Hi all. Day 6! Waking up after 5 straight hours sleep. I made it through yesterday with nervous chatter to the orthodontist and everyone else I had to encounter. I had some rls but the gabapentin helped with that. I tried not to take it but I could feel the cramping slightly but as everyone knows even the slightest makes it uncomfortable. Besides the massive bags under my eyes, my body seems to be picking up on its senses. Everything smells strong, tastes strong, feels weird to the touch, and my eye sight seems to be clearing. That really bugged me out. I have an issue with hearing. I have a disorder my hubby calls selective hearing. I still and always will have that haha! AND I have gotten my sense of humor back but its still tough on the nerves when something makes me mad. Still have to control the anger. Thanks for listening if someone does. Peace
Praying for you, keep it up! Showers always help me feel better while detoxing... You can do this!
Day five. I had a massive migraine last night. Got some sleep. Feeling better today. Have to go to orthodontist with my daughter as she's getting braces. First time facing the public. Watching the Holy Father speak just makes me want this more. Feeling emotional today. I hope I get that same burst of energy I got yesterday. Peace
I just have to post this. Even if no one cares... 1/3 of the way through day 4. I just took the most energizing shower ive had in years. I started singing a Doors song out loud. No one home of course. I think I'm getting my MOJO back people!!!!! I couldn't tell you the last time I sang in the shower. I'm super excited because I think I maybe on the upside of this. Sub taper being the cause and anxiety being my doubt of any of this six days ago on my first post. I have this forum to thank for listening. I definitely am NOT out of the woods yet. I'm expecting ups and downs. I love being up though!!!
PEACE!
I hear ya! I have been in in outpatient programs and they pushed meetings down my throat. Ive been before when I had my license. Honestly, its not for me. If anything, Ill get in touch with my therapist. I stopped seeing her just this past june. That is when I jumped off 2mgs of sub. that lasted a day. I couldn't handle it so that's when my doc had my taper off that and here I am. I haven't contacted her to tell her I went back on it. I figured I was seeing her for so long. she would come here and we would talk like we were bffs hanging out. As long as I don't have issues where I need to take meds/ killers, I think I can get through it. I only have issues when I would be prescribed them after the three back surgeries. so basically this is my third time coming off. I know ican do it as ive done it before. ALL my docs know my issue now, before I thought I could handle the killers. NOW I know I can't. and so doesn't my mom. she would never speak to me again as well as my dad and the hubby already threatened to leave me if this happened again. I think ive learned my lesson. I WILL DO THIS! GOD AS MY WITNESS I PROCLAIM I WILL NEVER TOUCH THEM AGAIN! I did go through carpal tunnel surgery last august. took motrin. I was cool. I was on the sub too then though. I had such little sub in my system the past month the doc was so surprised I was having withdrawals. I never took the stupid things right. I ended up swallowing half the strips. ill be fine. don't feel too bad right now. This is possible! I appreciate the all the info. this rambling was basically to say meetings should be a part of the process. I get that aftercare is super important. I'm a veteran of the Air Force. I'm a veteran of pills. I'm a veteran of leaving this behind. I'm strong. I'm strong headed strong willed. I can do this. thanks peace
Hi.....well where theirs a will there is a way....about 9mo ago I started to have seizures and lost my driving privileges....I let every body in the meetings know this for the next 90 days someone from the meeting came and picked me up and brought me home you will find addicts helping addicts is what this program is all about your only going to be gone mabe a hour and 1/2 if you stick around to talk to people..(i recamend this) but a hour and 1/2 verses going back to active addiction it is a cheep price to pay your family will survive you being gone a couple of times a week....keep in mind this disease can kill you and will keep trying until you find recovery right now you need to do something pro/active for your recovery nothing changes if nothing changes just ask someone with thats been clean a wile here and they will tell you aftercare works
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and let him talk to my doctor, who explained that opiate withdrawal really *****! My doctor suggested a few things to help with symptoms. An amino acid called L-tyrosine, which is found in bananas, meat, cheese, etc. or buy at a health food store and it's what your body needs to make the "feel good" chemicals. If I could only afford one thing, it would be the L-tyrosine! I can tell a difference when I take it, then go running. Also, excercise boosts your brain to make those feel good chemicals that your body has forgotten to make because the opiate did it's job. Multivitamin, anything with potassium, magnesium, iron and zinc help with restless legs.
I will say, comparing my experience from coming off of stuff on the streets and coming off of a good taper, a lot of the symptoms are in my head! I psych myself out so much fearing the symptoms, but when I calm down, live in the moment, I realize I really don't feel as bad as I thought. My sponsor has always told me "Sometimes instead of taking one day at a time, you really have to take it one minute at a time", and when detoxing, I try to remember that. Anyone can do anything for just one minute! Keep it up, you can do this! You dropped down way lower than I did before making the jump, so I imagine you'll do just fine ;) Praying for ya, you will look back and it will all be worth it!
Here's where I get my l-tyrosine, since I saw you asked where to get some supplements. http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DR28E74/ref=sr_ph?ie=UTF8&qid=1442685153&sr=1&keywords=l-tyrosine