I am feeling like ****

Question

Wow it just hit me from one minute to the next. I feel awful. Is it because I am coming up on 24 hours without it? I can't even type that's how bad I feel. Here I thought I was doing so well. Now I don't know it I can get through without getting a pill. I am starting to feel like a looser.

Innerstrength67 · Answer

How are you today girl? I am so proud of you. This is not easy stuff we are dealing with because not only are we putting down the drugs and dealing with WD but we also have to deal with life at the same time. It's so hard when you feel down but your doing a great job one hour at a time.

gnarly_1 · Answer

how you doing today???

Taalian · Answer

Here for you too!!! Let us know!!!

all_alone1 · Answer

I came home at arund 5 this morning and posted about my fight with my hubby. And then went to sleep. I didn't le him bother me:-)

gnarly_1 · Answer

WHERW you at girl ??? you need to post this forum will be your lifeline for the next few days I told you I would check on you I will till i fall alseep
you know I work nights but I do have a hard time sleeping I will check back later to see if you responded please dont leave us hanging we care
Gnarly

Taalian · Answer

I'm so proud of you for flushing!!! Hang tough and don't let other people trigger you, remember your doing this for YOU and your kids... That is the prize, when you are there finally it will seem like those ****** feelings are far behind!! Just remember what life was before the pills and know that you can be there again, feeling all of life's beauty's :)

littlebit667 · Answer

Hubby may not be ready for the new you.  Your brain is starting to function and the fuzzies are gone.  That is wonderful.  Everyday I have been clean has been a great day for me and I hope for you.  I can't believe the difference in how I feel.  I was pretty absent from my world and that was not ME!  I may have been a pain in the butt, but at least I was THERE and not vacant.  He is gonna have to get used to you again!!

gnarly_1 · Answer

HOW YOU holding up now im proud of you for flushing them it is going to make this whole thing ezer if you cant get them its not an option and any one of us would use during acute withdrawals will be with you threw the whole thing just hang in there post how you feel and where your at mentally and will help remember its all aboyt attatude its ez now but it can be tuff when the going gets ruff I just got home I will check on you threwout the day....
YOU CAN DO THIS.....just keep telling yourself that if you believe in God prayer helps you will do just fine we got your back......Gnarly

all_alone1 · Answer

I was right just got into a argument with my husband. He said the car smelled like weed. I put some gas before I got there and some of it spilled out on my shoes and the trunk(the tank opening is on the side if trunl).What a joke. First of all I don't smoke that **** so he is trying to accuse me og having someone in the car. So I let him have it. His come back was if I got stopped by the police. I told him police are not that stupid they know the difference and he actually got what I meant for a change. Funny thing is even though he gave me **** for nothing I am not depressed or really stressed about it. My mind is clear but I know I won't be sleeping tonight and not for fighting with him no that l-tysorine. But that's okay cuz I would rather stay awake then feel like ****.

all_alone1 · Answer

Thank s all of you. And yes I have been sneezing a whole lot. Took your advice and befor I had a chance to think about it I flushed them down. No turning back now so you guys better be here for me. I know I am going to need it. I have to help my hubby tonight. He needs paperwork for our lawyer. Last minute stuff you know to throw us off( funny how you have to fight for what belongs to you. One of our previous clients didn't pay) so I might be on here all night cuz my hubby is such a hot head.

Ace31 · Answer

angel_lina, it's going to be difficult for approximately 5-7 days. After that its all downhill. The sleep will return to somewhat of a normal state, appetite will stabalize, cramps will be gone, sneezing will diminish, mood will stabalize itself after sometime as well. I understand how difficult it must be with children around, but give it just under a week and you beat the physical withdrawal. What a feeling it is when that is over...you will be very proud of yourself as everyone here. 

Once the physical symptoms are gone, the hard part begins. You need support and we are here for ya, but try to find a group or a meeting that you enjoy. If you try to recover alone you will be setting yourself up for disaster. It took me 10 years and numerous detoxes to figure that out. I wish you the best and you hang in there. We are here for ya

Taalian · Answer

Ps gnarly is right! Flush flush!!

