I flushed my hydrocodone down the toilet this morning

[penelopejane]

I had decided to quit last night. My first thoughts this morning were to take a pill as I usually do but then I remembered and stopped myself. I had about 25 pills and I took them into the bathroom with me. I stood over the toilet and I actually hesitated! My inner addict tried to reason with me by thinking "oh well just keep these you might have a bad headache down the line and need them". I was so mad at myself for hesitating but I dumped them all in the toilet and flushed them away. Good riddance! Would any of you like to share the moment that you quit? I could use some inspiration for the following days.

[vicki595]

Good for you!  Did you feel great after the flush? Empowered? Most people do...it's usually a freeing feeling so I hope you're feeling that.

I never flushed anything because I tapered off but I do remember the day I turned all the pills over to my husband. I told him the truth and asked for his help. It about killed me but once I did it, I felt overwhelming relief.  He helped me with tapering off by holding the pills and handing them out every so many hours.  Anyway, that was my moment and I'll never forget it. It's the day that changed my life, almost 3 years ago...

How are you feeling so far?

[ActingBrandNew]

That's fantastic! Great job! I hope you stay plugged into this site because there's some awesome people here.

I quit a little over 3 years ago...wasn't able to just walk to the toilet and flush my stash. I actually had an allergic reaction to opiates and broke out in a sever case of handcuffs. Been clean ever since:) Different things bring different people to there knees.

Glad your here and hope you stay.

[Sweetness91]

Penelope, my quit date was New Years Eve...my mom passed away on NYE so I kind of did it that day for her because I knew she would never want me to live my life the way that I was. And I knew that she would never want her beautiful grandchildren, that she never had the honor of meeting, to be w/o their mother at an early age like I was. My mom never had an addiction, she had a fatal disease that there is no known cure for so her death wasn't at her own hand like mine could've been. This stuff is so bad for us! It's a shame it took me as long as it did to figure it out, but I'm so glad I did! I will have 12 weeks clean of methadone come this Sunday and I couldn't be more proud :)

Thank you for sharing your story and good luck on your journey!! You can do this! :)

[Allscrewdup]

I had a big bottle of vikes and percs, I gave them to my wife and confessed everything to her, she hid them or through them out and I never saw them again

[Sweetness91]

Oh...and I did do a taper also, but had decided from the first day of my taper that NYE would be THE day...no matter what. And I actually still had pills left on that day...and they went down the toilet just like yours did :) Good job on flushing by the way!!

[VICourageous]

Yes when I was on the hydo/oxys I tried it all..Giving them to my hub or mom too..I just sniffed them out and found them..Then when I went up the latter to the 12yr methedone Plus..I just cried for help for 10yrs..I finally just went c/t...I had a tuff ride but now it is sooo worth it..I know for sure now that I have 6m...One day at a time. I can say I never want to be there again..
I am so proud of you...
vickie

[jennlp29]

We can do this together. .I just told my sister to get rid of the last 5 loratabs I had..I was a week off methadone when health issues had my put on loratabs. .so starting this morning I've had nothing. I feel good I take a couple diff. Vitamins and they help..you have the determination so you can most def. Do this!!!!!

[OpenMind24hours]

Flushing your DOC is a hard thing to do. I congratulate you. You did much better than me.

Let's see; "share the moment that you quit". Well. I was sorta, kinda running out early...? in a way...?  My DOC (which is your doc also) had stopped working entirely as prescribed and even "as abused". I was hard pressed to get a buzz from it unless I took a ton. I was also using much alcohol and wacky weed at the time. So, I proceeded to use my Hydro down to it's last tiny bit, knowing what day I'd run out. By then I had 5 days to go before I could get the earliest refill but I had already decided that it was time. I either stop, or sink deeper and deeper into the bog of alcohol and drugs. As I wound my way to the dump, stronger street opiates were my next stop with the dump truck. To some it doesn't seem like a bad bottom, but ALL bottoms have trap doors. I don't plan to find my next trap door.
But wait! As u can see from all the type, there's more! The next thing i did, and I was already posting on here so i made a post about it - was to cut off ALL my sources. Someone wrote on here, think it was ricart70, tell all your secrets. So, I went to my doctor & told him my dirty little secret,  "Unless it's something drastic involving horrendous pain that effects my quality of life, I don't want that Hydro stuff anymore.  Nothing mind altering for me I'm addicted." He erased Vicodin and Xanax from my script list, and noted that fact. Then later I gave back my tiny little stash of weed to one of my windsurfing buddies (from where it came). So I actually did the great suggestions i read on here: Tell secrets, cut off all supplies, make a commitment to aftercare.  And I've never looked back since.  I'm free! I FEEL free. What a great feeling! Life is predictable again.

Thanks for asking penelopejane. I needed to write that! It helps me appreciate what I got going.

[penelopejane]

The flush was very empowering and I do feel free. Now I just need to drill it into the nasty little addict side of my brain that I don't need them ever again. The good news is that I don't think that I'll feel many of my normal wd because my allergies just hit me full force. I couldn't stop sneezing long enough to sleep last night and I was out of benadryl. This morning I bought some and I'm dead tired so it looks like I'll be able to sleep tonight - which I'm very happy about. I've gone ct on higher doses and it sucked big time so I'm grateful that what I stopped with was a very small amount. The only big obstacle I feel like I'm up against is teaching myself that I don't need to result to self medicating during stressful situations.

Thank you guys so much for sharing, you have so many wonderful and inspiring stories! If I ever feel down in the dumps or am tempted to take another pill I will come back and read these for strength because if you guys beat this then so can I!

jennlp29 I wish you the best of luck in kicking those loratabs. Vitamins do make a big difference. I usually force myself to work out during times like these so my body starts producing more of its own natural feel good chemicals but allergies have zapped all of my energy.

[toothfairie]

great job on flushing those pills!  i flushed mine on Nov 17th....greatest thing i've done for myself!  it felt great and i never looked back.....then i cleaned house of all pills that were old....in purses or closets...i found a few about 2 months clean and flushed them....didn't even want to take any of them....and that was a great feeling as well!  you will get thru the WDs....just keep posting for support and we can help you!!  

[jimi1822]

                                                  Good Job!!!

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[jimi1822]

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