paws is a group of symptoms that last 2 yrs after quiting an addiction, its universal, patients scale differently but everyone goes through this period
you can check out my paws journal, but also remmeber that many addicts are really self medicating mental illness so you may very well be bi-polar, the good news is that once you are clean you can find the right type of help, there are a couple of 12 step groups you can look into, na for your addiction and AdA for the possible bi-polar, even if you do not stick to these programs or find they are not right for you, the people at the meetings can give you specific resources available in your community
remember "baby steps".....