I dont know if i even WANT this now

[dedicatedtostop]

its like 5 days. been emotional disaster for 2 days... now extreme, anxiety and bathroom trips... I never should have taken the immodium in the beginning. But really I dont even know if I want this now. I am leaning Hard the other way

[ZumaSun]

I am in my 50's and have gone through WD's from various substances on and off for too much of my life. I am on day 7 of my most recent binge with oxy and norcos for over a year. Feeling really well today. The fact is, every detox experience of mine has been different. Some worse than others but for me, most of the worst was over by the 4th day.  There are things you can't control, like how much you have been taking and for how long, and things you can, like when you decide to quit, your environment, what you do, and, hopefully, your outlook.  If I were you, my biggest fear would be getting married while still addicted. You will regret it for the rest of your life, because you won't be emotionally or spiritually in touch with your life partner.  Blame it on the flu, see if you can get 4 days off, do anything but do it as soon as you can. You can make it. Google the Thomas recipie, it has helped me.  Keep a positive outlook and give your future spouse the best possible wedding gift you can: your sobriety.

[amarw]

How much did you cut down, did that help? I can totally do that!!!!!!!!!!!

[0421]

I can't answer that but the forum will  tell you that you will always have an excuse, hope you try, not everyone believes in cutting down but I did for a week and then just quit.

[amarw]

Thanks guys. My fiance has no idea and I don't want to get married on these things. This isn't my first time with addiction, but with particular drug it is. Previously I didn't have a choice in quitting and I don't want it to get that bad. I have a ton of wedding stuff to do this week with finals at school also. Should I wait until next week to start this process?

[0421]

not everyone is as lucky as I am I do not have to do anything if I don't want to, but everyone else works or has kids or both, they are doing it. AND so can you!

[0421]

I will tell you the truth, it is not easy, you feel like you have stomach flu and beleive me you will  cry at everyting. I made it 6 days then used one just to get through the night, don't stop and start I have done that twice now. This forum is the greatest place we had a person yesterday almost take a pilll, it was amazing to see  how many people said no do this do that, stay with us, we will get you through it. We did she went to bed last night and doing ok today, not easy but doable. I have been on this site and just read and read the post, it took me awhile just to get on a post, but glad I did. I am 12 days and I feel pretty good, the first 8 days for me where the bad ones. It is worth it, no more counting the pills to see how many left and can I make it to the next script. Stay with us and you and I and all of us can do it.