Aa
I thought I'd made it
- and then I didn't. I relapsed today. I went through w/d and my at-home detox 6 days. And then 60 Vicodin fell into my lap. And I took 1. And hid the rest in the house.
How could I think this is a good idea? I had a terrible w/d experience when I went cold turkey, a milder but miserable w/d experience last week - I finally started to see the light and... I popped a pill today. REALLY?!
Does this EVER get easier? I don't want to be dependent. I don't want to be looking for my next fix. So how could I fall so fast?
How could I think this is a good idea? I had a terrible w/d experience when I went cold turkey, a milder but miserable w/d experience last week - I finally started to see the light and... I popped a pill today. REALLY?!
Does this EVER get easier? I don't want to be dependent. I don't want to be looking for my next fix. So how could I fall so fast?
Hi, Bad! Appreciate the question, and the answer is a resounding no. It's not that I don't agree with the concept, but due to the nature of my job (and the disciplinary action _I_ have had to take against nurses who were discovered as addicts, sometimes via "anonymous" meetings) I will not consider it.
I'm open to non-meeting, non-public-access idea.
As a general update - this week is exactly what I expected. Up by 4, at the office by 5:30, home around 7PM with 2-3 hours worth of work left to do before the next day, into bed before midnight, and up again the next day. It's going to be a solid 2 weeks of crazy, then it will relent to my normal nuts....
I know stress isn't the addict's friend, but neither is no job. To add to the mix, this economy and the changes in healthcare - I'm staying put and clawing to keep my job, just like everyone else. So it's a little bit of being stuck, but thankful I have a job to be stressed about.
I'll be honest, today I hit my limit and I'm in danger of using. Luckily or unluckily, I have another couple of hours of work tonight before I pass out and I have a very early morning - and no easy access to pills tonight. So hopefully, will make it to my day 14.
I'm open to non-meeting, non-public-access idea.
As a general update - this week is exactly what I expected. Up by 4, at the office by 5:30, home around 7PM with 2-3 hours worth of work left to do before the next day, into bed before midnight, and up again the next day. It's going to be a solid 2 weeks of crazy, then it will relent to my normal nuts....
I know stress isn't the addict's friend, but neither is no job. To add to the mix, this economy and the changes in healthcare - I'm staying put and clawing to keep my job, just like everyone else. So it's a little bit of being stuck, but thankful I have a job to be stressed about.
I'll be honest, today I hit my limit and I'm in danger of using. Luckily or unluckily, I have another couple of hours of work tonight before I pass out and I have a very early morning - and no easy access to pills tonight. So hopefully, will make it to my day 14.
Hi....sorry If I ask a question that has already been discussed...I'm a little short on time so I didn't read the whole thread.....are you looking into or attending aftercare?
HI how you doing with the extra work ?? remember stress is the enemy if you over stress you will want to use.....and yes my grandbabys wore me out6 we had them from 8 til 7.30 a long day with a 2yr old and a 16mo old when they come here they expect to be played with the whole time and I love doing it but it is tiring but it helps out my daughter and we get to spend time with the dynamic duo as for you keep an close eye on your stress level this can be a HUGE TRIGGER .....I had to leave a good job because of it but it wasent worth my sobriety
I will find a new job hopefully soon I think I might just hang my electric tools back on its a lot less stresfull then sales but the money is not as good but its still a good living what to do what to do anyway take care of yourself this taking on the work of 3 has me worried about you please know your limits and dont exceed them your in dangerous water if you do.......Gnarly
I will find a new job hopefully soon I think I might just hang my electric tools back on its a lot less stresfull then sales but the money is not as good but its still a good living what to do what to do anyway take care of yourself this taking on the work of 3 has me worried about you please know your limits and dont exceed them your in dangerous water if you do.......Gnarly
Glad to see you post, been wondering how you were doing! Sometimes running all day is the best way to do it! Haha! Once things calm down, you'll be WAY over all this wd BS! keep it up, you're doing great!
Hear your grandbabies are wearing you out! :-)
Unfortunately, high-stress is the nature of my everyday job. So, this just makes it extra challenging.
So far, I'm making it but exhausted. The hours are killer, the job stress unrelenting, and no end in immediate site. NO trouble sleeping because I've been on my feet for 16 hours putting out fires and can't wait to fall into bed. Still thinking about how much easier this might be with a "friend"... but not giving in.
Unfortunately, high-stress is the nature of my everyday job. So, this just makes it extra challenging.
So far, I'm making it but exhausted. The hours are killer, the job stress unrelenting, and no end in immediate site. NO trouble sleeping because I've been on my feet for 16 hours putting out fires and can't wait to fall into bed. Still thinking about how much easier this might be with a "friend"... but not giving in.
HEY GIRL you go now so you got some shift changes thrown at you .....risk factor just went up
dont be looking for a pill to give you energy will trying to cover for the work of 3 your going to get tired it is expected whats not expected is a little white energy booster so watch your self or as Sara always say GUARD UP you made it this long last time it only takes something to trigger you off to use.....over time you will learn what those triggers are fro now trust me on this one im so proud of you making it past you last relapses .....shows you can do it now try not to stress about work addicts and stress dont mix well my conslor always says ....Mark there are no big deals......there cant be your sobriety relies on it he is right you know
just take it one day at a time you will get threw again CUDOS for making it to a new goal good luck and God bless.......Gnarly
dont be looking for a pill to give you energy will trying to cover for the work of 3 your going to get tired it is expected whats not expected is a little white energy booster so watch your self or as Sara always say GUARD UP you made it this long last time it only takes something to trigger you off to use.....over time you will learn what those triggers are fro now trust me on this one im so proud of you making it past you last relapses .....shows you can do it now try not to stress about work addicts and stress dont mix well my conslor always says ....Mark there are no big deals......there cant be your sobriety relies on it he is right you know
just take it one day at a time you will get threw again CUDOS for making it to a new goal good luck and God bless.......Gnarly
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