how much ativan did u take each day? benzo wd is tough..much tougher than narcotic wd for many..u may be thinking it is the narc wd and it is possibly both///ativan is a strong benzo//second only to xanax..and it is not sposed to be stopped ct...but tapered....u r in wds from 2 drugs possibly right now....most stop narcs first then tackle the benzos if they abuse them as they r tougher to combat
It may be from both, but I never abused the ativan. I took the maximum dosage though this past week to help with the Norco WD. So I dont know.
I am praying for you. Here's my advice. If there is anyway that you can take off from work tomorrow and for a few days after that, please do.. And please don't give up. Because you are right.. if you do give up you will have suffered this entire week for no reason and you will have to go through it again. You have come so far. If you can just hang in there, do so. Hold on by the skin of your teeth but don't take any drugs except for an anti depressant. remember that an anti depressant is not going to help you with your withdrawal now because they don't usually kick in for about 3 weeks. So you are in for some more suffering, but it will be worth it in the long run - to get your life back.
Your husband sounds like he is being a jerk instead of supporting you. I'd like to give him a piece of my mind. He doesn't seem to be showing you compassion so just let him be as much as you can - stay away from his advice and input and lock yourself away with a cold wet towel for your head and some dvds to watch.
If you have to go back to work tomorrow, then take what you need but you are going to have to plan a couple of weeks off in the future and go through all of this again.
Love and Peace girlfriend. I would give anything to be there with you to give you support.
I cant take anymore work off. I have to train a new employee so I have 14 hour days this whole next week. I am not giving up though, but I have got to get my mental state together before I go at this again. Everyone depends on me and I just feel soo much pressure to be "perfect" I think that is why my husband said what he said because I am always the strong one and gets everything done no matter what. I think finally not being numb to all the pressure really got to me. Thankyou for your support. I am defintely not giving up but I think I may need to try to taper until I get settled on an antidepressant. I really dont know!
Tapering may be the thing to do for you. Have you talked to your doctor about any of this? If not be honest with him and you 2 can put a plan in place....Dont beat yourself up over this either. Just set your goals and start reaching for them........sara
tapering and a AD are fine... how long have you been on the atavian if it has been long term then it has to be tapered slowly if not it can cause sezuires ?
YOu are not perfect. And you are giving your family the impression that you are.. And it is at a vast cost to you as a human being. I just think that not everything is going to get done while you are recovering. Look at it this way. If you had breast cancer and had to go for chemo you would be so tired and not able to do anything around the house. Your husband has got to understand this. Also, if you have any extended family that can take some of your pressures off of you while you are going through that, I would ask them. What you are doing is making your husband's life easier and those around you easier - at a tragic cost to yourself. Don't be the hero any more. YOur family is going to have to move into the real world.. and it isn't going to be easy either. But in the long term, you will dealing with your life and your emotions as God or the creator intended you to live your life - i.e. sober.
God Bless you! For some reason, you have really pulled on my heart strings and I am really worried about you so please keep posting. Scout
You really are right and I didnt realize how much I was hurting myself while trying to help everyone else. Thankyou for caring! It really means alot. I have always had to be the level headed one. I was always the parent to my mom and basically raised my siblings because my mom is an addict as well. I have alot of hurt because of abuse as a child and I know now that I am going to have to deal with it and stop pushing it away and acting like everything is ok. That is how I feel, "like an actor" in my own life. I dont even know who I am anymore because I have been acting for soo long. It scares me sooo bad! I dont want to be like my mother to my kids! I am realizing that I really need to start asking and getting help and not try to be a "superhero".
Thankyou all for your support! I know that I am strong enough to beat this but I guess it is going to be a bumpier longer road than I had anticipated. Please keep me in your prayers.