Well, after I wrote my final posting in Cadillac Jack's "flushed them" thread last night I went and took 3 of the 8 pills I had left. That's the most I've ever taken in a 24 hour period...3. I felt guilty but I did it anyway. Then this morning I thought, "I never want to do that again" so I flushed the remaining 5 pills. Didn't even really think about it much...I just did it. Now I don't have any left and that's the end of it. I may have to have them again as I might need another operation on my foot but that's in the distant future so I'm not too worried about it. I don't feel like I've done anything overly great..I just feel done with it. I dont' want to be a slave to pills like I was a slave to cigarettes for about 30yrs.
For you guys who've been addicted for a long time, my hat's off to you. I was only using for a short while and I had a hard time with it. I couldn't imagine how hard it is for all of you.
and thanks to everyone who gave me words of encouragement.