I'm Back part2

[mamaamw]

I had to start a new thread. The other got too long... Anyway.... Still having diarrhea even after Imodium. Sweats. Anxiety. It just won't go away. DY 4 seems worse than yesterday!!!!

[Bobo0331]

The process goes in waves. At times, it c comes out of nowhere. Salt bathes, yogurt helped me, also, I started doing guided meditation using the headspace app and was an instant believer, it helped stop the anxiety symptoms I was having.

5 will turn in to 7, into 14, into 21 days, just hang on. You are coming back to life.

[EvolverU]

How do you feel about the fact that she hasn't cut you guys off? (If it were me..I know the answer would be 'ambivalent' until I got angry/sick of it enough!) How do you personally feel...Can you tell us?

[mamaamw]

Ann, she hasn't cut me off... I'm just tired of the roller coaster!!

[EvolverU]

That's the spirit! Just stick with it. You've worked so hard. You CAN do this! Yaaaay you for sticking this morning/afternoon!! (Proud of you!)

[Ann2497]

I agree with whoever said don't worry about Wednesday because it will make it worse.  I do a lot of showers and baths for the anxiety.  There really isn't much else you can do since you have to be careful not to run out of Xanex.  Did your Dr. cut off your supply of pain meds or did you just decide that you were tired of the merry-go-round with always chasing a hire and feeling sick?

[mamaamw]

I'm just thankful it's a long weekend. An extra 24 hrs is HUGE with w/d. I've been up working around the house. I'll work for 10 min, rest 10. Work 10, rest 10. That's all I can do. I just want to crumble and fall... But if I can just keep pushing along...

[Farmgal40]

just wanted to chime in here to mamaamw: today is day 29 for me, so it's my fourth 'weekend" without the pills. I have to say - I do MUCH better during the week when I'm working actually. I had the massive anxeity like you the first week, so working was hard then - I was sweating alot,could not sit still, and was craving tons of junk food. But I notice when the weekends come, I find myself "in my head" too much with the emotional side of the WD.  Its like I have too much time to think, and feel like I "should" be accomplishing lots of tasks (ie like you said above, laundry, going to the store) and that I'm not doing as much "as I should."  So give work a try - you may find it's a good distraction. But your doing great so far!  Like a few people said on here to me at first - keep your expectations low and cut yourself some slack and give it time!  :-)

[mamaamw]

Do you all think ill feel better going back to work tomorrow? Maybe getting my mind off things? Or make it worse?

[EvolverU]

You Got It & You Deserve It! Just Keep on keepin' on. How are you doin' now? A little less anxious? (I know that world's gonna' end feeling!) You're doing a good thing for yourselves & your loved ones!! (What's ending is the negativity & it's fighting back! -- Try to think of it that way..)

[mamaamw]

Thank you EvolverU. I need ALL the encouragement I can get!!!!!

[EvolverU]

You got through it last time & you'll get through it this time. (Let's just make sure that this time around you don't ever have to suffer through this again -- no fun at all..at all, eh?) Thank you so much for breathing & getting into that bathtub. The acute anxiety usually only lasts for a couple of weeks or less depending on your DOC, length of time in, underlying conditions & your entire attitude!! (SMILE) You're DOING it. Hang in there! You got through this this morning & if comes back you can sit with it & get through it again, my friend. I gotta' say I'm so proud of you!! GREAT JOB.

[mamaamw]

Ill take a bath. It can't help. How long does the anxiety hand around? I don't remember...

[EvolverU]

Try to remind yourself that you're doing this in order to actually get your life back! Try to think of this as a painful but necessary initiation into a life of self-respect & limitless possibilities. Listen, your whole system is stuttering right now. That's what's going on. It's traumatized & is trying to readjust. Let it!! Think of the alternative? Why go through all of this again? None of us are guaranteed another chance & that's a fact. I've got plenty of dead friends (& so do many others here!) to prove it. You can do this. You are not Dying! Just  anxious & uncomfortable. Remember, that attitude, what we tell ourselves is extremely important, here. Now, what are the possibilities of that bath?

