I am a 44 year old female who had cancer when I was younger. At that time- after multiple surgeries, I got addicted to painkillers and now, it has been an issue for 22 years. I want to stop more than anything but maybe what I'm about to tell you, will change your perspective. Recently, my Dr. called and told me that I have had a heart attack that wasn't treated. Two years ago, after a LOT of abuse (21 pills a day, washed down with a bit of alcohol just to make it "work") I was having chest pains. So I went to the hospital but was unable to be honest with them about my problem. They did a series of tests and said that somehow, I had damaged my heart significantly. Now, I get chest pains daily but am afraid to stop the pills because it makes it worse. I can't afford rehab or detox so I'm trying to figure out how to do it alone. Like some of you, I live in Canada which makes it almost impossible to quit. I can buy codiene over the counter in small amounts which means I consume a LOT of them to get the same high. Recently, I have been diagnosed with a brain tumour so now I am more alarmed because if I admit to my problem, and go through brain surgery, they won't give me anything for pain and that frightens me.
I am going to try to quit on my own prior to any treatment for the brain issue but have been unsuccessful in the past at doing so. But when my heart flutters, and my chest hurts, I SWEAR to myself that I'm going to stop. Heart damage, liver damage and many other problems are a real issue with painkiller abuse and I can only warn you that you don't EVER want to experience those frightening moments associated with a heart attack. Nobody knows, even my husband.