I don't have personal experience with this, mostly because very few people ever knew much about my active phases of addiction. For me, it was a very solitary thing until relatively recently. Now, only a couple people close to me know the extent of things, and they're supportive. One person in particular helped me through a very rough year and to get sober again. So, I suppose I'm saying I'm not experienced, although I do imagine it would take time to repair trust. However, it seems awfully important to have a few relationships with people where that dynamic isn't at play, and so I'm wondering if it's possible to get connected with someone else or a couple people who are also working sobriety. Or else, perhaps just any new friendship might be helpful. It can take a lot of time to repair longstanding relationships, especially if trust is being repaired. That being said, you deserve existing relationships where you feel like you can be trusted. It makes me wonder if there are ways to find new friendships like that if they don't already exist so that you don't always need to feel like you're not trusted and that your work isn't worthwhile. I've been trying to establish new friendships in a city a few states from my previous home and it's especially hard to do with COVID and while also being sober, but it has been *slowly* possible, although definitely is still a work in progress. :)
Your actions will speak louder than words. I know it took years for me to gain back the trust i had destroyed. We have no control over how others see us, all we can do is keep moving forward~
God grant me the SERENITY to accept the things I cannot change, COURAGE to change the things I can and WISDOM to know the difference. I find this helps me with situations I have no control over.