Taalian · Answer

Damn, I'm so sorry I wasnt on, next time you feel that way send me a message I'll get on and help you through it. Starting day 7 tomorrow CT and I promise it gets better. Don't be discouraged, you are not a loser because you are HERE seeking help... Tomorrow starts a new day.

gnarly_1 · Answer

ya I come on late b/4 its time to do the papers God I only got like 3hr sleep today it going t be a long night im glad you dident take another pill now im going to ask you to do something really hard......flush the rest of the pills as long as you have access to them you will use them this is ezly sad but very hard to do I remember I had detoxed myself off methadon so I had like 900mg left the last day I must have sat in frount of that toylet for 1/2 hr b/4 I could get up the courage to flush my lifeline down the crapper on one hand it was frighting it was my life line on the other it was freeing I was finely threw no going back now it was sink or swim my buddy Rob came up with the saying the sharks dont look so menacing from up on the rail but they sure do when you have to swim with them he had been threw several methadone detoxes and was a great help I was sick for around 7 days not as sick as I though I would be but not well by any means but you know I wouldent trade the experience for anything I learned an important lesson detoxing is painful
and its that very pain thats going to set you free it was so so worth it in 2 days away from 2yr off that crap life is a beautiful place without it every once in a wile I tihk about the pills but ony for a short wile and I have learen threw aftercare what to do with those thoughs GIRL  you going to make it you willl be sick for a few days but whats that in the sceame of life you willl be so much better off without them keep osting for support im up if you want to chat good luck and God bless.....Gnarly

all_alone1 · Answer

Also thank you snakejones for you words. Yes I told her mommy doesn't feel good and she scratched my head for a while and then she was jumping up and down to play. She is just not used to me like this and I don't want her to get used to it.

all_alone1 · Answer

I was waiting for you gnarly. Thanks for the conforting words even though I didn't do it. I wanted another dose at midnight but I took the l-tysorine insted it cleared my mind and I didn't take another pill. I guess that was what was helping me durning the day. I know it might not let me sleep but I don't care my mind is clear and I am stress free.  By the way how much is safe to take daily?

gnarly_1 · Answer

HEY GIRL well you got your feet wet you did good making it with just 1/2 a pill on a taper tomorrow is another day start out fresh and just know your going to fell like you have the flu for a few days you can make it off this stuff it just takes a little perseverance I know you want it bad and thats 1/2 the battle the other 1/2 is the right attitude do your best to keep a positive attitude will going threw this it will make the difference between suffering or just mild discomfort its all how you look at it this is what it going to take to set you free you will no longer be chained to a pill bottle when its done I have all the cofadence in the world that your capable of doing this so hang in there tomorrow is another day give it a try again good luck and God bless.......Gnarly

snakejones · Answer

You can always cuddle and watch a TV show together if you feel like crap! Make some microwave popcorn. Or have her curl up with you on the sofa and read a book to her. That's quiet, too.
Did you tell her "Mommy doesn't feel good" already, or does it need to be a secret? If it does need to be a secret, you'll just have to offer substitute activities that aren't as hard on you. Just do the best you can; love will save the day.

all_alone1 · Answer

Thank you Innerstrengh67 I need to hear that. I just couldn't let this innerfere with my kids. They don't deserve this thing knocking me down. It isn't fair for them to be deprived of my time because I couldn't cope. She is so happy now and so am I her smile is so innocent, I couldn't bear to hurt her.

Innerstrength67 · Answer

If you are tapering than it's ok. Even if you aren't tapering your on a very low dose. When your ready to leap into a clean life, you will and we will be right here to support you. 
You are not a loser!!!! I know you feel that way and I have felt that way. But we aren't. We are addicts trying our best to have a better life:)

all_alone1 · Answer

I don't know if I can go CT. My 4 year old little girl was begging me to play with her( we always play with her little barbies before bedtime) and I couldn't get of my ***. So I took 1/2 a pill just to deal with my kids.  I feel so disappointed in myself for having to take it. I know it isn't my 3 and 1/2 I had set for myself, but the fact that I needed even the half is upsetting. On the up side I am playing with barbies right now. :-)

dominosarah · Answer

Take a deep breath, you can get thru this.  I know it is tough but so are you.  You are not a loser at all.  You have to do what is right for you here........

all_alone1 · Answer

I don't know if I am going to make it. I feel like I can't even get up. My baby girl is calling for me and just that sound of her whining is irritating me. This never happens. I can't let this effect them, they don't deserve it but if I take my dose even if it it less, way less than I have set for myself I will feel like I looser. Please someone help me whay should I do, I can't take it.