I feel like hell!

[Mrdextr0se]

Hi. my name is Mark from Toronto Canada. I have been using methdone for about a year. I am on day 5 my last dose was friday morning around 5 am.  I think I drank 30 ml's then went cold turkey and let me tell you i felt like dying the past couple days. I told my girl about what i was attempting so she helped me out a bit with buying fruits,  vitamins,  checking to see if I was still breathing,  trust me,  at times i felt like i was gonna die. I feel a tiny bit better,  but these sweats are so annoying, cold one minute boiling the next. I had to take the week off work in order to do this but i really didn't realize how bad the withdrawals are. I was just wondering if the worst of my withdrawals are gone? I realize i will have lots more,  but am i past the worst of it????

[Mrdextr0se]

Merry Christmas brother.  thanks for everything.  You've been a good friend even though we have never met. I appreciate the advice. God bless and peace..

[Mrdextr0se]

    Hey Gnarley,  Merry Christmas to you my friend and thank you for all your support through out everything.  It's been 76 days now and haven't touch any methadone at all.  I have been drinking the odd time,  but just a couple of beers here and there but that's as bad as it gets. The withdrawals are gone and I still struggle but it was so worth it. Thank you everyone else for your support as well. If anyone needs any support please let me know and I would be glad to try and help and offer advice.  Anything is possible even it seems unrealistic. Merry Christmas to all and peace!

[gnarly_1]

WELL DUDE you madfe it threw the worst part now comes the waiting to get better it can take a wile but slowly you will get better try to measure it in weeks rather then days you will notice improvements by the week that you wont see by the day your doing good drink the whey protein shakes exersize even if you dont feel like it all of this will help recovery also check out a few N/A meetings it will help with the mental mind games just google them in your area keep posting to let us know how your doing but once your past the first month your not going back so you got it beat now you just got to wait it out to feel better good luck and God bless.......Gnarly

[Mrdextr0se]

Been 35 days and I havent gone back to the old lady.. I've been clean from the cranky ***** for 35 days and counting. Everyday is a struggle but I have managed to stay a float. The only thing i might complain about today is the insomnia. Couple hours of sleep and i'm up but i can manage. I would like to thank everyone for their support,  Gnarly, i hope all is well with you my brother. I appreciate the support. To everyone else thanks.. It is possible to over come methadone and when you got her pinned down, submit her and live free from her rage..

[donewitis]

What's with the "she"...lol
Hurricanes and narcotics..all of the female persuasion...
It's good to read that you are going in the right direction and KNOW that you are getting better. Congratulations!

Gnarly.. reading about Methadone..the similiarlity w/ benzos is significant..it can take months..years..to not be slammed back into w/d. I've been reading up and if I can advise anyone not to take these longer than a few days..I certainly would. They are brutal!

[gnarly_1]

REMEMBER this is a marathon not a sprint coming off methadone cqan take a few months ....and it dose for most people thats what makes it so hard is the duration of the post withdrawal the lack of sleep and energy crash the withdrawal itself is simlare to pills but its the recovery time that makes methadone different from the rest of the narcotics keep your attitusde good like it is now and slowly but surly you will get better dont try and rush it and your quite right it is very cyclic just when you think you got her beat she slams you down again just remember every day you dont use your wining this battle keep it up you doing good good luck and God bless....Gnarly

[gnarly_1]

REMEMBER this is a marathon not a sprint coming off methadone cqan take a few months ....and it dose for most people thats what makes it so hard is the duration of the post withdrawal the lack of sleep and energy crash the withdrawal itself is simlare to pills but its the recovery time that makes methadone different from the rest of the narcotics keep your attitusde good like it is now and slowly but surly you will get better dont try and rush it and your quite right it is very cyclic just when you think you got her beat she slams you down again just remember every day you dont use your wining this battle keep it up you doing good good luck and God bless....Gnarly

[Mrdextr0se]

It's been 17 days clean now. I am almost there,  i cannot believe i have come this far.  Feels fantastic getting this far,  but withdrawals still kick me in the ***. Just when you think your in the clear,  she grabs you and tries to submit you but i have managed not to tap out and keep fighting. Sleeping pattern is all bent out of shape,  but i can manage i hope. Thanks for all your support Gnarly and everyone else,  much appreciate.... It is possible to win so keep fighting for your lives! :)

[gnarly_1]

Hey dude sound like your doing pritty good for 12 days off methadone just remember this is a marathon not a sprint it can take a wile for her spell to where off the first month is the hardest I dident sleep well for 2mo so be ready for sleeping disorders the energy thing is all part of it exersize will help but you will find your only able to do about 1/2 what your use to doing at the gym dont panic it will come back but again its all about time hang in there your making it 1 day at a time just do the best with the day you get you will find this stuff is very cyclic just when you think you got her beat she slams you down again keep posting for support we all want to see you get well it just might take a bit longer then you think and thats ok it is what it is and methadone detoxing s u c k s good luck and God bless.....Gnarly

[Mrdextr0se]

Thanks, i'll grab some,   thanks for the info !

