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I failed!

I joined this forum back in February with all intention of beating my addiction to pain killers. I failed horribly. I couldn't get beyond day 3. My mind is definitely set to want to quit but at the same time my willpower is not so strong. I think the biggest pay of my failure is how scared i am of going through the withdrawal. I'm not looking forward to it at all. My question is.... Will my family doctor be able to help with the withdrawal without me getting hooked on another thing?? That would defeat my purpose here. I want so badly to get away from this addiction. I'm desperate. Please help!!
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Your doctor can prescribe clonidine which is an old B/P med that is very helpful in calming withdrawals.  It's not habit forming.
Beating addiction is not about willpower. You just can't white knuckle through it and hope for the best. It's more about your mindset. Are you getting any support? Going to meetings, groups?
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No I'm not so far. I'm planning to get through the withdrawal before i try to venture away from home. I know me and i know i will not be strong enough to not give in to temptation. I'm almost embarrassed to say anything to my doctor even though i know i need help. That's part of what has kept my addiction going so long.
1801781 tn?1461633069
Telling my doc was the first and best step I took to get clean..outside of coming here.  She gave me an off label medication that is used in jail  for addicts going thru withdrawal.  Wish I could remember the name.  It helped me so much.  No concern with addiction for it.  
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Littlebit- Was it Hydroxizine?
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Hi....well you really got to want it for this to work....I often say this is 1/3 phyical and 2/3 mental so be ready to fight it out on both fronts
the number 1 thing you can do to help is try to keep a positive attitude  it makes the difference of being uncomfortable or suffering.....suffering is a choice..  this is a lot like the flu with some added anxiety and rls  right now stock up on a case of gator aid  some ez to cook meals you will have to force the fluids and eating.....I have said this a million times but you just have to be ok without being ok for a wile..  this should be your mantra for the next few days..this to shall pass.....try not to read anny thing into it  it is always worst in our minds then it turns out to be.....rent a bunch of movies to watch  most people dont sleep and pick up some epsom salt for the bath....a hot soak really helps with most of the symptoms you may need several a day  the only way to do this wrong is to try to do it alone  so post and post some more where here for support  you have almost made it threw buy making it 3 days  day 4 or 5 and your usually threw the phyical part of the symptoms...aftercare is a must once you start to feel human again then the mental ''mindscrew'' starts  will talk more about aftercare once your detoxed......just know YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!! and where here to help  let us know when you start...may God be with you
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Gnarly<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
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I'm only 24 hours in and i feel miserable. The pain in my back is unbeatable. I can't sleep because i can't get comfortable to sleep. I've tried hot baths but it doesn't work long enough to get me to sleep. I've tried heating pads but as soon as it works for my back my legs start. I keep telling myself i can do this. It's really hard
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Hey, mini- Yup, you are supposed to feel like absolute hell. Our body's "payback" for our addiction. I can't really add much to what Gnarly wrote, but there is no escaping this part whether you do it now or later. Aftercare is the difference between people getting clean and people coming back on here saying they can't stop using.

Post as much as you want. We will be here for support.
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I figure i got myself here and it's up to me to beat my addiction. I would imagine that once I've detoxed my pain won't seem near as bad. I have decided to seek some help from my doctor though. If i don't i will not get through this.
242912 tn?1402547092
Have you tried Ibuprofen or an aspirin?  If you're allowed this type of OTC med, it can take the edge off the aches.  
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I have tried Advil and Tylenol but not aspirin yet. I do have real physical problems that led to my addiction in the first place so for the most part otc meds don't give any relief. I'm just going to see what my doctor does to help with the withdrawal symptoms and I'll deal with the pain somehow
495284 tn?1333897642
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You will be surprised to find out the OTC meds actually work.  Your pain may increase for awhile.  That is called rebound pain and it will subside.  It is just a nasty game our brain plays with us.  Keep us posted on how it goes with your doctor.
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I can't get in to see my doctor until July. I can't go to a detox center without a referral. I'm getting pretty discouraged here!!!
1801781 tn?1461633069
sounds right...just not sure!  I was kinda out of it for a bit!  :)
3197167 tn?1348972206
Can you specifically ask your doctor or nurse by phone to give you a referral.....let them know the urgency of getting one?
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You have not FAILED anything...one thing you will come to learn is that people here are all in the process of recovery and staying clean.  There is no final solution.  We are all in a never ending process of staying clean.  Please reach out if you have any specific questions on how to get clean, because I can he help.  In the meantime just keep moving in the right direction...there is no failure...there are victories and setbacks, but you will will will always be an addict in some stage of recovery.  Hey, it could be worse and you can look at every day clean as your own personal victory...that's what I do.
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Yes you failed this time you can do it. As for the doctor I think he could help. Don't know what he would give you. But the ppl here can tell you what will help. all the things I was told worked for me. For example my doctors answer was methadone for heroin addiction but just swappin one for another. The thought of withdrawls is scarey and no one enjoys that exspearence but the ppl on m/h helped me by example exercising baths what to eat drink ect. You only have to ask. Good luck in what you choose to do with much respect and ill pray for you that you have the willpower to get it done Again good luck my friend ,,,,,James
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