you for sharing your pain and encouraging all of us.  Hydros for legit pain was how I started out, too,  When I read what happened to your son, I gasped.....and thought
"there but for the grace of God go I"

[denise3606]

Thank you so much for your post..I am so very sorry about your loss..I remember thinking many times when I was using that I might die in my sleep...Your post will help many people..This is a very serious addiction..I hope that there will be more control in how easy it is to get pain pills after injures so this won't  happen to others..Big Hugs...

[shiggles]

Sorry for the double post.  I'm a dinosaur still using a typewriter.

[shiggles]

I am reading this thread because my son died from an accidental overdose of hydrocodone last year.  His addiction started with a prescription from his doctor for a sprained back.  It got to the point where he was taking more and more pills each day to ease the pain until he finally went to sleep and his breathing shut down and he didn't wake up.  How I wish he had found this site to give him the courage all of you have found.  His wife and 3 little girls are still almost lost without him.  I miss him so much my body hurts. Please continue to come here and write what you need to.  Get it off your chest.  Don't let the "voice" tell you that you need a pill. Please, please, all of you stay here, help each other and stay alive. Don't leave loved ones behind to wonder "what if."  Be strong.

[shiggles]

I am reading this thread because my son died from an accidental overdose of hydrocodone last year.  His addiction started with a prescription from his doctor for a sprained back.  It got to the point where he was taking more and more pills each day to ease the pain until he finally went to sleep and his breathing shut down and he didn't wake up.  How I wish he had found this site to give him the courage all of you have found.  His wife and 3 little girls are still almost lost without him.  I miss him so much my body hurts. Please continue to come here and write what you need to.  Get it off your chest.  Don't let the "voice" tell you that you need a pill. Please, please, all of you stay here, help each other and stay alive. Don't leave loved ones behind to wonder "what if."  Be strong.

[toothfairie]

girl if i knew the answer to that....i'd bottle it and patent that s**t!!!  hahahaha

[denise3606]

But I ask you why not get better in a day..Just kidding...

[toothfairie]

Sorry to hear you're having a bad day!!  i promise it gets better!!  just hang in there!!!  just keep fighting thru it!!   my day was OK....but i made it back to work....so that's one more milestone behind me!!  really tired now....but i knew i would be....lol   hope you get better soon!!  you got this girl!!  

[Pat1956100]

Yes we abused pills for a long time so we can't expect to feel great in a short time.  I am just hoping I feel well by Christmas or a couple of days before lol.

[denise3606]

Thanks I needed to hear that...What a struggle this all is...But we know the old saying..I didn't it was going to be easy, but it will be worth...I can't wait for some of that...You take care too...Love Denise

[Pat1956100]

Denise, it comes back slowly.  I am on day 17 and still really suffering but I stayed in bed for 5 years so i am really hurting.  Also have fibromyalgia so please don't let me discourage you.  
I have noticed am improvement though from the first week.
I think yours will come back sooner than mine.
You are doing everything you can to get it back so just keep on doing what  you're doing.

[denise3606]

How did your day go...I was having a really bad day today..But getting better and I can't wait until all this crap is over...What a journey..There is no way anyone can do this alone..You take care sweetie

[denise3606]

This has been a really hard day..I managed to walk tww miles this morning..Picked up my brother's meds an went to Costco..I am so dragging...I am going to do a little housework..No energy..I am going to see my other daughter this coming weekend and we are going to the theater with the grand-kids...Oh my gosh, I know I can't think that far ahead..This is really hard, I will get through today and worry about tomorrow..I will come back later to vent...Love you

[denise3606]

Am I ever going to get my energy back...I still have to FORCE myself to do anything...It was a killer doing my walk...Now I have other things to do and I would rather die...I know I will hang in there...Thanks for listening the babble...Off to do my errands.. I really hate this..But I won't and can't go back to the pain pill, I don't care how much energy they give me...At the end they did not even work...It had to be more and more..How sick is that...Love you

[denise3606]

I am just getting ready for my walk..I am crying and feeling depressed, I am off...Talk to you later...Love ya Denise

[Pat1956100]

You are still rocking it I see!!  Good for you.  Don't try and be superwoman but yes it is good to force yourself to do things.  I am still doing that.
It's Day 17 and it still takes me awhile to get moving.
I do find I am dealing with things more though.  Not burying my head in the sand so much lol.
I am still waiting for energy to come back but it has improved quite a bit.
I thought yesterday how much energy we had as kids and how I couldn't even remember that feeling.  Jumping out of bed and just going all day long.  
Wow, to have half of that energy again.