I CANT SURVIVE THIS DEPRESSION PLEASE HELP ME

[hatethewrongroad]

day 2.  crying and crying  feell so trapped in my head like there is no where i can go to for relief, i feel like i've permanently made it so only opiates will make me feel good. PLEASE tell me how you survived the L-O-N-G days of depression  it seems like i have a million miles to go.

[StuckANDscared]

How are you doing today?  Can't wait to hear from you...you give us all hope!

[blue_violet]

Just know that every time you cry, it's a GOOD thing! Your body is purging itself off all the emotions it didn't get a chance to feel while you were on the pills... It's a release, and something we all go through. It won't last forever. It's harder in the beginning, but it's a good time to turn in ward and really get in touch with yourself... The pills keep us so numb.

Hope you're feeling better today...

[paleflower]

Hi! Congrats on 5 days!! That's awesome. How's your weekend so far?

[Ann2497]

Glad to hear you are doing better.  I asked Ricart to tell you about the dream.  Not sure why he didnt.  I might have embaressed him.  Let me send him another message.

[dominosarah]

Nice to see you feeling better!  Congrats on 5 days!  That is a great achievement.  Keep up the positive thinking.       sara

[hatethewrongroad]

DAY 5       Good Morning.  I feel well on the way to being normal, (well..I never was completely normal:)   have a plan or two for the day. i am realizing mornings are my best part of the day, afternoons are sketchy.. but the severe depressiion is absolutely not there,  I am staying very proactive in what i feed my mind and my body and getting out for fresh air and stuff like that.       GATORGIRL:  so encouraged by your 2 years  and thanks for the info.      ANN:  please please get ricart to tell us about the dream...I'm lookin forward to that!!

[gnarly_1]

Well it good to see you did better today if you stay bizzy that helps you will find that you will have good days bad days and so so days but in the end any day you dont use is a victory keep pushing forward work aftercare into your life and this will all fall into place keep posting for support good luck and God bless......Gnarly

[GatorGirl99]

Hope you are doing well.   Sounds like you've made it through the worst so far.  I don't know your exact situation, if you are trying to WD completely natural.  If so I recommend the amino acid DL-phenylalanine to help elevate your mood. Also magnesium taurate - many addicts (non-addicts for that matter) are deficient in magnesium and it can feel alot like anxiety, insomnia, panic...  Most magnesium in stores is mag oxide which isn't very absorbable so don't waste your $.   The taurine in mag taurate is very soothing as well.

If you are amenable to medication, Baclofen can be effective in controlling cravings and withdrawal.  It worked about 1000 times better than Clonidine in my opinion, but everyone is different.   Let me know if you want info.

You are doing so well.   The first 48 hours are the worst but you are doing it.  Congratulations.  It's been over 2 years for me, so it does work.  You can do it.

[littlebit667]

I like how this thread is going....we all need to laugh and this one has me giggling!  I want to hear about the oxy dream!!!!!  :)  

Sam's Choice Oxy's = priceless!

[paleflower]

Sam's Choice Oxys!!! lol

[Ann2497]

You need a good laugh?  I will ask ricart to share with you a dream that he had during his clean time about Walmart selling oxys.  I thought it was funny because ricart and I were discussing what people would do if Walmart really sold oxys.  Ricart said it would be Black Friday times two.  There would be people lined up around the block and riots as grown men and women fought over bottles of oxycontin.

[paleflower]

I'm so happy you're feeling better sweetie, told ya' :) As days go by you will feel better and stronger, focus on today. You have lived drug free for 4 days!! Yay!!!!!

[hatethewrongroad]

DAY 4.     Wow I feel MUCH better this morning, I slept last night because I took a couple of Ativan/lorazepam.  But I am fearful of the stuff don't want to overuse it. NO MORE WITHDRAWALS FOR ME!! ( i mean in the future)  No more day 1 or day 2   for some reason i have my head set on 1 year and not looking back..that one year marker seems really big to me.     So I would love a good laugh..anybody got anything (decent please) like you littlebit, anymore nerf ball activities??  :)

[jlannspr]

"Decide that you want it more than you are afraid of it."

"No individual raindrop considers itself responsible for the flood."

I have found comfort in quotes during this time. The two above remind me of StuckANDscared and hatethewrongroad. Keep it up. We don't want you to have to write that "day 1" is starting again. Chin up.

[StuckANDscared]

Congrats!  I will be quitting soon, tapering now.  I've started using hydrocodone for legit pain (Harley accident) 10 years ago...and never looked back I guess.  I've been through several at home detox/withdrawals...so I know where you are right now.  

It seems to be a milestone for us women addicts - shaving our legs - because I seriously CRIED in the shower because I was so thankful I was able to do that.  Such a simple thing like shaving made me see true, real light at the end of the tunnel.  Lol!

These people on here are amazing...they know what they're talking about.  Listen.  Listen listen listen...

YOU CAN DO THIS.  I know it seems impossible at time, but this is MAYBE a week tops of hell to fight for the rest of your life.  Are you willing to walk through Hell for a week to save your own life?  I hope the answer is yes!

[ricart70]

I love it when people do things that I have not heard of.That is quite funny littlebit.(nerf ball).lol

[Opiategurl]

I feel your pain. Ive been there and I am there. All I know is it does get better and these people know what theyre talking about. Just keep coming back and dont give up. Take care!!

[gnarly_1]

HOW did you do today any better theses dark clouds can hang over you sometime.......Gnarly

[littlebit667]

Glad I could make you laugh.  I remember my first really good laugh...it was about 3 weeks before I had a really good one!  It felt good.  I have been free 61 days!  Keep it up....each day is a blessing when free from the devil pills!

[Ann2497]

There you go = that is a much better attitude.  Keep your head up.

[hatethewrongroad]

what an incredible support system i have found with you all. I would be lost against the great unknown if it weren't for you. again THANKS

[paleflower]

One day at a time, that has been my mantra. Day 3 was the worst for me, but today on day 7,  I feel so good, and so will you, trust me the sadness and depression will cease, you are doing great. Like Ann & Ricart said, don't think about next week, focus on today. Remember when babies are learning to walk? they try to keep their balance, they stumble and fall, we are all like those babies learning day by day. A much more beautiful life is around the corner, you are a strong woman, you can beat this addiction for good, be proud of yourself, 3 days is a great achievement. You are in my prayers, God bless you.....

[ricart70]

Next week is four days away.You will feel alot better by then.You should just put off worrying about that until at least saturday.You can do it.You are doing great for day 3!

[Ann2497]

Don't think about next week.  Every time it comes into your head start thinking about something else.  This week is all about you!  It is your time to be selfish.  Congrats on day 3.  You don't realize how many people give in by now.  They post on day 1 how they need help and never come back.  They go back to their pills because they can't handle it.  You should feel good about yourself right now.