[mamaamw]

I feel like I'm slowly letting go of my grip on life!!!

[EvolverU]

Cry...Journal. Get it out!! Do whatever you've got to do that is positive. HOLD FAST, my friend! You're doing fine.

[EvolverU]

Do you have an iTouch or something like it with earbuds/headphones? Do you have a bathtub. Please, run a hot bath, light some candles or incense, put your favorite music on, throw some epsom salts or plain salt into the tub & get in their. Try to just breathe. Don't look down that tunnel. All you have to get through is this moment right now. Don't tell yourself that it's unbearable. Don't worry about Wed. If you want to be able to get there & be there for them, this is the way you've got to handle it otherwise you'll be a basketcase & won't help anyone! You CAN do this. The Mind is very powerful. Let's try to redirect here. Is there anyone around you that you can call who makes you feel grounded & peaceful -- anyone who can make you laugh? Remind yourself that what you're going through is very chemical in nature. This Wave WILL pass. Try not to struggle with it. Breathe. Walk. Bathe.

[vicki595]

It's an NSAID...do you have an rx for it?  It WILL increase the action of anti hypertensives...It would be so much better if you discussed a treatment plan with your doctor, don't you think? It's safer, at least...

[mamaamw]

I just want to cry! I'm REALLY having a hard morning! Yesterday seemed soooo much better. I actually went to the store, did a few things around the house. Today, I go from couch to bed to couch to bed to couch... My body aches, I'm taking all the Tylenol I can take! I had gastric bypass so I can't take Advil or anything, only Tylenol. So, I'm laying here wanting to cry. NEEDING something for pain! I'm miserable. Anxiety is kicking my tail and draining my Xanax, which I'm trying to not take too many. My daughters bday is Wednesday and I'm afraid I'm going to ruin it for her. I'm just REALLY struggling right now. I looked all over this house for clonadine and there's none. I just need this to be over with! Day 5 shouldn't be this bad!!!!!!

[mamaamw]

What about Nabumetone? Anyone heard of that?

[EvolverU]

Benadryl didn't work for me & made my symptoms worse. There were no OTC's that worked for me, personally except for Imodium as directed. It takes time. You've got to let yourself heal & this takes time. Please...give yourself a chance & have faith in the process. You'd have to get the Clonidine from a Dr. as I'm not one & we're not really allowed to give exact prescribing info. Suffice it to say, if you're blood pressure is usually in a 'normal' range that the dose is pretty standard. This is something that you can look up on line.

[vicki595]

We can't tell you the dose and frequency of clonidine; it's against the guidelines here.

Get yourself some magnesium caps and some L-theanine. Follow label directions and it will help greatly.  There's also an OTC sleep aid called Alteril that's helpful.   Hang on there...

[mamaamw]

Benedryl caused my symptoms to be worse last time. It's pouring down rain here too, that doesn't help. How often and what mg, etc do u use clonadine? My hubby has struggled with high bp forever! Chances are, we have some here. How often do you take it?

[EvolverU]

Great advice, Dana! Mamaamw, I understand that you can't stop the Xanax w/o a taper & Dr. supervision. You're absolutely right, In terms of it feeling like day three again, unfortunately, detox is rarely a straight 'vector'. It tends to go in cycles. Try to eat binding foods like bananas, rice, cheese, bread, applesauce, etc. Please, do get some Imodium & hydrate, hydrate, hydrate! (2 to 3 liters of plain water per day.) Music will definitely help fire those endorphins & distract you from the anxiety.

[Ann2497]

The first time I detoxed I used Clonidine.  Do you think one of your dr. would give it to you?  It is a blood pressure med.  I wouldn't have made it thru with out it.  Also, how do you do with Benadryl?  does it make you sleepy?  I had read on another pain killer addiction site that someone used Benadryl to help calm themselves down.  Also the herb Kava (you could get at a vitamin store) is supposed to help with anxiety.