I understand about having real pain but beieve me that doesn't protect you from becoming an addict. I have chronic back pain for 13 years didn't start taking meds for it until 2002 when the right meds/dose was found I took them exactly as RXd for 8 years then started having problems with control dt tolerance & my dr wouldn't change my med or adjust my dose so I did whatever I had to to get more pills to control the pain eventually I had to many "open" receptors in my brain & my brain screamed for more. Then it became about the pills not the pain even though the pain was still there. I don't understand why u can't get a job? All I ever had to do was just show my prescription & I was fine. I have a license in the medical field & work in management. R u ready to stop using? If so, u do have options that will help with wds.
no you are not screwed go see a drug counseler you have alot of option on detoxing suboxone ,cold turkey ,tapering you may have to follow up on pain management classes and rehab there arer alot of us out here also that can get you through this iwas scared also . stay focused