[Mrdextr0se]

Sleeping is twisted. I work midnights so when i get home i can't sleep so sometimes i take an adivan to help. It's day 12 and I'm doing good but these hot flases then cold sweats won't leave. I sleep maybe 4 hours then i'm up. Methadone ***** your body right up and it takes along time to get back to normal.  I have no energy really,  but i'm gonna try and hit the gym starting friday as it will be 2 weeks since my last dose of 30 mg.. I'm still struggling but trying my best to stay positive and not to fall into another cycle. The pain from coming off it was brutal and i keep reminding myself how painful it was.

[gnarly_1]

how you doing sleep wise ??? and how is your energy level ?? this stuff plays buy its own rules and can take a few months to get past it try the stuff I suggested it will speed things up but in the end you just have to grind it out
good luck and God bless......Gnarly

[Free_ovitall]

Amino acid supplements help a lot. Some 5htp or sam-e will help alot with they wd symptoms, as will immodium- it helps with wd's as well as your guts.

[Mrdextr0se]

Been 10 days since my last drink and i feel good. It's still a struggle cause of the toxics remaining but its bareable. I appreciate all the support..much love and thanks. Thanks sad women,  yup I already knew about that recipe. Works well. Thanks for the advice.

[Sad_Woman]

Hey fellow Torontonian, Your doing awesome! Check out the Thomas recipe it will give you a list of helpful supplements. Try and walk lots, it really does help! Stay strong and keep posting!! It gets easier the more time goes by.

[Mrdextr0se]

Well it's day 7,  well it was at 5 am in the morning. I haven't ever counted down the hours in my life until all this .. I feel not to bad. I went to my docs and he gave me some ativan to sleep. I sleep in intervels and it gets annoying. I went to the supermarket and grabbed lots of yogurts to help my digestive system. I am taking vitamins lots of anti-oxide drinks,  proeins shakes.  Does anyone know what else I should be taking?  I know i shouldn't of taken the ativan but it helped so much. I was thinking about going to a sauna and sittin in one of those bad boys,  think it will help?

[Mrdextr0se]

I'll keep you all updated..:)

[littlebit667]

Listen to Gnarly!  He has walked the walk and has helped us do that as well!
Keep up the good work!

[Mrdextr0se]

Thanks alot for the info. I do appreciate it alot. I know I should of tapered down to a much lower dose,  but i can't look back now. I am on 6 and half days. It's killer but I am trying to stay focused. The hot flases and cold sweats are ringing me right now but i can manage i hope. AGain, i appreciate all your comments and advice..

[gnarly_1]

HI Mark nice to meet you my name is Mark also so you jumped at 30mg thats pritty high and your going to feel like you got hit by a train for arond 2 weeks this is some powerful stuff and people get withdrawals off of 1mg get up to walmart and pick up a 3 in one vitamin ....calcium/magnezum/zinc
and start taking 4 in the mornig and 4 at dinner this will reduce what your feeling by 1/2 it takes a couple of days to work but your olny 1/2 yaw threw your initial detox the next thing will be no sleep and the energy crash depending on how long you where on the stuff and how high of dose you where up to will determine just how hard this stage will hit you exersize is key you have to force yourself to move around even a walk around the block will help wile your at walmart pick up some stuff called whey protein it come in a 2lb can for 15 bucks the chocolate flavor is good it has what your brain needs to rebild it loaded with amino acids extra vitamins as well as the protein all vital bulding blocks drink 2 a day coming off methadone can be a grind it can take months to feel better the first month is the hardest from ther it gets a bit ezer as you go it was about 90 days till I started feeling better I was on the stuff at 150mg for 6 1/2 yrs hang in there what your doing is doable get cofortabe with the saying you just got to be ok without being ok for a wile this to shall pass keep posting for support I know just how lousy you feel been there but it dose get better just give it some time good luck and God bless......Gnarly  

[Innerstrength67]

Hey Mark, you might want to send a message to Gnarly. He has a wealth of knowledge about meth. Or he will post a reply. Hang in there. I know you feel like hell but it will pass.

[Innerstrength67]

Hey Mark, you might want to send a message to Gnarly. He has a wealth of knowledge about meth. Or he will post a reply. Hang in there. I know you feel like hell but it will pass.

[Psychobillyqueen]

Ahh your crazy for jumping off at 30!! I jumped off of 3mgs. How is it going? I'm on day six and feeling awesome! I hope you do too!

[linton]

Hey Mark. Did you do a taper? Jumping at 30 can be a *****. 5 days in is something to be very proud of! Methadone is harder to kick because it half life is so long. I did a methadone taper and I took it all the way down to 2mls. Was a lot easier that way. I started at 90 mls and went down 5 mls per week until I hit 30 then 2 mls a week to zero. Hang in there! 5 days is a lot and I would assume the worst part is over or very close to over. You will turn that corner soon!!