How did you kick subs?

[pelly222]

Ok Here's my story. I was an abuser of Percocet\Oxycontin for years. Having said that I've always been able to put stuff down when it started getting out of control (like a crack pipe with money still in my wallet!) Even perks, but I would stop, then one day a week, then a couple days a week, then after work every day, then before during and after work and, oops I can't pay my bills at the end of the month. Then I would stop again, the withdrawals hurt but whatever. I finally found something I couldn't stop: the cycle not the actual drug. It was then that my now wife and I decided to get on subs, her on suboxone and me on subutex (I had severe headaches and heartburn on soboxone.) My doctor tried two different antacids to no avail. Finally he put me on just the bup, thank god. Flash forward two years 8mg three times a day, I don't wanna be a slave to this sh++ any more. My doctor asks "are you still having cravings?" I say "yes I am still having cravings doc." But am I? I don't think so, not for perks, just for those f+++ing subs. Oh I almost forgot, and it's important to my kicking, I fell off a roof and was in a coma for 6 days. They were shooting me up with dilaudid thru a pick line that went directly to my heart. WOHW that was awesome by the by. I kicked subs under sedation, I know this because wife told me how much I was tossing and turning in a coma. So much so that they had to tie me to the bed. So it's time to go home they give me.......perks! I transitioned back to subutex seamlessly though so no problems there. So I crushed and snorted mine, which gives you a lot more bio-availability. Here's what I did: I got down to one 8mg per day FIRST. Stopped snorting mine and switched to sucking on those disgusting strips my wife gets. That was the worst I felt, going from snorting to sublingual. At the height of feeling like doggie do I snorted one to feel better then went back to the strips for like 2 days, feeling fine. Then I just stopped. Now, I have the benefit of being out of work on workers comp from my fall off the roof, which, as I said was important because I could lay around and be lazy for as long as I needed. I don't know if it was the particular way I did it but it wasn't that bad. A few hot flashes, a few chills, one night of restless legs and today I feel ok. I did use benzos to bridge any gaps and before bed (I didn't get much sleep for few nights.) I am feeling aches but I think that's just from being 37 and the subs masking them. So I got down to one, stopped snorting/went sublingual for 2 days, snorted one day, 2 more days sublingual, quit with benzos and 3-4 days on the couch. If it weren't for my back and a little ptsd from falling, which is why I'm on workers comp, I feel I could go back to work and be fine. I walked to the store yesterday, my knees hurt but I mean I think I'm over it. Good luck guys, keep telling yourself it ain't that bad, attitude is everything.

[VICourageous]

Hi & Welcome. I sure hope you taper the Benzo nice and slow..Give those to someone you trust to hand out..I went ct back in 2012 off 3 meds at once & one being a Benzo..That was the worse then even my Methadone.

Addiction is a Brain disease & there is no cure however it can only be arrested.
I sure hope you reach out for some Group Support by going to some meetings or by getting counseling if you have not yet done so..This is serious and it takes SO much work to change things around us, or ALL of the bad behaviors that have to change. Leaning how to avoid Triggers is a must..This is no walk in the park and it will take a lot of listening & learning all you can..Life will always have some serious Bumps in the road. Always having some kind of Support can save your ash from going out and using when things get tough and Life is not going just like we want. The Mental part is always the hard part..We have a Mid-brain (survival part) that will always remember the pleasure we got off of any Addiction we may have. Substances take this over and nothing that has to do with survival matters, but finding these drugs or whatever the addiction may be..This is the part that will have to change by replacing it with new Healthier Habits. AND this is not easy..Too bad we can not put in a new tape up there in the brain..The brain does get unbalanced from using and this is what takes SO much time to balance out.
BUT YOU can become free if you just keep working at it and change many, many things around you. No more going to the old stomping grounds..Sometimes it takes a good Wake-UP call to have you straighten things out..Like a Life threatening wake-up call..I sure do not want that to happen to you or your wife. Please take your time and start hitting some support groups!!!  Look up Addiction in a more Scientific way. This will not Save you, but it will help you understand what is going on along the way..Lay that Foundation now so you can build a better life.
Bless

[pelly222]

Oh and on a side note, now I have to kick benzos!!!!!!!! HaHaHa, the thing that helped me with the subs now has a hold on me, life's a kick in the balls sometimes.