I can't do this anymore!

[Nursey7]

This is just all too much-the no sleep, the depression and the anxiety doesn't feel worth it. Today is just not a good day -maybe tomorrow I wil have a new outlook

[selfinduced]

Way to go on day 29!!!!! Thats great you are going to see your therapist today. Unload all your concerns and worries. She'll/he will give you the tools you need to keep on going. 30 days is ONE day away.....What a milestone that is. You'll have those bad days but with each clean day behind you, you will be stronger in your resolve. Keep posting for support. We're all routing for you!

[Nursey7]

I am still struggling pretty bad today and I don't know why. I made it through though but I sure did keep my eyes open for some pills. I go to the therapist tomorrow; I hope it's a start to something great. I was so scared yesterday and I am usually pretty tough. 29 days tomorrow and I really thought this mental crap would be over by now. I kept hearing how the mental part was bad by my God I had no idea. I do pray all the time mostly to thank him for his grace and mercy :-).   Thanks for all your thoughts and for caring!!!

[selfinduced]

Please hang in there. This acute phase your going thru totally *****, but not as bad as having to forever chase a pill bottle and feel the anxiety when your running short. Nor is it as bad as facing your family high on pills just to be normal. Missing out on these times withloved ones will later come back to haunt you. One day you will need to stop. Why not finish this dance and be med free. YOUR doing great!!!!!! Go for a walk, cry your eyes out, listen to music, drink some hot tea, pray to God...any God....just don't use. Com'on, you can do this!!!!

[solost170]

aww nursery7, I know what you are talking about, It will pass I hope today is a good day for you I'm praying for you, look how far you have come and we are all here to support you, I know what helped me when the anxiety no sleep and depression were more than I thought I could carry I would read posts and everyone encouraged me and I got through it and I know you can to.I did whatever I could to get my mind off it even when I diddnt want to and trust me I had those days where I thought this aint worth it the pain frustration fatigue the whole nine yards. the my magic day came and the veil was lifted and I was running around my yard hugging those wonderful trees your day is comen it may be today but it is just around the corner. and when it does the world will be an amazing and wonderful place to be. hang in there my dear we are right here with you fighting right along side of you dont give up. I promise one day it will be so worth it anytime you need anyone of us we are here for you. remember we have all been there and are here to help you. your friend always solost

[smiles4eva]

I have been following your story and am also wondering how you are doing today.  Hoping today is much better for you!

[dominosarah]

Are you feeling better today?  You are doing such a great thing here by getting your life back.  Look around at all you have to be grateful for, you will be surprised~~

[Life360_Dave]

Hi Nursey, i wish i could be more supportive but if this is more than you can bear please dont just beat yourself up for trying to do a good thing. Call your doctor for help. This is a medical condition. You sent me a few PMs and i can tell your a very sincere and gentle person with very sensitive feelings about life. If  you want to send me a pm and really spill your guts please do and will do all i can to listen and understand.
dave

[Vix1977]

Just like 'ImDONENoMore' said!  Not that I'm one to give advise since I can't even do it but you've come so far and I hate to see you give in.  Hang in there.  Keep your head up.  Stay positive.  I'm soooooo sure it will be worth it in the end.  This is all just temporary and you can get through it.  You're already an inspiration to me.  I tapered way down for almost two weeks and yesterday I "fell off" and increased my dose and now I'm kicking myself.  Especially after coming so far and doing so well.  I want you to do this for YOURSELF!!!!!!!  Keep coming here for support!

[bigeasy1124]

I hope today is a better day for you. It will get better and the addiction is just not worth it. Good Luck and stay positive!!!

[Katya5555]

it will pass. Stay with us, we need you and you need us. This is how we're going to get through the bad days. Remember your feelings are just temporary. I'm going through similar symptoms still too. we"ve got to wait it out. Stay strong, stay clean. Lots of love, Katya

[Brightfutureahead]

Girrrl...tomorrow will be a new, better day think about yesterday...it was pretty good, right?!

[ImDONENoMore]

Oh man, I know exactly what you're feeling but I promise you it IS worth it.  It's all about time - and that *****, I know, but I'm serious, it really is about time right now.  That's why so many of us give up because we think it's not worth it in the beginning.  But if you give this just a little more time - you will find out just how much all of this was worth it.  I promise.

[conhall]

I just sent you a PM please read it and I am so glad you posted For support You can get through this Its just a hurdle and you can get over it I will help you :)