I moved and was referred to a Dr. My Dr. said was very good. The referral was June 3. I still don't have an appointment. I called them and they said they were backed up. I've Been on narcotic pain meds from a surgery gone bad. I had a birth defect and this was my 3rd hip surgery. I took generic long-acting morphine and 6 oxycodone, 3 Valium, and a generic ambien. 3 appointments ago my Dr said he was in trouble for overprescribing certain pain meds. He is a pain specialist with a Yale Diploma! Anyway he said I had to take no more generic long term morphene, I had to take Subsys, a spray form of fentanyl. It says it's for breakthrough pain. It is instant. I take it every 6 hours. He took me from 6 oxycodone to 3. The previous combo worked great-I could walk around my house, do laundry, didn't feel "high" or knocked out. I begged him not to change it. I had finally found what worked. Even my son said I was "back"! He said it was this fent/Subsys or nothing. I've never abused or sold my meds. Now the new Dr says they are behind, and when they get to me, and IF I'm approved- ill get a call. I called my old Dr. They called and said I NEED to be seen by the 3rd. Well, no appt. he won't let me even go back to him! Not even until I get an appointment. My pain is not bearable. Ever since I was 17 months. I've only got pain help for about 8 years. Now he made me take this scary strong narcotic. It knocks me out sometimes. I fall down. I begged not to take it. So I'm going to be out of everything the 4th. Nobody will help me. I have to wait my turn. I was told they do new patients on Friday. I prayed for a call, but nothing. I am thinking of just going to CO and use medical marijuana and go to a Dr there. Every surgeon I go to for help just says pain management the rest of my life. I can't take withdrawal and the pain too. I hear the ER won't help me. I feel like just going away. Get it over with. I never abused my meds, too afraid to run out. I followed all the rules. I feel like jumping off a cliff. Thelma. No Louise. Just me and pain forever, and it gets worse. My DDD, Congenital hip dysplasia with no more bone left for another hip. I hurt from head to toe. Now I go through withdrawal over nothing my fault. Mom had a stroke. If I'd stayed home I'd still be getting my medicine. Now I'm just waiting until I go into WD and hope I die.